Borz said:
If a company gave you an option to turn back into your true age would you?
YES, YES, YES. Yes, definitely 200%. There is no bigger wish than for me to be a 4 year old so I could match my emotional / social / mental age with my physical body. Not only that, but most people I know, including old college instructors, my librarian friends, my close personal friends from elementary school to college, parents of young children that I know or have known, and maybe even some actual preschoolers and younger children would totally support this wish of mine 200%. There's almost no question. I would have nothing to lose at all (as I virtually don't have any adult rights anyway) - and everything to gain (by getting back my "child" rights). Heck, I have a feeling even my enemies and former bullies would probably agree there, with my friends.
This would be perhaps a different situation if I didn't have more severe Classic Autism and ADHD, if I was "normal" and nonautistic. I don't feel I've ever really been an adult ever. When I have tried to even act like an adult, it is just such a very poor mimicry that a normal nonautistic 5 year old can do just as well in pretending to act like an adult. Any nonautistic 4 year old even can see that I'm just an overgrown kiddo. In fact, some 4 year olds (in the not so recent past, like 20 years ago), have been slightly (the word slightly should be in italics) unnerved by me, because to end up being like a 4 year old emotionally and socially as an adult, like how I have ended up, would probably be a nightmare for a few children. My social skills and understanding of nonverbal facial cues are so bad that most nonautistic preschoolers can do better than me and also have theory of mind. A lot of Autistic people have lack of theory of mind, even with a college degree. Like when I used to stand up in the middle of a Finite Math class in community college, blocking everyone else's view of the blackboard, while I was writing notes from the blackboard, totally oblivious to the fact that other students behind me couldn't see the blackboard because I was blocking them. It's like a 2 year old toddler blocking your view of the TV - of course, they don't mean to do that. I only am aware of this because my old math instructor from community college told me years later (we have been friends for 27 years).
I seriously have had parents of young children I know (and this is more recent, a few years ago) tell me they think that my life would have been much better and easier if I had just stayed a 4 year old. I even been told by parents that actually. A lot of young children seriously think I'm actually 3 or 4 years old. Of course, older kids like teens or young adults might guess I'm around the area of being chronologically 16 to 19 years old. For most adults, including middle aged and elderly adults even, their guess is I'm around 21 or 22 chronologically if they don't know me. I have a babyish face. I'm really in my mid 40s, but I seriously look like I'm 21 and I still get carded (not that I've ever been drunk. I never even had more than one drink at a meal ever). I look like a very tall 12 year old boy if I wear a longall and T strap shoes.
- longallsboy
