Alright, all aboard the topic train.
Now I understand that many trans people believe that that they always had these feelings, and I'm not denying that. Certain things in my super young life definitely point to me being never exactly comfortable with my own assigned gender role.
What I'm asking is for our gender special community to describe the first time they ever actually consciously thought.. no, this is wrong... or perhaps.. but.. I want that! If that makes sense.
I'll start with my own. It's actually pretty simple, and I was still pretty young when it happened. I used to be really into The Land Before Time as a kid and my favorite character was Ducky. I asked my sisters if we could play a pretend Land Before Time game, and they all enjoyed the series too. I told them I wanted to be Ducky, and my sister adamantly told me no.
Her reasoning was that I was a boy, and Ducky was a girl. I couldn't be Ducky, apparently because whatever Ducky was off limit to me just because of the way I was born. Unfortunately as a kid I really was a pushover, and I didn't fight it... let myself lose that "grand" debate. But I was sad.. I remember being really sad. Like something was really wrong with the world, even with just this simple sounding moment. I didn't feel that was fair.. and it really hurt my feelings... like I had to start changing who I wanted to be for other people and it really did just keep on going from there. I often thought of the ways society saw boys and girls like this, and more and more I felt like there was this unfair wall separating "boy" and "girl" that I hated..