giantguy99

Wow I guess that is what a realization that shakes your core will do to you because from how you've spoke and all it certainly sounds like your discovery of your diaper lover side and ADISC shook you to the core of who you thought you were.And it's great that you're going through revisions of of how you see yourself because but that is a good thing because now you're seeing who you really are (or perceive yourself to be)

Well logic and reasoning are generally good ways to find the truth out and it is a good way of think for real life too,but when you get into the scientific things you need to remember that science is an ever changing thing and the sources of facts do change often sometimes so the validity of things is also ever changing too.

Well it's always good to have a theory and yours does make some sense.

As far as the odds go my life has taught me that the highly unlikely can sometimes be the simplest of answers

Oh I see well I wonder why it would start when things are getting better though that just seems odd.But if you're a light sleeper and starting to become a deep sleeper I'm pretty sure the whole waking up attacking air thing will stop unless it's just something intense that shocks you awake.So you might not have to worry about the problem much anymore you never know after all

Oh ok well that makes sense although I wonder why you'd wake up attacking the air.Are you sure you aren't having some intense dream or nightmare that you aren't aware of.I mean I use to fight all night in my sleep and occasionally wake up wondering what happened but it turned out it was all just a dream.

I replied to your personal assault on MattiKins blog, maybe you would be good enough to read it.

Oh ok I wasn't aware of that till now but I'll be sure to keep that in mind for future reference.

But all in all I think it was good that you are trying to neutralize you reckless tendencies because lord knows being reckless is dangerous even if it is admittedly fun sometimes because I personally do sometimes do reckless things just for the fun of it but I imagine you were being reckless on a constant basis.And I think it's nice that this place has helped you tell your therapist about being a diaper lover and I'm guessing from how you speak your therapist's reaction was either positive or neutral and they are trying to help you out with it.

I don't mean to pry to much but you said you had just awoke from a nightmare and were still a bit out of it.Do you mean an actual nightmare?And if so I'd imagine it would have to be an intense one to weaken your mind how it sounds like it has.

Well I guess that makes sense since you weren't really focused much on yourself because you were more worried about getting away and dealing with all the pain and your own survival.

Well the impossible happens more often than we realize.And it's a great thing that you did get help in several ways I mean you had a therapist,pastor,and then your DL activities and from how you talk they helped you greatly but I do find it interesting your therapist knew about your DL stuff but never said anything.

Well that is good to know I mean at least there isn't really anything to worry about I mean relaxing and all in them doesn't really seem to concern many who you're talking to

Ok that sounds good to me and I don't really concern myself much with Dr.Phil or anyone like that I just stumble across their stuff every now and then

Well I think it's good not taking pleasure in reporting someone for doing something like causing trouble for fun.So I doubt you'll grow fond of it after all you were just looking out for the forum which is good.

Yeah that is an amazing thing knowing that you've realized so much about yourself in such a short amount of time.But I'm sure as you learn more and work everything out you'll put all the pieces in place and just keep moving forward

well lets just do both here it's just easier that way for me because then i only have to go to ONE link to find out both.

Oh sorry to hear you're stretched so thin my friend and I'm not sure which message you were referring to setting up as a visitor message because the only conversation I can think of is the one we already have going on PM and the one from your blog

Thanks for the heads up ^^

i can accept anything that does no harm!

i cannot accept this!!!