Oh no no no, this just will not do;
is there a local group there that meets in real-time where you are. do you have gender friends by chance. is the collage that you attend have a LGBT community. i know that these can be just bigger closets to hide in at times, but they can also be stepping stones to a bigger life too.
when we get sired it hurts; when someone follows us around and does it, it hurts even more. and i am sorry to say, even worse things can happen. that is why i ask if you have friends to do things with. i don't want you to be a target. it is not always safe to be what you and i are. please remember that, Emo....