It is in my name: Angela, it was the name of my first big crush and in girly mode I like to watch barbie movies or listen to girls music
I'll bite because I'm interested.
Why did you choose your girly name based on your first big crush? It's just an interesting aspect of your decision making here. Actively choosing to incorporate yourself in your idea of another person rather then carving your own girly identity.
It is a beautiful name in my opinion, and my crush was the first person I've met that was called Angela. I don't know if this had any influence in my opinion, but it is a cute girly name and it fits with my girly identity. It's difficult to explain for me, it is just a feeling