OldTerry said:
Yes brought up in them wore to school to just before 10 in SEN classes although wasnt SEN,happiness in them as so safe and secure is why I am as I am now,even though I very often self loathe myself
You're a great, caring Human! Life is way too short to self-loathe, really!
It is hard to like yourself, as you know all your short-comings.
When the darkness comes, try busying yourself by taking all those great things about you and write them down. If you think the list is too short, trying helping those that need a bit of help. It can be little things at first and simple things like helping a neighbor clean-up their lawn, etc. Alfter all if you have time to loathe, you have time to help someone else.
I believe in your goodness and if you take a poll, more likely everyone else here will agree!
Have a wonderful day, you desire it!!
Cheers!