Where did these feelings come from

Whovian2011

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So I am going to apologize in advance but this is going to be a long story. So from the time I was potty trained I had always wanted to go back to diapers. Had thought i had only wanted them for the softness and nothing else. When I left home for college and got rhe opportunity to buy some of my own I immediately was drawn to wanting to wear girls goodnites. I could not explain why but I was just in love with the cute designs and color. Sadly they did not fit. This same desire came back when I first heard about DC Amor diapers.

When I started to embrace my more babyish side the desire started to stretch to wanting girlish clothes. At first it was just wanting a skirt small enough a diaper would poke out, then wanted more girlis shirts, and even thought of getting panties.

The craziest thing is I have no desire for women's clothing in regular life, but when I think about my little side I feel there is a baby girl wanting out if that makes sense.

I don't know how I went from just wanting to be back in diapers to this 😕.
 
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Whovian2011 said:
So I am going to apologize in advance but this is going to be a long story. So from the time I was potty trained I had always wanted to go back to diapers. Had thought i had only wanted them for the softness and nothing else. When I left home for college and got rhe opportunity to buy some of my own I immediately was drawn to wanting to wear girls goodnites. I could not explain why but I was just in love with the cute designs and color. Sadly they did not fit. This same desire came back when I first heard about DC Amor diapers.

When I started to embrace my more babyish side the desire started to stretch to wanting girlish clothes. At first it was just wanting a skirt small enough a diaper would poke out, then wanted more girlis shirts, and even thought of getting panties.

The craziest thing is I have no desire for women's clothing in regular life, but when I think about my little side I feel there is a baby girl wanting out if that makes sense.

I don't know how I went from just wanting to be back in diapers to this 😕.
I think this is more common than you think. Me, I’m the same way with diapers. I’ve always wanted to wear them. I’v always thought of myself as a girl, and didn’t know what trans was til my teens. But my brain and hear tell me I’m a woman, but I’m little space, I’m a baby girl.
 
BabyHailey1977 said:
I think this is more common than you think. Me, I’m the same way with diapers. I’ve always wanted to wear them. I’v always thought of myself as a girl, and didn’t know what trans was til my teens. But my brain and hear tell me I’m a woman, but I’m little space, I’m a baby girl.
The thing is I've never thought of myself as a girl. I don't feel any kind of dysphoria or anything. It is only when I think about having some little time do I start wanting pink diapers, onesies, etc...
 
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Whovian2011 said:
The thing is I've never thought of myself as a girl. I don't feel any kind of dysphoria or anything. It is only when I think about having some little time do I start wanting pink diapers, onesies, etc...
I get it. I’ve always lived with dysphoria. It wasn’t until the last couple years that I’ve embraced it. My therapist said it was like I opened Pandora’s box.
 
I don't think it's crazy, I think it's sweet. For me, being a grown-up girl would come with all kinds of baggage: responsibility, sexuality, boyfriends, having to behave like an adult. Being little is carefree, fun, playful, frilly, cute.
 
Sissy/ABDL is fairly common in our kink. Not crazy at all.

My sissy side is generally tied to my age regression. The seeds for both must have been planted around the same time. 99% of the time my crossdressing involves diapers.

I know I always loved the look of frilly diaper covers under dresses. It just looked so comfy, soft, and cute... I remember being made fun of in elementary school for liking "babyish" and "girly" stuff, so I tried to suppress my feelings for all things diapers and sissy. Lucky for me, being a bedwetter, I couldn't escape the diapers. I also couldn't escape the constant embarrassing dreams about dresses and diapers and frills.

There was a moment- The store was out of boys goodnites, so my mom was forced to buy the cute pink girls pack for me. She came home very apologetic, and asked me if I was okay with wearing goodnites for girls. I pretended to be bummed out and understanding, but my little side was jumping for joy. That's when I knew there was a little a sissy baby in me.
 
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I’ve always lived with dysphoria. It wasn’t until the last couple years that I’ve embraced it. My therapist said it was like I opened Pandora’s box.
My nursing home could decide that I'm not dysphoric enough to be distressed. That might be their excuse not to permit hrt (hormone replacement therapy). I'll see what insurance says.
 
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SeniorMan said:
My nursing home could decide that I'm not dysphoric enough to be distressed. That might be their excuse not to permit hrt (hormone replacement therapy). I'll see what insurance says.
Good luck!! I hope it all works out.
 
LaLoneDigi said:
Sissy/ABDL is fairly common in our kink. Not crazy at all.

My sissy side is generally tied to my age regression. The seeds for both must have been planted around the same time. 99% of the time my crossdressing involves diapers.

I know I always loved the look of frilly diaper covers under dresses. It just looked so comfy, soft, and cute... I remember being made fun of in elementary school for liking "babyish" and "girly" stuff, so I tried to suppress my feelings for all things diapers and sissy. Lucky for me, being a bedwetter, I couldn't escape the diapers. I also couldn't escape the constant embarrassing dreams about dresses and diapers and frills.

There was a moment- The store was out of boys goodnites, so my mom was forced to buy the cute pink girls pack for me. She came home very apologetic, and asked me if I was okay with wearing goodnites for girls. I pretended to be bummed out and understanding, but my little side was jumping for joy. That's when I knew there was a little a sissy baby in me.
I'm much the same. Bed wetter until late teens. Always wanted to steal and wear baby diapers in my teens when babysitting. Discovered the ABDL community on the internet in college. Now I can afford nice all-night diapers from Rearz, and have a wife who's puzzled AF, but accepting and supporting, so I'm quite comfortable in my sissy babyhood. I maybe spend 50% of the time daily wearing girly clothing, favoring frilly lace and bright colors, but not all of it is as a little. I like tennis dresses too.
 
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Whovian2011 said:
So I am going to apologize in advance but this is going to be a long story. So from the time I was potty trained I had always wanted to go back to diapers. Had thought i had only wanted them for the softness and nothing else. When I left home for college and got rhe opportunity to buy some of my own I immediately was drawn to wanting to wear girls goodnites. I could not explain why but I was just in love with the cute designs and color. Sadly they did not fit. This same desire came back when I first heard about DC Amor diapers.

When I started to embrace my more babyish side the desire started to stretch to wanting girlish clothes. At first it was just wanting a skirt small enough a diaper would poke out, then wanted more girlis shirts, and even thought of getting panties.

The craziest thing is I have no desire for women's clothing in regular life, but when I think about my little side I feel there is a baby girl wanting out if that makes sense.

I don't know how I went from just wanting to be back in diapers to this 😕.
This is exactly my story too - I don’t know how to make head or tail of it
 
LaLoneDigi said:
I tried to suppress my feelings for all things diapers and sissy.
The progress I was making in my life accelerated for a time after I began posting in this forum. My activity continues to be intermittent, variable in intensity, and prolonged by interruptions. I had subdued feelings, not making an effort to use them to aid my growth. Fortunately, right now, I am focused on this gender transition.
 
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LaLoneDigi said:
I remember being made fun of in elementary school for liking "babyish" and "girly" stuff, so I tried to suppress my feelings for all things diapers and sissy.
The progress I was making in my life accelerated for a time after I began posting in this forum, which was after being admitted to my nursing home. Some residents in my nursing home tease, ridicule and make jokes about my cross-dressing, unjustly and falsely implying that I am to be blamed for cross-dressing because it is an evil, disapproved, and therefore should be spoken of in a slighting and disrespectful way. These residents attempt to discourage me from this practice by using words having negative connotations that are especially insulting, ridiculing, and belittle-ling to me. My activity continues to be intermittent, variable in intensity, and prolonged by interruptions. I had subdued feelings, not making an effort to use them to aid my growth. Fortunately, right now, I am focused on my gender transition.
 
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Whovian2011 said:
The craziest thing is I have no desire for women's clothing in regular life, but when I think about my little side I feel there is a baby girl wanting out if that makes sense.
I'm the same way. As a teen I dabbled into "big girl" stuff and was especially fond of bras. I set that interest aside near the end of high school and it hasn't returned (I'm 47 now). On the other hand, little me has continued to feel like a girl. I'm especially fond of diapers, pacifiers, and bottles in girl colors and prints, and if there was ever a great time for me to wear one, I'm sure I'd have a onesie with a girl print also.

Over the years I've entertained a few theories as to where my little girl side came from. My current favorite is that almost all of the babies and other diaper-aged kids I was around in my youth were girls. My little side was often living vicariously through a friend's little sister or the daughter of a family friend, and whenever I managed to wear diapers myself I found myself sort of roleplaying as one of them. That's never left me, and although I have a lot of gender-neutral gear, I'm definitely at my littlest when I'm outfitted like a girl. "Little" and "girl" are sort of mutual triggers for one another.

*shrug* Who knows?
 
The attraction for me, is a need or want to be dressed in sissy frilly little girl things, because a part of me wants to be humiliated with them, but hidden, my secret love of pretty little girl thing. “I’m going to dress you in little girly things and diaper you!” Oh no, but YES! 😁 There’s more to it I think, but that’s the short explanation. I don’t really desire to be a girl, or woman.
 
BabyHailey1977 said:
Good luck!! I hope it all works out.
My doctor doesn't prescribe the medications needed for my gender transition. She did say she would look for a doctor that does. Generally Medicare plans like mine don't have most gender transistion medications in their formularies.
 
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