Well, I obviously never knew it was any sort of fetish at the time, but diapers were the first thing I remember masutrbating about specifically. I was like 5 years old, only out of diapers for like a year, and I remember I wanted to go back to Pull Ups. I wanted Pull Ups specifically because they were the last diaper I wore before I was trained. Either way, I absolutely loved the thought of being back in diapers. However, then I was caught and told that I shouldn't masturbate (they didn’t say masturbate). However, I could not stop and just tried to hide it. I think that did no good for me because I think it made me ashamed of my sexual feelings. To be honest, I feel like diapers are a part of my personality because I also masturbated to being transgender until I was able to act on it. Masturbation is to stimulate my imagination. But yeah, diapers have always been something that interested me. I remember once when I was like 6 and was forced into a Goodnite as a “joke” against my will by my mom's boyfriend at the time. That memory stuck very clearly in the back of my head for many years, so I know it meant something to me. But yeah, I first found my love of diapers not long after potty training, but it took me until I was 18 before I acted on it and bought myself a pack of Goodnites. I still love my Goodnites almost a year later and find it ironic to associate it with that weird memory as a child.
