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Uhm ...hi...
*weakly waves and blushes and looks at the ground and hides behind a stuffy while imaginary doodling on the ground with toes*
Well this is kind of over due now.
I'd intended when I registered to have this long detailed intro but I've already written a lot of stuff in other posts.
Long time lurker, life long DL since childhood and eventually evolved to full blown AB/little. Realized I never actually grew up, my adult self is a false construct created by my little to survive and succeed in an adult world, and this whole time I have just been using the results of my adult success to enable my little to live the dream life of my little kid self.
Little age is something like 4-6 boy who is shy and awkward but shameless about being baby at times.
I've written my theories on the whole DL to AB life cycle already in other posts and that's pretty much a projection of my own journey and self discovery that I now see in others.
Why am I here though? And Why now?
I've always been anti social and extremely introverted. That's bad enough on its own, but throw in ABDL skeletons in the closet on top of that and it's condemnation to a lonely life of isolation and solitude.
What changed the last couple years for me to finally 'come out' and take the step of participating here?
A combination of prerequisites came together at the right time recently.
First my dream career took off and I've finally been able to let go of some past grievances and look forward with confidence instead of backward with bitterness.
Next the covid Pandemic happened and my dream job became a full time permanent work from home dream job with the obvious implications for a little.
And the big bombshells within the last year.
My living arrangements changed and I have my own place all to myself for the first time in ages.
In the months leading to these changes being put into motion I just...suddenly let my little side run wild. The anticipation of being able to wear footie jammies 24/7 without being locked up in a bedroom, having kids bed sheets, sleep with stuffed animals, all my 'little stuff' strewn about in the open with total control of my home decor all to myself. Even a crib or a nursery if I wanted. The possibilities and excitement became endless. I was free and wouldn't have to hide anymore.
Then something magic and unanticipated happened. While I was experiencing all this build up and going crazy feeding it with all the ABDL content online I could consume I stumbled onto something that resonated with these feelings at just the right time. Something that had a profound effect on me that Ill be able to look back on as life changing and the reason I'm here now and the reason for everything else that follows.
I discovered and became addicted to the ABDL comic Shine.
And the weight of all of this just vanished. It inspired me to not accept being alone or being afraid anymore. To achieve that I knew I'd have to expose myself and meet others like me which meant exposing my secret to strangers for the first time in my life. What next?
I did the unthinkable. Inspired by the events of Shine, butterflies in my tummy and heart racing a million miles per hour I registered and committed to going to CAPcon 2023.
And succeeded. I've been approved, I have non refundable plane tickets, and a host hotel room booked. It's actually going to happen. I will not allow anything to stop it from happening. It needs to happen no matter how terrified I become.
My first and only outing and first time being seen by others and seeing others like me. Its both exciting and utterly terrifying but it had to be done. I'm going. I'm tired of being alone and I'm tired of pretending I can keep this closeted and pretend to have a normal vanilla relationship. It's never going to work. I have to get out and meet people like me. I have no choice.
So here it begins, the first day of the rest of my new life.
Guess it's Q&A time now.
*peeks out from behind stuffy with a 1/4 moon eyes little boy smile and giggles*
*weakly waves and blushes and looks at the ground and hides behind a stuffy while imaginary doodling on the ground with toes*
Well this is kind of over due now.
I'd intended when I registered to have this long detailed intro but I've already written a lot of stuff in other posts.
Long time lurker, life long DL since childhood and eventually evolved to full blown AB/little. Realized I never actually grew up, my adult self is a false construct created by my little to survive and succeed in an adult world, and this whole time I have just been using the results of my adult success to enable my little to live the dream life of my little kid self.
Little age is something like 4-6 boy who is shy and awkward but shameless about being baby at times.
I've written my theories on the whole DL to AB life cycle already in other posts and that's pretty much a projection of my own journey and self discovery that I now see in others.
Why am I here though? And Why now?
I've always been anti social and extremely introverted. That's bad enough on its own, but throw in ABDL skeletons in the closet on top of that and it's condemnation to a lonely life of isolation and solitude.
What changed the last couple years for me to finally 'come out' and take the step of participating here?
A combination of prerequisites came together at the right time recently.
First my dream career took off and I've finally been able to let go of some past grievances and look forward with confidence instead of backward with bitterness.
Next the covid Pandemic happened and my dream job became a full time permanent work from home dream job with the obvious implications for a little.
And the big bombshells within the last year.
My living arrangements changed and I have my own place all to myself for the first time in ages.
In the months leading to these changes being put into motion I just...suddenly let my little side run wild. The anticipation of being able to wear footie jammies 24/7 without being locked up in a bedroom, having kids bed sheets, sleep with stuffed animals, all my 'little stuff' strewn about in the open with total control of my home decor all to myself. Even a crib or a nursery if I wanted. The possibilities and excitement became endless. I was free and wouldn't have to hide anymore.
Then something magic and unanticipated happened. While I was experiencing all this build up and going crazy feeding it with all the ABDL content online I could consume I stumbled onto something that resonated with these feelings at just the right time. Something that had a profound effect on me that Ill be able to look back on as life changing and the reason I'm here now and the reason for everything else that follows.
I discovered and became addicted to the ABDL comic Shine.
And the weight of all of this just vanished. It inspired me to not accept being alone or being afraid anymore. To achieve that I knew I'd have to expose myself and meet others like me which meant exposing my secret to strangers for the first time in my life. What next?
I did the unthinkable. Inspired by the events of Shine, butterflies in my tummy and heart racing a million miles per hour I registered and committed to going to CAPcon 2023.
And succeeded. I've been approved, I have non refundable plane tickets, and a host hotel room booked. It's actually going to happen. I will not allow anything to stop it from happening. It needs to happen no matter how terrified I become.
My first and only outing and first time being seen by others and seeing others like me. Its both exciting and utterly terrifying but it had to be done. I'm going. I'm tired of being alone and I'm tired of pretending I can keep this closeted and pretend to have a normal vanilla relationship. It's never going to work. I have to get out and meet people like me. I have no choice.
So here it begins, the first day of the rest of my new life.
Guess it's Q&A time now.
*peeks out from behind stuffy with a 1/4 moon eyes little boy smile and giggles*
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