Thoughts

[deano13]

I have always considered myself as an DL and not an AB, when i first started wearing, it was a mix of Dry nights & pull ups untill they started to get a little small around me i stopped wearing untill one day i passed a pharmacy and discovered "big nappies ", i then only ever wore medical style nappies, mostly the old plastic backed Lille Slip, and Tena slip, which i still wear to this day.

Now i prefer AB style prints, the cuter the better, not a massive fan of cloth backed, with one exeption the ABU line up, as i was growing up plastic baby were on the way out and were getting replaced by cloth backed ones, allot of my last "unpottied stage" memories are in cloth backed, but i just cant get away with them especially the medical style as they just seep through and leak.

I only ever wore clear or white plastic pants over the top, and now they all have prints on them, i dont own a single pair of unprinted ones.

When i buy onesies i have about half & half patterned/prints for around the house & plain for out and about.

I have a good few sleepers and they are all popper based down the legs, as it feels more " babyish" , where as i started with zip styles

i have also managed to get a pair of dungarees, they dont have snaps on them but im desperate to learn how to either put them on myself or have them put on by a clothing tailor, also i do own one or two more "AB" style tshirts, and when im out shopping for clothes i try and pick childish prints, lucky i can still just about fit in the largest childern sizes.

I have recently pulled out a teddy i had from when i was a kid, and i cuddle this while falling asleep and ocasionally pop my Nuk in, i used to have a bottle that i drank warm milk from but ive since replaced this with a toddler sipper bottle.

I own a crazy amount of changing materials and creams ect.

Now the things that dont appeal to me are the things like, crawling around/baby talk/baby food/baby toys/ having a mummy/daddy (wouldnt bat an eyelid to being changed by one of them though)

So
I know everyone is to there own and there is elements everyone likes or doesnt like and you also can have Littles, Middles & Bigs, but has anyone experinced similar where they have started as a simpley a DL and started turning more AB ? ( Apologies if this has been covered before but this has been on my mind allot this week due to wearing allot more)

Thanks

 

[BenNevis]

I definately think I started off as being more DL. It was all about the nappies out there, and while there was a connection to being little, out of shame really, I never really explored it. I'd fight against it by thinking it was a step too far and got that sense of safety and security from being all snuggled warm in a nappy.

But bit by bit, I began to loose the judgement against my little side and gently open to stuff I thought I might like. At first, it was sucking my thumb. And that was lovely, espescially when padded and drifting off to sleep. Then trying a dummy and loving it. Then getting a onesie and thinking how adorable and little they looked and feeling wonderfully little when I put them on.

The thing that really cemented it for me was being looked after by a daddy. The first one I ever went to in particular was the most transformative in helping me accept that side of myself and know it really was okay to let myself be as I am. Then came things like having snuggles, nappy changes and bottles. All wonderful. As a parting gift, he gave me my snuggly dragon who I cannot sleep without and always reminds me that at heart I'm a little and that I need to look after that side of myself.

I'm now comfortable and happy with the fact I'm a little and love that fact I have a warm, happy and safe headspace I can get into when I need to. It's broader than just nappies and its such a lovely state to be in.

 

[ItsTimmyTime]

I've always thought of myself as purely DL, The AB side never did appeal to me, especially when I was single and wore by myself and in privacy.

Since coming out to my wife I think we've both surprised each other. From the offset she said the mummy thing was a step to far for her and it would freak her out. I never wanted this from her either so that was no problem at all.

We've raised two kids together so she's naturally very caring and has lovely nurturing side. Once she began engaging with me doing things such as changes, washing my hair and body at bathtimes and talking to me in a way, like she used to with our kids..... it comes naturally for her to do that with me, although she'll sometimes cringe when she does it off the cuff, without a second thought 🤭 we always have a good laugh in those situations!

So yeah, I was DL but my wife has helped me discover a little side I never knew existed and she has some lovely caregiver qualities that really works for our dynamic.

 

[deano13]

I definately think I started off as being more DL. It was all about the nappies out there, and while there was a connection to being little, out of shame really, I never really explored it. I'd fight against it by thinking it was a step too far and got that sense of safety and security from being all snuggled warm in a nappy.

But bit by bit, I began to loose the judgement against my little side and gently open to stuff I thought I might like. At first, it was sucking my thumb. And that was lovely, espescially when padded and drifting off to sleep. Then trying a dummy and loving it. Then getting a onesie and thinking how adorable and little they looked and feeling wonderfully little when I put them on.

The thing that really cemented it for me was being looked after by a daddy. The first one I ever went to in particular was the most transformative in helping me accept that side of myself and know it really was okay to let myself be as I am. Then came things like having snuggles, nappy changes and bottles. All wonderful. As a parting gift, he gave me my snuggly dragon who I cannot sleep without and always reminds me that at heart I'm a little and that I need to look after that side of myself.

I'm now comfortable and happy with the fact I'm a little and love that fact I have a warm, happy and safe headspace I can get into when I need to. It's broader than just nappies and its such a lovely state to be in.

That exactly, i myself felt ashamed other than wearing just a nappy, and now slowly bit by bit my little side is starting to show more, i can even do it stealthy way, wearing little clothes/padded in public in a way regular clothes on top as not to draw attention to myself, and then in the house either in my room or when my house mate is out/or away.

If im honest i always thought about having a daddy, but as i have grown older the thought of another male changing me doesnt sit right with me I have massive appriciation for others that does this, its just not for me, and respect those that do ,and i prefer a male to female situation, which has now lead me wanting to explore either a mommy/little and switching the other way around if relevent.

 

[wetnappyjon]

All my life I've thought of myself as what we now call an AB until later on when I wondered how it would be to have a gay relationship incorporating nappies - a DL relationship. This lasted years but was never fulfilled although in my head it was much more DL than AB. Then I had a slowly evolving relationship with another guy who happened to be IC. When we eventually decided to meet I had no real idea how it would go but I imagined, hoped, that it would be a sexual gay meet involving nappies. It turned out immediately that he was a natural daddy and I instantly switched to being his AB boy. I've been there ever since, more and more deeply AB and happy too.

 

[BenNevis]

That exactly, i myself felt ashamed other than wearing just a nappy, and now slowly bit by bit my little side is starting to show more, i can even do it stealthy way, wearing little clothes/padded in public in a way regular clothes on top as not to draw attention to myself, and then in the house either in my room or when my house mate is out/or away

Yeah that feeling of shame really was all consuming and, in retrospect, completely misplaced. Being little doesn’t hurt anybody else, it’s just a state of being. It helps many of us cope with things and is just genuinely snuggly and enjoyable to just let yourself be little. Getting over that is the big thing which allowed me to even contemplate being little and I’m pleased I did- it’s lovely to not have to deny a part of yourself and fully accept yourself as you are.

If im honest i always thought about having a daddy, but as i have grown older the thought of another male changing me doesnt sit right with me I have massive appriciation for others that does this, its just not for me, and respect those that do ,and i prefer a male to female situation, which has now lead me wanting to explore either a mommy/little and switching the other way around if relevent.

I’d looked for a mummy but they are very few and far between and happened to stumble across a daddy. My little side is non sexual and I made it very clear from the beginning that I wasn’t looking for anything sexual and when he said the same, we ended up being a good fit. I thought the same as you, but as a little in that headspace, it really didn’t matter who was changing me, I just needed someone to look after me and treat me like a little one.

But your reasoning makes sense, you can only really be little when you’re comfortable. Personally, I’d love to have an experience little time with a mummy and hope one day to be open enough in a relationship to tell a gf about that side of myself. I wouldn’t even want her to take part of mummy necessarily, but just having that acceptance with one person would be really important, not having to hide that part of myself.

 

[Cottontail]

has anyone experinced similar where they have started as a simpley a DL and started turning more AB ?

Up until about ten years ago I thought of myself as a DL only, despite that my preferences in diapers have always been for cute and babyish, and despite that I've always associated wearing diapers with being little. I think a lot of what kept my AB side at bay was simply a lack of time to explore it. I had very little privacy and was always fearful of being discovered, so I'd let the urges build until they became distracting and then I'd "take care of business." And then, as quickly as possible, I'd hide everything away. Rinse and repeat.

Lately, for an assortment of reasons (working from home is one), I've found myself with a lot more privacy. The fetish still begs to be tended as it has since puberty, but between its visits I no longer feel rushed, and I've found that simply wearing and using diapers really helps me emotionally. I'm as able as ever to deal with my adult responsibilities, but they inspire a lot less anxiety. Over the last few years, with encouragement from AB friends here and elsewhere, I've bought my first pacifiers, bottles, and onesies. Each of these has really felt like a step in the right direction. It's been such a natural progression.

Although now I'm painfully jealous of those with cribs.

TL;DR: Yes.

 

[Tomtomthedl]

Y,all are telling my story just about word for word. I always thought of my self as a DL. Even though I always like the baby printed diapers for some reason. Fast forward to today I have two baby printed onesies, elmo tee shirt, two pacifiers with clips so I don't lose it at night. 🤣 I still don't consider myself an AB.

On a side note, the wife came home today and this woman done got me a stuffed animal to sleep with.🤣

 

[LittleAndAlone]

Yes, that seems to be the way it goes. Either you subconsciously realize the reason you were attracted to diapers from the start was how babyish they made you feel. Or you start needing to augment and lend credibility to the actualization that you are in diapers and should feel like a baby by bringing in other babyish or childish paraphernalia. At first, pacis, sippies, onesies, shortalls, stuffies, etc serve as power multipliers to increase the intensity, authenticity, and realism of being in diapers. Eventually those items become comforting by themselves and take on a life all on their own. Then you realize you just enjoy feeling little even when diapers aren't involved.

A common progression I've touched on in a few posts now.

You don't necessarily have to be a baby or into baby and infant aged activities and behavior. The faux self humiliation and embarrassment and shame of imagining yourself as an older school age child too old to be in diapers but who still needs and wears diapers is a thrilling and intoxicating fantasy for many ABDLs. It's quite common actually.

It's probably a combination of the heightened embarrassment and humiliation and shame aspect borrowed from BDSM overlap (baby's are expected to wear diapers, older kids aren't). After all the shame and forbidden fruit was part of the irresistible lure when we stole our first diaper. And also the practicality and reconciliation of retaining most of our adult independence and self-sufficiency while in little space (make our own food, feed ourselves, dress ourselves, etc) when a care giver is not desired or required.

 

[Lyric]

For a long time, I though of myself as strictly a DL and that the chief satisfaction I derived from wearing diapers and rubber pants was sexual arousal and excitement. But as I aged, I realized it was more than sexual. That I enjoyed the childish and immature behavior from wearing diapers and going potty and sometimes pooping my diapers. I started to suck my thumb like I had when I was young. I became attracted to being breastfed or drinking formula from baby bottles, and even got some pacifiers. I started dressing in colorful cloth diapers with childlike patterns and characters and similar rubber pants. Using baby wipes and baby powder adds to this childlike behavior