This is something that's been bothering me for a while, and its sort of something I talked about in the pet peeve thread.
I don't harbor any ill will towards the agere / CGLre / etc. side of Tumblr. In fact it was being a part of that community before I left the website altogether that made me realize I was an ABDL. But therein lies the problem. If I ever wanted to go back, I'd have a couple options:
1. Hide this part of me and go back to calling it agere like everyone else. I might've been fine with it before I realized, but now I feel like it'd just be a step back. The agere side of Tumblr is very anti-kink, full of misinformed minors and adults and believes that ABDL and the like can never be non-sexual or non-kink related. What does that make mine then? Trying to give it a different name just to fit in with what everyone else thinks is completely different when in fact it is usually the exact same just feels redundant and stupid.
2. Come clean, and risk everything that comes with that sort of thing. Like I said, the agere side of Tumblr is very anti-everything under the ABDL umbrella. Even if I did go back and make strict rules that minors shouldn't follow me even though my content is SFW and non-sexual, I'd be subject to harassment and blocks from literally every corner of that community. Not that I mind, but while I was there I only met a handful of people who were specifically not anti-kink, but still anti-ABDL interaction. Hell, I always thought it was funny that they were so anti-ABDL despite most of the terms they used being stolen directly from ABDL or DDLG terms without even changing them a little bit.
Not that I'm going to rejoin. I left Tumblr before I came back to Missouri. Spent 2012-mid 2021 in that fucking hellhole; almost a decade. Even if over those ten years I learned a lot about myself, it gave me mental problems from everyone expecting me to be in the know with politics from every side of the Earth and having to watch people E-beg every couple minutes because they think they deserve money for being a little different. I would never go back even if I was bribed with a million dollars.
I just wonder... how many other people were there like me? Hiding their ABDL sides under the guise of agere or similar but unable to talk to anyone about it because they were worried they'd be shunned and ostracized? I wish I could find them all and let them know there's better places to be than a shitty blogging site that breaks every couple weeks and is littered with the worst kinds of people.
I think this is making less sense the more I go on and ramble but I am glad agere was the gateway to me realizing I was an ABDL. I'm not glad knowing if any of those people knew that that I'd be harassed over it.