How many people here have contemplated suicide? Right now I don't know what to do. I feel like I want to die but part of me is holding back. Half of me says to get rid of the pain both emotionally and physically. The other half says I will never have kids. I will not follow my dream and become a doctor. And that would be the end of the Timko name. I don't know what to do. Has anyone been through this before? I've hit rock bottom and can't handle it!