Insomnia1963
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Good morning/evening depending on when you read the post.
First of all, it might get a bit lengthy, and I'm actually not sure if it's the right forum to post this in, but here goes.
The TL/DR:I can't get into the kink, even though Partner isn't stressing me to get into it, and I'm seeking advice to how to get into it. Basically.
I (29 male) have a partner (20 male) that is an ABDL.
Honestly, it's not my thing. However, I try to participate as much as I'm comfortable since I want to make my partner happy.
Why am I writing here?
The honest answer is, that I feel left alone, despite my partner trying to be open and help me getting into ABDL.
Thing is, I don't know how to interact with the kink. I honestly don't. And I'm seeking advice here, from people that are more experienced.
On the one hand, I'm trying to support my partner, since I do NOT think that ABDL is disgusting or what not. However on the other hand, I notice how I'm dragging out situations with my partner at times, just to delay the ABDL part of his life.
And honestly? I feel like the worst partner in the world, whenever I do it. Because I do not feel disgust. At all. I'm honestly overwhelmed and confused how to behave and what to do. Because what I see, is an grownup person, trying to be an "Little". (I think that was the right term?) However, it doesn't click on my brain. Which... Makes situations awkward for the both of us. He told me, that it'd be okay, and we would take it step by step, and not further than I'm comfortable. And I'm happy that my partner has the patience with me.
Earlier this evening, I put on his diaper for him, for the very first time. I even started playing a children bedtime story in the background, since I read that some people like that. So as you see, I'm trying my best here being supportive.
He's also next to me asleep, thus I'm having the time to write this here.
But.. Yeah. I feel like I'm rambling at this point, and I apologise. But I don't know how to feel right now.
Is there something wrong with me, since I can't get into the kink? Because I want to make him happy, but I'm afraid that one day, I'm going to do it say something that hurts him deeply while he's a "Little", which could end the relationship.
As I said, long read. I'm confused. Any tips, on how to get into the kink?
I'm watching ABDL youtubers, and listening to podcasts about the topic, with interest, since it's a new world. But as I said, can't seem to get into it.
To whomever who took the time to read it:Thank you, and have an actually fantastic day. You're awesome!
First of all, it might get a bit lengthy, and I'm actually not sure if it's the right forum to post this in, but here goes.
The TL/DR:I can't get into the kink, even though Partner isn't stressing me to get into it, and I'm seeking advice to how to get into it. Basically.
I (29 male) have a partner (20 male) that is an ABDL.
Honestly, it's not my thing. However, I try to participate as much as I'm comfortable since I want to make my partner happy.
Why am I writing here?
The honest answer is, that I feel left alone, despite my partner trying to be open and help me getting into ABDL.
Thing is, I don't know how to interact with the kink. I honestly don't. And I'm seeking advice here, from people that are more experienced.
On the one hand, I'm trying to support my partner, since I do NOT think that ABDL is disgusting or what not. However on the other hand, I notice how I'm dragging out situations with my partner at times, just to delay the ABDL part of his life.
And honestly? I feel like the worst partner in the world, whenever I do it. Because I do not feel disgust. At all. I'm honestly overwhelmed and confused how to behave and what to do. Because what I see, is an grownup person, trying to be an "Little". (I think that was the right term?) However, it doesn't click on my brain. Which... Makes situations awkward for the both of us. He told me, that it'd be okay, and we would take it step by step, and not further than I'm comfortable. And I'm happy that my partner has the patience with me.
Earlier this evening, I put on his diaper for him, for the very first time. I even started playing a children bedtime story in the background, since I read that some people like that. So as you see, I'm trying my best here being supportive.
He's also next to me asleep, thus I'm having the time to write this here.
But.. Yeah. I feel like I'm rambling at this point, and I apologise. But I don't know how to feel right now.
Is there something wrong with me, since I can't get into the kink? Because I want to make him happy, but I'm afraid that one day, I'm going to do it say something that hurts him deeply while he's a "Little", which could end the relationship.
As I said, long read. I'm confused. Any tips, on how to get into the kink?
I'm watching ABDL youtubers, and listening to podcasts about the topic, with interest, since it's a new world. But as I said, can't seem to get into it.
To whomever who took the time to read it:Thank you, and have an actually fantastic day. You're awesome!