After reading the comments, I have to apologize for my lack of consideration and my insensitivity, especially toward those who need diapers for medical reasons. My message was primarily directed at those who may me entering some of kind of position with a public profile where a secret like this could destroy their life. I just wanted to share my story of how being free from the fetish led to greater mental freedom and reduced internal shame, as well as a feeling of no longer being imprisoned by a behavior that was hurting my self esteem. It's took a lot of self control to break the habit. It really was an addiction. But I was able to abstain from the fetish/wearing for 13 years after age 22, and it gave me so much freedom and peace of mind. I feel there are others out there who can relate. But I am sorry if I offended or hurt anyone. I know how difficult it can be for those of us who are or who have been addicted to wearing diapers. It was really bad for me from ages 19-21. But from ages 22 and on I experienced so much more mental peace and freedom from being free from the addiction. Through practicing a special form of qigong, I eventually was able to even get rid of the addiction element of the diaper fetish. The qigong eliminated the addictive energy from my body that was compelling me to wear diapers. Both Buddhist meditation and qigong have the potential to help some people uproot addiction from the mind completely (if the appropriate karmic conditions are there); and sometimes, especially if the person observes good morality, the addiction never returns. For about 13 years I didn't even have a moment where I felt compelled or driven to wear and I abstained completely. The desire to wear diapers vanished after a couple years. And it was the most amazing feeling to not be imprisoned anymore - I had been in a prison.
Btw, the CEO of the major company was forced to resign because of it - the scandal ruined his professional life.
To those who doubt the authenticity of my story, I respect your feelings. I know how difficult it is to really understand someone or understand their life unless you know the personally or have walked a mile in their shoes. I think the purpose of my post was just to remind people that the fetish aspect of diapers shouldn't control their life - it can even be a part of us without ruining relationships, etc. which it does for some people. I thought that sharing the story of the CEO might wake others up - especially those who have public positions. It's a shame that he had to lose his job because of it.
When I was in college, at age 21, I shared with my therapist that I had an addiction to wearing diapers. She told me it was harmless and that it could be fun for a relationship. Instinctively, I knew that, while she was well meaning, what she said was not the whole truth - diapers were not completely harmless for me. I knew deep within my heart that I needed to give diapers up at some point for my peace of mind. Like I said, I felt imprisoned by the fetish - like it was controlling me and I had little power to resist this. This was not a healthy feeling. This was an addiction. Addictions can harm our mind, rob us of our power, and make us compelled to engage in behaviors that run contrary to our highest aspirations or potentials. I know how powerful the diaper fetish can be (for those with the addiction), and I know it is a difficult attraction for some people to let go of because the desire runs so deep. Personally, every effort I made toward freeing myself from the addiction was a step in the right direction. It didn't happen overnight. Just abstaining for a week or a month from wearing can be a powerful way to exercise control over the addiction and lessen it's power over us. The problem I found was the overpowering nature of the addiction. It was like I was compelled to wear diapers. Once I was able to change my mind through qigong and meditation and lessen the urge, I was able to get my self control back.
