podmuse said:
I have been here before. Hello 25 also! As a kid I did the exact same I loved pooping myself. I used to steal diapers from baby cousins or depends from my grandpa. I felt the guilt the shame and the I’m never doing this again. What I was truly doing though was suppressing my feelings and thoughts for other approval. I called it my binge and purge cycles. In college I would get an overwhelming urge so I run to the store buy diapers and, well, you know and then just like you feel dirty and guilty and ashamed and I would throw them all away. By the time I was 22 I had been mentally starved for 2 years from not enjoying myself. I resumed my diaper wearing and enjoying myself. I never gave myself the opportunity to feel dirty afterward because i accepted this part of me. I have continence issues now but it was not caused by my diaper wearing it’s just my genetics so diapers aren’t always an option for me. But my point is acceptance will set you free!
that's just like my own story.
I bet more than 50% of our Members have there story somewhat similar.
They Key to a healthy and good life is to accept yourself, no matter what the
thing is you have. Wehter its a Diaper, Furry, Pee, Poop, or whatever Fetish, or
your orientation, its just the same thing to admit to yourself u like diapers, or be gay or what so ever.
You can lie to yourself, but that wont change it. its a part of yourself.
Don't hurt yourself just because others may not understand this part of yourself.
Think about it this way:
To deny that part of You would be the same as deny that your left arm is a Part of you.
If u like it or not, it is part of your body and u cant cut it away without hurting and
dangerous crippling yourself.
Not physical, like cutting off a left arm of course, but Psychological, and that is as dangerous and
as hurting as a physical amputation.
PS:
Also what wandering toddler sad, if you don't let it out it will grow more and more and you
will lose control over it and think about it non stop.
Before i Accepted this part of me a Month ago, it has grown so big, i was sitting 2 hours or more
on my bed and google with my old Laptop all Diaper Pictures, Videos, and everything diaper related
that i could find.
Now after accepting and buying a pack of diapers, i can think about whatever i want without the
Diaper urge coming into my mind all times.
Only when at night i want to, i put a diaper on, and fully let me go with it i think about it.
My life is so much better now, im calm, im relaxed, i see all people of this world as a Family.
