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Right I'm going to be brutally honest here, I've been a DL for almost 10 years and for me it's been mostly sexual until recently. What I want to know is how adult babies/toddler/littles satisfy themselves ummmm sexualy? Like if it's not your fetish and just for psychological purposes then are you not turned on by anything to do with Abdl? What kind of porn do you watch? Vanilla? Or do you just wait until it "happens" naturally, or like does your care giver sort you out

I'm so confused :/
 

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Right I'm going to be brutally honest here, I've been a DL for almost 10 years and for me it's been mostly sexual until recently. What I want to know is how adult babies/toddler/littles satisfy themselves ummmm sexualy? Like if it's not your fetish and just for psychological purposes then are you not turned on by anything to do with Abdl? What kind of porn do you watch? Vanilla? Or do you just wait until it "happens" naturally, or like does your care giver sort you out

I'm so confused :/


This idea that DLs enjoy diapers sexually and ABs don't is nonsense. I'm AB/DL and it's very sexual for me. When I was young, I would have described myself as DL only, and I sure got off wearing a lot of wet make-shift diapers and wet underwear. As I became older, the idea of regressing and feeling very babyish kicked in, and that feeling was and still is very sexual. For me, it's expressed through masturbation, like many of us, I would guess.

There are those on this site who are AB and don't experience wearing and wetting diapers as sexual but rather, as peace giving. I also experience this and would prefer not to have a "happy ending" every day or night. I enjoy letting the sexual tension build as it helps me regress to a greater depth.

The thing is that Infantalism is unique to each individual, and there aren't strict pigeon holes to define behavior.
 

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Echoing Dogboy's response. We each find our own ways to get what we need out of this. If you're not hurting yourself or others, you're fine. For me, the AB and DL are inextricably intertwined and it's all sexual overall. This doesn't mean I'm a ravenous hump-beast any time I've got a diaper on but my ultimate reasons for wearing are sexually charged and that will express itself at some point. Don't worry too much about how others are experiencing it as long as you can find a way to make it work for yourself. Keep a sense of perspective but have some fun.
 
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Echoing Dogboy's response. We each find our own ways to get what we need out of this. If you're not hurting yourself or others, you're fine. For me, the AB and DL are inextricably intertwined and it's all sexual overall. This doesn't mean I'm a ravenous hump-beast any time I've got a diaper on but my ultimate reasons for wearing are sexually charged and that will express itself at some point. Don't worry too much about how others are experiencing it as long as you can find a way to make it work for yourself. Keep a sense of perspective but have some fun.

This is exactly my sentiment. For me they're intertwined and there's some point in the course of pretending to be little where I get aroused that's distinct from the physical experience of wearing and using diapers.

It really does vary though. There are people who pretend to be little and have a completely vanilla sex life and never the twain shall meet. There are people who need diapers for sex and for comfort, but do the two at separate times and wouldn't want sex when they're in their little headspace.
 

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Everyone is different. For me diapers themselves are not sexual. They serve a purpose and are comfortable. My sexual needs are met by a loving relationship with my significant other. She doesn't care I wear diapers and changes me regularly
 

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I think part of your question is - If someone is intensely attracted to this kind of behavior, and it isn't sexual, then what is the attraction? The attraction must be intense in order for people to engage in behavior they know will interfere with, and even destroy, something else they really desire: good personal relationships. It's a good question. The answer I've heard so far, simple stress relief and comfort, isn't convincing.
 

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. . . The answer I've heard so far, simple stress relief and comfort, isn't convincing.
Well, I don't find anything AB sexual, and there's no way I could possibly care less if anyone believes me or not. Suffice it to say that I grew up thinking that sexual stuff was simply how to be nice to boy type people. I'm still learning to relate appreciately without it as a crutch. Add that to my difficulty relating to people, like not knowing how to do small talk, or what to say when, and I've had the thought, "Wait. Not this again. How the hell did we go from just talking, to him talking about, 'pressure release.' Well, I guess I said the wrong thing. Maybe if I do what he wants, he'll leave me alone," many, many times.

Then, something in me goes numb, and I live though it. Convinced yet? See why Li'l' Miss Thang is kept far, far away from that?

So since it isn't sexual, what's the reason for it? I'm an cerebral palsied, wheelchair using, Autie. I've never jumped before. No mud puddles, no bouncy castles, or trampolines, no piles of leaves or snow. Now, as a grownup, I can have an adult Jolly Jumper made! Yay! Swinging used to be an asspain, but now there're retainer clips to keep the seat from swinging while getting seated. Guess who can have one, and an adapted trike, too! It's a chance to drop the acting, the social faking bulls hit, that I have to do the rest of the time, a chance to reframe my thoughts about my incontinence, so if it becomes complete, I have a way to emotionally survive. When I'm feeling big, I view diapers the same way Caitainx sees wheelchairs. He told me he didn't want one yet, because he was trying to avoid, "the chair," as long as possible.

Think of the way he's using, "the chair."

Sit it in it, and life is over. I don't blame him either. He hasn't needed it yet, so, it offers him less freedom, whereas it offers me more. Even with my fear of diapers, I've also been secretly comforted by them since early childhood. Part of me still hates them, to the point that I'll manage my incontinence by drastically limiting how much I drink, and part of me is still friends with them. I guess if I do eventually need them, I'd rather be cute than old and sick.

I fall down a lot. When I'm in that headspace, I can admit it hurts, instead of saying to myself, "Come on, b**ch! Get up, wipe the blood off your knee, and don't drop a tear!"

Things don't have double meanings in Little Headspace. "I love you," means just that, not, "I said it, so now you've gotta f***k me."

It's, "the anti-sex," and a huge, "psychological trust fall."

So, what, "does it for me?"

I seem to be the only one that knows what the hell to do, directionally speaking. Some of the sexiest phrases I've heard, or want to hear are:

"Nope, we're not doing that right now. You're too Little." (He can count on it when I feel big again.)

"You won't have any uncertainty about what I want. I'll say I want to make love."

"Are you scared, because we won't do anything you don't want to."

"Tell me where to go and what feels good."

"For once, it's not your job."

Pain can do it, as can being the hero that makes the partner's pain away. Fire Play looks interesting. I've had a sexual response while diapered, but I wasn't regressed at the time. I was in a f**kload of pain, and it triggered it.

The same person I'd call Abale, the Hebrew word for daddy, when Little, would be my husband when I'm not Little. The key thing is, we wouldn't do anything the millisecond I started regressing. I agree with wombat. To do so would be evil. I'd seriously have to take a shower or ten.
 
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I'll echo what Archieroni, Trevor and Dogboy said. I'm AB/DL, and the sexual side is intertwined. I can enjoy wearing and wetting a diaper just for the feeling of relaxation, and I find it de-stresses me, but it will usually arouse me as well. Often I've had no desire to fulfill a sexual urge, and I'll wet my pants or diaper just for the fun of it, but even if I just change, the thought of what I've done will stick with me, and I'll end up doing it again so I can reach fulfilment.

When I'm little, it always end with adult play. I don't regress just for the relaxation side of it. I'll go into little mode for the express purpose of wetting my pants, and achieving release.

That's the one aspect of it that makes me feel a bit uncomfortable on a deeper level. I have no sexual feelings for kids. At all. I have 4 kids of my own, and the thought of involving a kid in any way with my fetish angers and disturbs me.

However, I get very excited by being a kid myself. I love the feelings of naughtiness or horror that I experience when my 9-12 year old little gets when he has an accident. It's great to be desperate to pee, but be that distracted kid who puts it off and ends up with wet pants. The same as being little in a diaper. My little is a bed wetter, so he has an excuse to wear, and if he is eating breakfast and watching cartoons in a wet nappy it's no big deal.

I've seen heaps of actual kids with wet pants. The child itself I won't even pay attention to or remember, but the incident itself I will. Last summer I saw a kid of about 11 or so get out of a car at the beach, and he was obviously desperate. He was really holding himself and potty dancing as he waited for his mother and sister to unpack their stuff. I walked past them to the beach, and when I saw them about 5 minutes later walking down the ramp, he had wet his denim shorts. He was trying to keep a towel around himself but it was still obvious. As luck would have it, they chose a spot in front of me, where he took his wet pants off and had a bathing suit on underneath. He quickly ran into the water.

Now I could not describe that boy at all, except to say he was chubby and had dark hair. I have no interest in that child whatsoever. But I have replayed that scene over and over again while in little mode but with me as that child. I mean here is a kid the same age as my little, dressed as my little dresses, having a desperate wet accident in public in front of his mother and sister. A big kid who should be way too old to be wetting himself.

The thought of me being in that position and telling my mum I've wet myself is just so hot for me. But I'm not interested in that actual child himself, just in me being him. But it's such a grey area though. If I tried to explain to someone else that I found the situation exciting but not the characters involved, I doubt that they'd understand.

When my girlfriend and I regress, we will play as any age from 3/4 -13. Sometimes we wear protection, or we may just use our pants. It's a prelude to great sex. But when the sexual time starts, we are both grown ups. There is no way in hell that either of us could stay little when the action starts. That would feel not just wrong, but evil. We have played as 13 year olds who have wet their pants and turned it into a game of "You show me yours and I'll show you mine," but even that was kept innocent with a sense of childish wonder about it. Afterward, when adult time starts, we don't even reference it, although we are both enjoying our own private thoughts about seeing each other diapered or wet.

But we can also enjoy a good old fashioned diapering as adults as well. Just to sit together and watch a movie while wearing, and occasionally say those magic words, "I just wet myself," is amazing.

So I know you don't need to be AB to be a DL, nor does it have to sexually arouse you to use nappies, but it does for me.
 

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I'll echo what Archieroni, Trevor and Dogboy said. I'm AB/DL, and the sexual side is intertwined. I can enjoy wearing and wetting a diaper just for the feeling of relaxation, and I find it de-stresses me, but it will usually arouse me as well. Often I've had no desire to fulfill a sexual urge, and I'll wet my pants or diaper just for the fun of it, but even if I just change, the thought of what I've done will stick with me, and I'll end up doing it again so I can reach fulfilment.

When I'm little, it always end with adult play. I don't regress just for the relaxation side of it. I'll go into little mode for the express purpose of wetting my pants, and achieving release.

That's the one aspect of it that makes me feel a bit uncomfortable on a deeper level. I have no sexual feelings for kids. At all. I have 4 kids of my own, and the thought of involving a kid in any way with my fetish angers and disturbs me.

However, I get very excited by being a kid myself. I love the feelings of naughtiness or horror that I experience when my 9-12 year old little gets when he has an accident. It's great to be desperate to pee, but be that distracted kid who puts it off and ends up with wet pants. The same as being little in a diaper. My little is a bed wetter, so he has an excuse to wear, and if he is eating breakfast and watching cartoons in a wet nappy it's no big deal.

I've seen heaps of actual kids with wet pants. The child itself I won't even pay attention to or remember, but the incident itself I will. Last summer I saw a kid of about 11 or so get out of a car at the beach, and he was obviously desperate. He was really holding himself and potty dancing as he waited for his mother and sister to unpack their stuff. I walked past them to the beach, and when I saw them about 5 minutes later walking down the ramp, he had wet his denim shorts. He was trying to keep a towel around himself but it was still obvious. As luck would have it, they chose a spot in front of me, where he took his wet pants off and had a bathing suit on underneath. He quickly ran into the water.

Now I could not describe that boy at all, except to say he was chubby and had dark hair. I have no interest in that child whatsoever. But I have replayed that scene over and over again while in little mode but with me as that child. I mean here is a kid the same age as my little, dressed as my little dresses, having a desperate wet accident in public in front of his mother and sister. A big kid who should be way too old to be wetting himself.

The thought of me being in that position and telling my mum I've wet myself is just so hot for me. But I'm not interested in that actual child himself, just in me being him. But it's such a grey area though. If I tried to explain to someone else that I found the situation exciting but not the characters involved, I doubt that they'd understand.

When my girlfriend and I regress, we will play as any age from 3/4 -13. Sometimes we wear protection, or we may just use our pants. It's a prelude to great sex. But when the sexual time starts, we are both grown ups. There is no way in hell that either of us could stay little when the action starts. That would feel not just wrong, but evil. We have played as 13 year olds who have wet their pants and turned it into a game of "You show me yours and I'll show you mine," but even that was kept innocent with a sense of childish wonder about it. Afterward, when adult time starts, we don't even reference it, although we are both enjoying our own private thoughts about seeing each other diapered or wet.

But we can also enjoy a good old fashioned diapering as adults as well. Just to sit together and watch a movie while wearing, and occasionally say those magic words, "I just wet myself," is amazing.

So I know you don't need to be AB to be a DL, nor does it have to sexually arouse you to use nappies, but it does for me.
This and other posts are a very close description of me. I am 90% DL and it's sexual for me. From the time I was 10 to the time I was college age I would watch children get changed in public, not for the children, but for the diaper and the act of changing. It took me the longest time to figure out I wasn't a pedophile because once the diaper was off, my arousal flat lined. I started realizing that the child was not involved in my arousal, but the diaper, and pretending to be the child. Now of course, I abhor such a practice of watching diaper changes done in public. I am fully convinced it is wrong to do that, to watch a child get changed for your own reasons, essentially being a non-pedophile looking at child pornography. Today, I do not want to be in the same room as a child being changed because I do not want to be aroused in public. And in fact, having a 3 month old daughter in diapers does not turn me on in the least bit.

Having said that, placing myself as the baby had always done it for me. Also fantasies of wetting or messing as a toddler in diapers, ... Or desperation wetting as a child who was just potty trained... or being in the process of being potty trained and wetting my training pants because it is my very first time I'm in them instead of a diaper just causes a huge surge of arousal in me. I would use my memories from childhood of either my own accidents/diaper usages, or substituting myself for someone else in my childhood who had the accident.

Keeping back on the subject of the OP... I too had only recently explored my non-sexual AB side. It can be a non-arousal experience for me for a while, wearing the whole sleeper/paci/diaper thing but most of the time it turns into sexual play. I have times I wish I could go longer as a baby because there is such a natural beauty in being loved for being cute, and being embarrassed for being something I'm not. There are times I wish I could crawl my way off the "right point" of the B. T. Grey triangle and settle myself with my paci and plushy in one of the other corners.... Or maybe just the middle left side. [emoji14]aci: ... But the sexual side is too strong. That's just how it is being a DL.
 

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This and other posts are a very close description of me. I am 90% DL and it's sexual for me. From the time I was 10 to the time I was college age I would watch children get changed in public, not for the children, but for the diaper and the act of changing. It took me the longest time to figure out I wasn't a pedophile because once the diaper was off, my arousal flat lined. I started realizing that the child was not involved in my arousal, but the diaper, and pretending to be the child. Now of course, I abhor such a practice of watching diaper changes done in public. I am fully convinced it is wrong to do that, to watch a child get changed for your own reasons, essentially being a non-pedophile looking at child pornography. Today, I do not want to be in the same room as a child being changed because I do not want to be aroused in public. And in fact, having a 3 month old daughter in diapers does not turn me on in the least bit.

Having said that, placing myself as the baby had always done it for me. Also fantasies of wetting or messing as a toddler in diapers, ... Or desperation wetting as a child who was just potty trained... or being in the process of being potty trained and wetting my training pants because it is my very first time I'm in them instead of a diaper just causes a huge surge of arousal in me. I would use my memories from childhood of either my own accidents/diaper usages, or substituting myself for someone else in my childhood who had the accident.

Keeping back on the subject of the OP... I too had only recently explored my non-sexual AB side. It can be a non-arousal experience for me for a while, wearing the whole sleeper/paci/diaper thing but most of the time it turns into sexual play. I have times I wish I could go longer as a baby because there is such a natural beauty in being loved for being cute, and being embarrassed for being something I'm not. There are times I wish I could crawl my way off the "right point" of the B. T. Grey triangle and settle myself with my paci and plushy in one of the other corners.... Or maybe just the middle left side. [emoji14]aci: ... But the sexual side is too strong. That's just how it is being a DL.

I genuinely thought I was a pedophile for a while because of that whole watching kids in diapers kinda thing, like if I was in public I'd be mesmerised by any child I saw wearing think diapers and baby clothes and getting feed etc, I figured out it was me longing to be like the child like half jealous and half me thinking they were lucky, I'm glad it was just that, anything to do with sexual feelings and kids makes me sick

So I found out I wasn't a Pedo, I was just a little who didn't know it yet
 

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Well, I don't find anything AB sexual, and there's no way I could possibly care less if anyone believes me or not.
I have no problem believing you.
Suffice it to say that I grew up thinking that sexual stuff was simply how to be nice to boy type people. I'm still learning to relate appreciately without it as a crutch. Add that to my difficulty relating to people, like not knowing how to do small talk, or what to say when, and I've had the thought, "Wait. Not this again. How the hell did we go from just talking, to him talking about, 'pressure release.' Well, I guess I said the wrong thing. Maybe if I do what he wants, he'll leave me alone," many, many times.

Then, something in me goes numb, and I live though it. Convinced yet? See why Li'l' Miss Thang is kept far, far away from that?
I apologize for the misunderstanding. When I said I wasn't convinced I didn't mean I believe it is always sexual. I know for some people it is non-sexual, even anti-sexual. I'm just not convinced comfort, alone, can account for having a desire to do something so socially repugnant. The desire to deliberately engage in this behavior must be powerful enough to overcome the stress of knowing the negative reaction that would happen if you were "caught".

Your situation is different. Coming up with a coping mechanism to deal with physical necessities can be acceptable, even commendable, in society's view. Not that anyone has to cater to social norms all the time, but we generally do desire to fit in and be sociable. It's easy to see how comfort and acceptance play an important role for you. What I wonder about is the AB who has no medical excuses but still endures the stress of hiding all his activities and supplies that make up a major part of his life. And don't take that the wrong way. I'm not saying your issues are excuses.

I've come to accept genetically triggered imprinting as the primary cause of having a diaper fetish or AB desires. I can understand that on an intellectual level, and can understand sexual desires on an emotional level because I have experienced them, but I was struggling with the concept of strong, nonsexual, desires for this weird activity. As I was writing this a little light came on and I am gaining an understanding that fits in well with my imprinting theory, thanks to thinking about your response. Love and addiction can both create powerful, nonsexual, feelings of desire. I'll rule out addiction for the time being. The things we love, though, could easily be influenced, or even determined, by our genetic predisposition to be imprinted in our early development. This kind of imprinting is not restricted to just sexual desires.
Things don't have double meanings in Little Headspace. "I love you," means just that, not, "I said it, so now you've gotta f***k me." '
This is both funny and sad because it is true. For males, romantic love and sexual desire are intimately connected, especially in the early part of a relationship. Over time the romantic love should grow to include more family-like love and friendship for the partner.
 

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No worries, Drifter. I was ticked off that the words we need to describe, "Well, if it ain't sexual, what is it," are so individual, we can't find them without considerable time, and by the time we find them, we've been dumped, or made our parents think we're nuts. The only reason you're satisfied with the answer I gave is because I've had time to think about it, feel about it, and put my words together.

I don't want you to get the wrong impression, though. This isn't as simple as a coping mechanism.

I'm one of those who knew I was different from very early, before the first bladder or bowel spasm I'm aware of. I'd betcha money I don't have it's in the brain's, and mind's wiring. I use brain to say the stuff we do, but that doesn't make us, "us," and mind, to refer to what indeviduates oneself from another, what. makes Bob different from Data the android, or Sue different from the maidbot from The Jetsons. I used mind to refer to what takes a person from being a blank slate, to who he or she is. How's that for clear as mud?:lol: Darn, I wish I communicated better sometimes.
 
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When I was just a DL it was exclusively sexual for me and I would always get off on diapers. As I go older and became more into the AB side it was more comforting and relaxing to me. It is still sexual for me to a degree but not as much as it used to be.
 

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On my DL side I did have the sexual desire for diapers. But after wearing diapers for so many years I lost the sexual desire for diapers. But I still like diapers for protection and comfort. I had no sexual desire on my AB side. But I did buy a onesie at baby-pants.com. It was the Jungle and Friends one. I tried it on and I was hook. I felt like a toddler all over again. My mind was hook on this. I thought this would go away but I was wrong. Now I have all kinds of AB clothes, AB pacifiers and AB bottles. Of course this went over years and have a lot of AB items now. :biggrin:
 

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Well, Sitting here in my soggy diaper, I feel very aroused. Though, I don't specifically want to wear for that reason.
I want to feel little again, to have an escape from my dreadful life. I want to have more AB and baby stuff that I can have to make it feel more real.

Not only that, I still live with my parents and they smoke. And I hate smoke, it burns my lungs, itches my eyes, I can't breathe when I get a whiff of it. Only one bathroom and I have to go downstairs to it into that, diaper helps since I don't have to go down there.

As far as sexuality, well, it's complicated. I'm on the fence as far as humans go, and the only thing I really feel comfortable having "relations with" are my stuffed animals, since I genuinely feel real love for them; mostly for Mickey Mouse.
 

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Well, Sitting here in my soggy diaper, I feel very aroused. Though, I don't specifically want to wear for that reason.
I want to feel little again, to have an escape from my dreadful life. I want to have more AB and baby stuff that I can have to make it feel more real.

Not only that, I still live with my parents and they smoke. And I hate smoke, it burns my lungs, itches my eyes, I can't breathe when I get a whiff of it. Only one bathroom and I have to go downstairs to it into that, diaper helps since I don't have to go down there.

As far as sexuality, well, it's complicated. I'm on the fence as far as humans go, and the only thing I really feel comfortable having "relations with" are my stuffed animals, since I genuinely feel real love for them; mostly for Mickey Mouse.

Yes.
I will myself admit to vascular tumescence of my urogenital anatomy when diapering myself lying down in my bed.
But, I only seem to be attracted to my stuffed animals.
I experience some shame, that I experience these physiological sensations when diapering myself and at different times during the day while diapered.
 

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I was into the sexual side of diaper-loving long before I realized I was ab. (Although my attraction was very specific. I wasn't into baby diapers, but a commercial for Pull-Ups or GoodNites, the idea of potty-training, etc. would get me going.) Nowadays, while I have an ab side, it's for comfort purposes. The idea of being a baby doesn't arouse me, but my diaper itself might. The sexual aspect for me lies mainly in the [mis]control of urination, such as the process of potty training or peeing outdoors.
 

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I appreciate everyone's response here, as I feel that everyone has responded honestly and sincerely to the OPs original post.

I would like to share some of my own honest perceptions as well.

For me...

-- There are times being DL is sexual and times that it is not.
-- There are times being AB is sexual and times that is is not.

I really need to emphasize that while it seems a duality, there truly are more than one facet of infantalism. For some, it truly may entirely have a sexual interest. For others, it may not and it is part of being the little innocent person within. For others, such as myself, it is both.

That sounds like such a contradiction, but it is truly how I feel. Sometimes I just need to be the little, innocent person that I truly am inside. At that time, there is no sexual arousal or interest, it is all about being the child that I once was. It is about feeling safe and loved and cuddled. Not having to face all the facade of things that we as adults seem to make as so important as to work overtime and kill ourselves to advance in our jobs or to "get ahead". It is about being the person that I am and unconditionally loving others and caring about them and wanting to be cared for in a similar nature. It is about the wonder of butterflies and of how the rain comes down and makes rainbows, and amazement at the mist of a foggy morning, or the frost on the lawn and trees. That is the innocent little that I am, and I would have to say is more of who I am that any other self.

Sooo... then the contradiction. There are times that I really get off wearing my diapers in a sexually aroused way. Sometimes this is associated with BDSM or sometimes there is just an excitement of the fantasy of being forced to be little.

I can't explain it, I can just tell it like it is.

Is is wrong to think like this? Am I psychotic? I guess that is up to others to decide for themselves, but in reality, I am otherwise a pretty well-grounded person who has a stable job and is a dignified and genuine contributor to my community and society.

For me, it is best explained in the manner that everyone is unique. There are multiple reasons why a person may associate with being ABDL and it doesn't matter what that particular reason may be, it is still an awesome thing that we are unique and that we have this part of ourselves that can associate with not only the present adult part of our lives, but to the childhood that is also a part of who we are. I am not a different person than the little blonde haired boy that I was when I was 3. I am that little blonde haired boy. That was not someone else. It is still me!!! Why does that seem so hard to comprehend for some?

Just because I am grown up, it doesn't make me a different person! If I loved playing with toy trucks and the feel of wearing a diaper as a baby or toddler, then why should that be such a strange sensation as an adult? Was that some other person that enjoyed that as a child?

Okay... I am off subject here, but perhaps it may all somehow make sense.

Be true to who you are. Don't let stereotypes or others tell you that you shouldn't be who you are inside. You are you and that is a great thing! If this interest has sexual meaning, well, okay. That doesn't make you better or worse than others who it does not. If it doesn't have a sexual ring, well, that too isn't either good or bad, it is just part of what makes you, you!

So be true to yourself and BE YOU!!
...That is a beautiful thing!


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I was convinced that it is a DL as a student, but when it had found a sexual pleasure in the feel of the diaper that.
However, I at that time, found novelist who are often to emphasize the relaxation by the regression, the person to refer to sexual pleasure was not there.
I thought at that time and he or she is not a minority within the minority.

And now, when the conversation with AB / DL us with SNS, to give such a response.
"I to learn the sexual pleasure, very fun."

answer from This AB, DL, Littles.

Some people enjoy the sexual pleasure in any category, we have some people enjoy the relaxation by regression.
And in my case, I have enjoyed both of them!
 
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