It took a long time and more than a few failures and humiliations but I wanted so much to meet a girl with whom I could be both successful and accomplished adult, financially responsible and enjoy wearing diapers, wetting and even occasionally messing in them, having my diapers changed like I was as a kid. I wanted so much to be able to go to bed diapered, sleep with my love, a wake up with wet diapers in the morning next to her. It fianally happened but took 50 years.I thought i was an over it. Many years, and my desired to wear diapers and act like a baby didn't gave me anything. I think it was cause i was more focused on other things. I had personal trainer for years, and was a lot at the gym and lifting weights. Ended the week with a glass of wine with my now so called ex. I was more into the adult side of me. But i had kept a lot of my ab clothes, and hid it from him. Was afraid he would find them. And i started to dream while i was sleeping that i was taken care of like an adult baby. I dreamed i was wearing diapers again. Luckily i never wet the bed. And i wonder if i talked about in sleep. I started to act childish too, i watched cartoons and listened to children music at Spotify.