LittleScotty
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- Diaper Lover
So... After being with my wife for over 10 years and hiding my ABDL side for our entire relationship today she found two packs of diapers I recently ordered. Her reaction was not as I expected. She was obviously shocked and my initial thought was that my whole world was about to fall apart around me however she was calm and simply wanted to know why.
She knows about the issues I had as a kid psychologically that would cause me to have 'accidents' and the fact I often wore diapers or pull ups as after starting school etc but I told her I grew out of it in my teens. Ever since we met I've always hidden the fact I enjoy wearing diapers especially when I'm feeling particularly stressed or anxious. They're my way of relaxing and forgetting all the stresses in my life. I guess I've always felt embarrassed of what she would think of me, the strong guy that always takes care of everything, and works hard in a job that is quite demanding on the both of us. She is the most supportive person I know, and I couldn't imagine being without her but even so there's things I still feel I cannot open up about, my ABDL side being one.
I've tried to open up to her tonight and tell her about why I wear them but I struggled to find the words. I felt a sense of shame that I've never felt before. My throat went dry, my heart rate increased and after a long awkward silence with her just sat staring beyond me I began to speak. I told her that I'm often anxious and stressed due to work and other life worries and that diapers really help me in ways that nothing else does. I couldn't expand beyond that, I don't know how else to explain it to her and how it makes me feel. Her response was that she could help ease that by us talking to one another more, or even me talking to a therapist or councillor. She doesn't think I shouldn't need to go to such measures in order to feel relaxed. I sensed she just didn't get why I do what I do and she is seeking other ways for me to deal with things.
I appreciate that she wants to try and help me, but I feel that talking alone will not put me at ease the way diapers do. They've been in my lifestyle for so long now I don't think I can go without them, they're a form of comfort blanket for me. She asked how I use them, and how often and I even offered to open the packs and show her them but she declined. There was more awkward silences before I left for my night shift at work. I know she's still processing everything she's discovered tonight and what I've told her and I'm sure they'll be more questions tomorrow. I worry about how this will affect us going forward. This is a situation I've never wanted to find myself in.
She knows about the issues I had as a kid psychologically that would cause me to have 'accidents' and the fact I often wore diapers or pull ups as after starting school etc but I told her I grew out of it in my teens. Ever since we met I've always hidden the fact I enjoy wearing diapers especially when I'm feeling particularly stressed or anxious. They're my way of relaxing and forgetting all the stresses in my life. I guess I've always felt embarrassed of what she would think of me, the strong guy that always takes care of everything, and works hard in a job that is quite demanding on the both of us. She is the most supportive person I know, and I couldn't imagine being without her but even so there's things I still feel I cannot open up about, my ABDL side being one.
I've tried to open up to her tonight and tell her about why I wear them but I struggled to find the words. I felt a sense of shame that I've never felt before. My throat went dry, my heart rate increased and after a long awkward silence with her just sat staring beyond me I began to speak. I told her that I'm often anxious and stressed due to work and other life worries and that diapers really help me in ways that nothing else does. I couldn't expand beyond that, I don't know how else to explain it to her and how it makes me feel. Her response was that she could help ease that by us talking to one another more, or even me talking to a therapist or councillor. She doesn't think I shouldn't need to go to such measures in order to feel relaxed. I sensed she just didn't get why I do what I do and she is seeking other ways for me to deal with things.
I appreciate that she wants to try and help me, but I feel that talking alone will not put me at ease the way diapers do. They've been in my lifestyle for so long now I don't think I can go without them, they're a form of comfort blanket for me. She asked how I use them, and how often and I even offered to open the packs and show her them but she declined. There was more awkward silences before I left for my night shift at work. I know she's still processing everything she's discovered tonight and what I've told her and I'm sure they'll be more questions tomorrow. I worry about how this will affect us going forward. This is a situation I've never wanted to find myself in.
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