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Who am I?
Call me BeTrue. I graduated college with a BS in Computer Engineering (many years ago), married the love of my life, and have three amazing children. I currently work as a software engineer for a major aerospace company. I am also a Christian – I love Jesus and I love people.
My Diaper Story
My interest in diapers goes back to my childhood. I was reared in cloth diapers, but I was aware of disposable diapers. I loved the way they looked, the way the plastic felt, the way they smelled, and the way they crinkled.
When I was 5 or 6, I was at a friend’s house. She had a little brother with Downs Syndrome who was 3 or 4 and wore disposable diapers. I remember thinking, “That’s not fair, how come he gets to wear diapers? He’s not a baby.” My friend and I snuck upstairs to his bedroom where his diapers were. We were going to put them on over our pants. I remember as I was pulling the diaper up between my legs how amazing that felt. Unfortunately, her dad caught us before we could finish putting them on, and I think I was banned from her house for a month.
After that moment, the desire to wear diapers was always in the back of my mind. In school I was painfully shy and was often the target of bullies. One year on a school bus, I remember thinking wouldn’t it be funny if all of us had to wear diapers. Then no one would be able to pick on anyone else, because we would all have stinky diapers!
Fast forward to high school, junior year. I had a job now and so for the first time in my life, I had disposable income. One day in class this thought hit me like a bolt of lightning, “hey, I can buy diapers now!” So I snuck to a convenience store and bought the largest size Pampers I could find. When I got home, I was sad to find that they were way too small for me. I had to use tape to fasten two diapers together. It wasn’t ideal, but I finally fulfilled that desire to put on a diaper. I also used the diaper in the ways a diaper is intended to be used, and it all just felt amazing to me.
Later on I was in a drug store and noticed the isle containing products for the elderly (an isle I had never paid attention to before). That’s when I saw “fitted briefs” (Depends or Attends) and I thought, wow those look like diapers for adults. So again, I snuck off and bought a pack. They did not disappoint. Putting it on was heavenly; using it was heavenly. I finally felt like a baby again!
My wife knows about my interest in diapers, but admittedly does not understand it. Because of this, I don’t use very often.
Other Interests
I love to play music on my guitar (electric and acoustic). I enjoy most kinds of music, and would love to start writing music again. I currently play at my church.
I also love hiking. There’s just something about getting out into nature, finding a path, and letting it lead me. My son and I have been section hiking the AT each year since 2014.
I love science fiction – literature, movies, and shows. I would love to write a sci-fi novel someday.
Why am I Here?
All my life I’ve wondered why I have this obsession with diapers. Why am I attracted to them? For years I thought I was the only one until I found Bitter Grey on the internet. But I’ve never really been part of a community of people who share this interest. I’ve always tried to run from it, or repress it, but I realize that I need to be true to myself. This is part of who I am whether I like it or not.
I tried to share highlights of my history with diapers because I’m really interested to know if others have a similar story. The other reason I’m here is that I really do need a community of people I can be open and honest with about my love for diapers. Adisc seems to be a safe place (compared to some of the other AB/DL communities that are all about sex). To be clear, I am happily married and keeping it that way.
Thank you LilTwirl for the tutorial!
Call me BeTrue. I graduated college with a BS in Computer Engineering (many years ago), married the love of my life, and have three amazing children. I currently work as a software engineer for a major aerospace company. I am also a Christian – I love Jesus and I love people.
My Diaper Story
My interest in diapers goes back to my childhood. I was reared in cloth diapers, but I was aware of disposable diapers. I loved the way they looked, the way the plastic felt, the way they smelled, and the way they crinkled.
When I was 5 or 6, I was at a friend’s house. She had a little brother with Downs Syndrome who was 3 or 4 and wore disposable diapers. I remember thinking, “That’s not fair, how come he gets to wear diapers? He’s not a baby.” My friend and I snuck upstairs to his bedroom where his diapers were. We were going to put them on over our pants. I remember as I was pulling the diaper up between my legs how amazing that felt. Unfortunately, her dad caught us before we could finish putting them on, and I think I was banned from her house for a month.
After that moment, the desire to wear diapers was always in the back of my mind. In school I was painfully shy and was often the target of bullies. One year on a school bus, I remember thinking wouldn’t it be funny if all of us had to wear diapers. Then no one would be able to pick on anyone else, because we would all have stinky diapers!
Fast forward to high school, junior year. I had a job now and so for the first time in my life, I had disposable income. One day in class this thought hit me like a bolt of lightning, “hey, I can buy diapers now!” So I snuck to a convenience store and bought the largest size Pampers I could find. When I got home, I was sad to find that they were way too small for me. I had to use tape to fasten two diapers together. It wasn’t ideal, but I finally fulfilled that desire to put on a diaper. I also used the diaper in the ways a diaper is intended to be used, and it all just felt amazing to me.
Later on I was in a drug store and noticed the isle containing products for the elderly (an isle I had never paid attention to before). That’s when I saw “fitted briefs” (Depends or Attends) and I thought, wow those look like diapers for adults. So again, I snuck off and bought a pack. They did not disappoint. Putting it on was heavenly; using it was heavenly. I finally felt like a baby again!
My wife knows about my interest in diapers, but admittedly does not understand it. Because of this, I don’t use very often.
Other Interests
I love to play music on my guitar (electric and acoustic). I enjoy most kinds of music, and would love to start writing music again. I currently play at my church.
I also love hiking. There’s just something about getting out into nature, finding a path, and letting it lead me. My son and I have been section hiking the AT each year since 2014.
I love science fiction – literature, movies, and shows. I would love to write a sci-fi novel someday.
Why am I Here?
All my life I’ve wondered why I have this obsession with diapers. Why am I attracted to them? For years I thought I was the only one until I found Bitter Grey on the internet. But I’ve never really been part of a community of people who share this interest. I’ve always tried to run from it, or repress it, but I realize that I need to be true to myself. This is part of who I am whether I like it or not.
I tried to share highlights of my history with diapers because I’m really interested to know if others have a similar story. The other reason I’m here is that I really do need a community of people I can be open and honest with about my love for diapers. Adisc seems to be a safe place (compared to some of the other AB/DL communities that are all about sex). To be clear, I am happily married and keeping it that way.
Thank you LilTwirl for the tutorial!
