Might have wet the bed after a stressful day and evening

[happy89]

I woke up this morning with a wet spot in the bed completely surrounding my butt and a little up my back. Didn't smell exactly like pee, so could have been sweat, but I don't know for sure. I think it might have been pee. Changed the sheets afterward. But I'm not sure how to feel about it this morning.

As I've posted a few times, I did have a periodic bedwetting issue into my early 20s. It stopped around the time my now-husband and I got serious, and it never returned. Although as I've been wearing diapers to bed off and on more recently, I've tried to be able to relax and just let go, and last week I think I might have actually wet in my sleep (in a diaper) or at least so subconsciously I had no memory of it. But until now I hadn't wet the bed undiapered in about ten years. I still don't know for sure that I did last night... but I think I probably did. Just wish it had been a "sexy" wetting and not this.

My husband and I both had kind of rough days yesterday for different reasons. I had a tough day with the kids, really feeling emotions related to something one of the kids is going through with their peer group, and some other unrelated stresses and sadnesses too. He had a day at work where no one was doing their jobs right, vendors/providers weren't operating properly, and was still calling and texting people through dinner due to the issues. I got the kids down to bed and was really looking forward to being cared for, maybe getting diapered and having some wine and being able to talk (or cry) and be held. I failed to communicate this though and my husband was still feeling burnt out from his day, wanted to watch basketball, and missed all my hints and cues. I can be kind of bratty when I am trying to get his attention (half seriously, half playfully) and even that didn't work. I told him I needed to pee but didn't want to get up -- surely he'd get that cue (but not this time).

Fast forward a couple hours. He finally felt more relaxed and it dawned on him that I'd been trying to get his attention and wanted to be diapered and taken care of. We made up, apologized, communicated, had a drink together, and things were mostly fine. But I still felt fragile and vulnerable and had a second wave right as we were getting into bed of just wanting to feel "little" and taken care of. But I do at times have a fear of rejection and I don't know why, but as badly as I wanted to be diapered for the night I didn't actually say it. I dropped hints like getting up to go pee a few times and sighing when I came back (I'm sorry, I know how immature I was being and I apologized to him this morning) but I never outright asked. And I'm sure he would have loved it too, but I was too proud and feeling too "jumpy" at the same time.

We both fell asleep. But maybe an hour in I heard one of the older kids calling for me. That's extremely rare but they'd had a bad dream and couldn't get back to sleep and I guess was probably feeling similar to how I was. When I came back to bed I must have just crashed and blacked out. I really don't even have a memory at all of getting back in bed, honestly. Well, somewhere around 5 or 6 I heard our youngest, a toddler, crying and I woke up. And that's when I felt cold and wet around my butt. When I returned to bed I sniffed at and couldn't tell for sure if it was, or wasn't, pee. I was under a lot of blankets and sometimes do get sweaty, but the bed wasn't damp from sweat anywhere else. The bottom sheet was moderately wet and the top sheet damp in a couple spots. I didn't want to sleep on the cold wet spot so I crowded over to my husband's side up against him and stayed there until the alarm went off. I stripped the bed right after we got up and started laundry thus hiding any evidence. I haven't told him yet but will show him this post this evening (and am going to wear a diaper tonight for sure, I guess for multiple reasons now).

I have conflicting feelings about it today though. On one hand, I do not want actual involuntary bedwetting to return, and I don't think it will, nor do I think wearing a diaper to bed once or twice a week will really bring it back, but it is strange that (if I did in fact wet the bed last night) it didn't happen for ten years but did on a night I was thinking about and really just wanted to be in a diaper. And I don't like that it happened on a time I was feeling this way, had tension with my husband, and chose to hide it rather than turn it into something flirty. But on the other hand... the "bratty" side of me kind of just wants him to tell me that's proof I need diapers and to be taken care of too. Yet on the other hand too... what if this is all a big "nothing" and it was just sweat after all?

 

[Lyric]

This doesn't sound like sweat at all. You wet your bed probably because of all the stress and tension you faced during the day that was left unresolved by the time you feel asleep. It seems to me from all of your posts that you are grappling with the desire to wear diapers more frequently than you used to and the fear that some unwanted change in your life might occur if you do wear diapers more. You remind me of some of the feeling I had at one point in my life where, after years of wearing diapers off and on for pleasure, sex, and stress relief, I realized what I really wanted was to wear diapers most of the time, especially at night in bed since I had been a bedwetter for so many years through my teens. Unlike me however, you seem to have an ideal relationship with your husband who has his own diaper interests. I know its tricky with children still at home, but seems like the best course for you is too simply wear diapers every night. That's what I do now but I took me much longer since I didn't have a partner at the time who could understand and be supportive like your husband.

 

[happy89]

This doesn't sound like sweat at all. You wet your bed probably because of all the stress and tension you faced during the day that was left unresolved by the time you feel asleep. It seems to me from all of your posts that you are grappling with the desire to wear diapers more frequently than you used to and the fear that some unwanted change in your life might occur if you do wear diapers more. You remind me of some of the feeling I had at one point in my life where, after years of wearing diapers off and on for pleasure, sex, and stress relief, I realized what I really wanted was to wear diapers most of the time, especially at night in bed since I had been a bedwetter for so many years through my teens. Unlike me however, you seem to have an ideal relationship with your husband who has his own diaper interests. I know its tricky with children still at home, but seems like the best course for you is too simply wear diapers every night. That's what I do now but I took me much longer since I didn't have a partner at the time who could understand and be supportive like your husband.

Thank you I'll need to think about and digest this some. I don't think I want to go "every night" but I think you're right on definitely feeling some struggle about maybe wanting to increase some.

 

[DinoFran]

Wet flukes happen and it´s ok; don´t stress over it. If you know you´re not a frequent bedwetter then you have nothing to worry about... at least on that regard -there are many other things in life to worry about already.

Now, trying to convince yourself that you can go on without diapers whilst intensely craving for them is a very cruel thing to do to yourself, so I guess you need to work on your verbal communicating abilities (your post evidences that written communication is not an issue for you) and be more clear about your needs with your husband, who seems to be as oblivious to basic ABDL needs as a vanilla partner.

Also, next time you need a diaper, wear a diaper; seriously, it harms nobody and greatly benefits you; if your husband is too busy, then diaper up yourself and maybe later you can get him to re-diaper or change you... just don´t harm yourself by depriving your very own self of diapers when they alone clearly get tons of stress away from you.

But definitely the best person to discuss all this with is your husband.

Take care!

 

[Edgewater]

Yes, all that which was stated above.

That said, do you have a plastic cover on your bed? If not get one! It will likely cause you to eliminate one of more blankets, but protection for the bed is worth it. Having children, age and time will work against you, better to plan ahead and develop that level of security for at least the protection of the bed.

 

[happy89]

We have a multi-layered coated cloth mattress protector on the bed that does prevent all liquids from getting through. We've had one from the beginning (since I told him before I slept over the first time that he needed to have one if I slept with him) and replace it each year or so.

This has given me more to think about and talk with my husband about this evening. He's not the one limiting me or not participating in general -- he likes it and is the one who got me wearing with some regularity a couple years back, and I think he'd honestly be fine with me wearing just about anytime. But as I think about it more and try to assess how I'm feeling the bigger block is me, honestly. I'm the one who's set limits, been quick to fence off what I don't want to do, what I want to keep from happening, and I guess in general just set quite a few guidelines and rules. I guess I was mostly thinking in terms of I want to have a lot of variation when it comes to intimacy and not rely on just one thing or one "genre", so a lot of it is guidelines between my husband and I so we can keep it fresh and spicy. Like, I want him to want me and not just be excited about what I have on or what I'm doing or things like that. I didn't want him to expect me wearing too often or for diapers to be the only ticket toward having him take on a caregiver role. But he really is good about not being too one-dimensional and we do have a good marriage and good communication. I can see how maybe being too much of a stickler for "rules" set a couple years ago might be subconsciously adding to quite a bit of stress.

And now I'm seeing how sometimes there are just phases of needing a particular thing quite a bit more (perhaps even "out of proportion" due to something going on in life). That's not to say it will be a permanent change or a lifestyle change or anything like that; maybe I just need some extra care, extra padding, and some extra relaxation for a little while. Though, it's not the diaper per se that de-stresses me; it's more the general feeling of being cared for and putting all my cares in someone else's lap, so to speak, while my own lap is taken care of for me. So I guess we'll talk about that some tonight and see where things lead! Thanks all.

 

[Edgewater]

Please remember that us males tend to be far more simpler and not so good a multi-level conceptualizing feelings, etc...
If you told this to my dear wife, she would first laugh and state that if she told this to her guy, he would get at a blank look on his face and blink a lot.

Consider being a bit simpler after all you will being taking to a guy.
Enjoy!

 

[happy89]

Conversation went well. Looking forward to where things go from here, though I do still want to decide the "overnight plan" for now based on how I'm feeling that evening. As far as last night and overnight, did wear of course, did wet a few times, but I was conscious of all of them. Feeling much better today and well-rested too.

 

[Babybike2]

Glad to hear you and your husband talked it through. I appreciate your perspective that you need your husband to want YOU and not need external factors like diapers to initiate intimacy (in any of its forms). This is a good reminder for me and all of us guys. For me, I really do love my wife for who she is and enjoy her in every respect even though she will have nothing to do with my diapers.

 

[Lyric]

Conversation went well. Looking forward to where things go from here, though I do still want to decide the "overnight plan" for now based on how I'm feeling that evening. As far as last night and overnight, did wear of course, did wet a few times, but I was conscious of all of them. Feeling much better today and well-rested too.

So happy that you and your husband had a productive conversation about your feelings. One thing I note from your posts is you seem to have a great partner who loves and is attracted to you regardless of whether you have diapers on or not, even though he enjoys the diaper side of your relationship. Seems like a good guy who isn't pressuring you to do something you don't what to do or even unsure about. Play it boy ear, but put a diaper on when you feel like it and don't worry about waking up in the morning in a wet diaper. Hopefully, he'll change you.

 

[SeniorMan]

We have a multi-layered coated cloth mattress protector on the bed that does prevent all liquids from getting through.

My nursing home provides a mattress from Blue-Chip Medical that can be cleaned using a soapy cloth.