Losing interest after binging

[Elmo]

I went on vacation to see family over Christmas for around 2 weeks. I didn't bring any diapers or toddler items on that trip.

Fast forward to January, when I come back home. I'm more excited than ever to wear diapers, use my pacifier, and so on. I binged hard. I went 24/7 for a week, and then proceeded to fixate on pacifiers for about another week.

The binging died down, but so did my interest too. I have a whole case of diapers under my bed, but I can't be bothered to take them out, because I don't really have desires to wear anymore. I used to sleep with my pacifier every night, and now it usually has to come out for me to fall asleep.

I used to really love diapers, and pacifiers used to actually soothe me.

Has this ever happened to you? While I know these desires will come back, how can I make that happen sooner rather than later?

 

[TeddyJoy]

It'll come around. You fulfilled your hunger and now you're full. Go without eating and you'll be hungry again.

 

[siysiy]

It will come back just don't push it. One day soon you will be I put a diaper on and it will feel wonderful.

 

[diddles]

Because I have been on estrogen for the last decade, and have the hormones levels of a cis women I do not have a sex drive, but I still binge and purge on my diaper wearing because…? I have found that if I think I might like to wear a diaper even though I don’t particularly want to that the urge will often return. Put one on even if you don’t want to and see what happens.

 

[BenNevis]

You are definately not alone in having feelings like that.

In my experience, the desire to be back in nappies and be little will come back but it can't be forced. I found it best to really focus on the idea that there's no point getting annoyed or frustrated but just to accept that, temporarily, I don't want to be little in that moment. That doesn't mean I'll never want to be little again, but for now, little me is busy off the in background and doesn't need to much attention from big me.

What is important is making sure you're ready for when little you returns. For example, even when I used to purge, I always made myself promise I'd never get rid of my cuddly dragon. I knew I'd regret it bitterly when little me came back and his favourite toy wasn't there anymore and luckily he's always there for a snuggle. In order to help my little return, I'd therefore make sure I was still doing little things to look after him. That included taking a kind and sensitive mindset towards him, making sure I kept his little things safe and making sure I had time and space that, if he suddenly decided to turn up again, I could happily welcome him back.

It's not fun, but it will pass.

 

[Ali123]

For me, wearing a nappy is a reminder of when I was punished as a child. It was deeply humiliating being put back into nappies.

Now I love to be humiliated, and putting a nappy and baby clothes on is a big part of that.

So when I’ve lost the urge, which has happened a few times, I actually ‘force’ myself to have a nappy on, even though I may not particularly want to.

It rekindles the feelings of humiliation, and before too long I do start to enjoy it again.

 

[CodyBaby]

Same happened to me after a week in vacations, I binged for 5 days in a row, and now, I've lost interest, but I know, it will come back, for the first time ever, I forced myself to use my pacifier last night, and for strange reasons, it helped me fall asleep, while normally I can't fall asleep with one in my mouth cause I'm too excited by it. Fast forward to this morning, guess what, I still had the pacifier in my mouth, thankfully I didn't wet cause I didn't put a diaper on that night, but I will for next night and see if even without interest it can help me sleep better.

 

[Elmo]

Just an update. I'm warming up to the idea of wearing diapers again. I'm thinking of wearing tonight, but the desire isn't so strong. I might wait a bit longer.

I still don't have any interest in my pacifier. Which is fine, just waiting patiently...

 

[BenNevis]

Great to hear!

Listening to 'what feels right' is the best way to go with things like this.

Taking it slowly and being led by how much you're experiencing your little side is good. If you end up feeling like wearing later, then great, and if not that's also fine as it's all about what's right for you.

 

[Hemix]

Like others said, the desire will come back slowly, and it seems it's already happening. It looks like thou hast completely normalized it and that it's a healthy part of thy life, so I'm very happy for thee.

 

[blaincorrous]

Just an update. I'm warming up to the idea of wearing diapers again. I'm thinking of wearing tonight, but the desire isn't so strong. I might wait a bit longer.

I still don't have any interest in my pacifier. Which is fine, just waiting patiently...

Nothing wrong with taking a break, having a little resistance, or simply doing as you please. Do what fulfills your needs. Sometimes resisting a little until I feel a stronger desire helps me add balance to my non-ABDL life.

BTW, I love Fun Fun Elmo. My children watched it as an early introduction to Mandarin. Were you aware of where your graphics come from? Are you a native Mandarin speaker?

 

[Elmo]

BTW, I love Fun Fun Elmo. My children watched it as an early introduction to Mandarin. Were you aware of where your graphics come from? Are you a native Mandarin speaker?

I remember you linking it in a thread some time ago, so yes I do know about Fun Fun Elmo! Although, I definitely don't speak Mandarin 😅. Sounds like you can though from your message though, which is really cool!

Also, the Sesame Street animation style is not exclusive to Fun Fun Elmo. They used it in the "Letter of the Day" segments too!

 

[blaincorrous]

I remember you linking it in a thread some time ago, so yes I do know about Fun Fun Elmo! Although, I definitely don't speak Mandarin 😅. Sounds like you can though from your message though, which is really cool!

Also, the Sesame Street animation style is not exclusive to Fun Fun Elmo. They used it in the "Letter of the Day" segments too!

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I can’t speak Mandarin aside from identifying a few words being spoken around me. It’s my wife who’s the Mandarin speaker, and my kids to a lesser extent.

 

[Lyric]

Been through those feeling many times over my life. I found that my desire to pin a fresh diaper on always returned regardless of what I did to either hurry it along or hope it was gone forever. My desire to have diapers and rubber pants on, go potty in them, and be changed has been the one constant in my life. Once I reached 50, I began to wear more often and soon found myself wearing full time. Yes there are times when I'm less interested or not at all excited to have a diaper on, but I never worry about it, and if its just too much to bother with, I go without for a few hours until my wife asks me why I'm not diapered and asks if I would like her to pin a fresh diaper on.

 

[Elmo]

Well, it's been 5 days. I can happily say that my desires are back to normal! Writing this in a full diaper right now I had to force myself a little bit to get started, but luckily it's seemed to pay off. This might not work for you though, we're all different.

There's only one thing that's still bothering me. I feel like I have to always schedule my diaper time. Although, I'm just generally busy right now, so I'm sure that'll sort itself out.