- Adult Baby, Diaper Lover, Carer
That empty feeling is returning again. A little back story, I met this nice girl at work and have tons in common with her. I like the feeling and her. (A rare thing for me to feel) Problem being she's with someone. A child of a guy. Not in a good sense. On top of that everytime I put myself out there I came back bleeding. So I can home already giving up on the idea. I honestly don't think I'm meant to be with anyone. My parents didn't want me around when I was little. No one wanting me around as I grew up. I've felt this way twice before just to be burned by the person I had feelings for. Some of the things that scare me are, what if this is a pity date? Or even if it goes okay how long before they hate me too. On the love subject I get so little as it is. 2 weeks worth from my mother and what I can scrap up over the remainder of the year. I'm usually okay with a message of affection from my mother every now and again, but I've get to a point every now and again where all I want is a warm body to help me sleep at night. It's gotten to a point where I uses to wish for someone special, now I wish for just a hand to hold while I sleep. At 29 I've maybe been love for a total of 5 years all the rest has been me fighting to keep going. I don't know how people connect or stay together.