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I am in my late 30s, and have only had one relationship. I was bullied a lot in school, which made it too difficult for me to have girlfriends as a teenager. I have only had sex once as of right now, so I don't have much experience and I don't really know what it's like to have a close relationship with someone. This is making it scarier for me to open up to someone about my fetishes, which I have several. I don't really know how important it is for my partner to be into bondage or diapers, for instance. If she is amazing in every other aspect, will I be able to look past the fact that she is not willing to participate in those things? (I'm not with anyone right now, just in the event that that does happen in the future).
I'm not ready to try fetlife yet, that is TOO far out of my comfort zone. I realize that I will narrow it down to people who share my fetishes, but I'm just not ready to do that yet.
It's funny, because I am actually a very good looking guy with a very engaging, charismatic personality. It's just the anxiety caused by the trauma from being bullied so much that is preventing me from getting into a relationship.
Right now, you might be thinking: hey, if it doesn't work out with a vanilla girl, it doesn't work out. Well, for someone who is extremely sensitive, empathetic, and anxiety prone, it just doesn't work that way. I can't just say, "oh well" and move on. I guess I'm just scared that I'm going to fall in love with someone that I can't share my kinks with and end up heartbroken. I guess the bottom line is, I'm scared of breakups. Which makes sense, because I haven't had many.
I'm scared to talk to some of my friends about relationships as well, because I can't really talk to them about my fetishes, that's just too risky. Sometimes it's better to talk about these things with people you don't know/just met, that way you don't have anything to lose.
I don't know if I could handle dating a girl who has kids or not, but if she shared those kinks, it seems like that would make it irresistible.
Thank you for taking the time to read!
I'm not ready to try fetlife yet, that is TOO far out of my comfort zone. I realize that I will narrow it down to people who share my fetishes, but I'm just not ready to do that yet.
It's funny, because I am actually a very good looking guy with a very engaging, charismatic personality. It's just the anxiety caused by the trauma from being bullied so much that is preventing me from getting into a relationship.
Right now, you might be thinking: hey, if it doesn't work out with a vanilla girl, it doesn't work out. Well, for someone who is extremely sensitive, empathetic, and anxiety prone, it just doesn't work that way. I can't just say, "oh well" and move on. I guess I'm just scared that I'm going to fall in love with someone that I can't share my kinks with and end up heartbroken. I guess the bottom line is, I'm scared of breakups. Which makes sense, because I haven't had many.
I'm scared to talk to some of my friends about relationships as well, because I can't really talk to them about my fetishes, that's just too risky. Sometimes it's better to talk about these things with people you don't know/just met, that way you don't have anything to lose.
I don't know if I could handle dating a girl who has kids or not, but if she shared those kinks, it seems like that would make it irresistible.
Thank you for taking the time to read!