Today is why the reason I'm so tired with wearing diapers. I'm tired of cleaning and changing. Day and night. I'm really tired of messy accidents. I hate when people write or tell me that it get's easier. Easier? Really? It's never ending. It's been for 6 years now. I'm 41. What do incontinent people do after 10 years? 20 or 30 years? I wake almost everyday having with that ordeal of cleaning and changing. I hate to say this but today I just won't get up and change my diapers. I won't go to my studio. I'm just watching TV and posting this instead. I'm wearing the same diapers.The disposables are saturated and loaded. The cloth diaper is wet. I'm tired of cleaning them and me. It's the afternoon now. I guess I'll have to clean and shower eventually. Get a clean and dry diaper. What the f**k. It's just one of those days. Crap.