I was browsing rearz and made a few purchases.. before I checked out I went back and added a cute diaper cover and a binkie.. Out of nowhere they just called to me. Have others done the same or is it just me?
Yes absolutely. 💯 I made a post about it in another thread. Kinda projecting my own experiences here but I see this repeating pattern alot in others as well. Gonna be a long one...
Seems most AB started out as DL in childhood for no rhyme or reason. When we get older and no longer fit in real baby diapers and pull-ups we move on to proper sized pharmacy and medical adult diapers to fulfill this need of unknown origin.
At first it hits really good because it's a proper fitting full on DIAPER for the first time that actually fits your grown body the way you always wish real baby diapers would and it makes you all squirmy and blushy. But after a while that fades and something feels off. It's almost too sterile and clinical. It's starts to click in your brain that much of the original appeal of diapers all along was their babyishness aspect.
So then the natural evolution in the ABDL journey is your brain starts trying to compensate for what was lost and what it craves most of all. You suddenly and inexplicitly start to seek out and desire and get excited over other babyish things like onesies, footies, pacis, stuffies and you have no idea wtf is even going on. Diapers now feel like a some kind of gateway drug and you just stumbled down Alice's rabbit hole and you are curious where it goes.
<- YOU ARE HERE *
But these are things that you can wear with the boring adult diapers that restores the babyishness that was lost. Its your brain saying you subconciously liked diapers because they were babyish and these adult ones arent anymore. It's still mostly centered about the diapers and the other things are just to augment and reinforce that you are in diapers *because* you are still a baby and those buttons get dusted off again since the last time you fit in authentic childrens diapers as a real older child.
It's all about stimulating the authenticity and actualization of the fantasy in your brain to make it real and genuine. The brain isnt fooled by adult diapers no matter what cute ABDL prints they have. That hunger alone will never be fullfiled solely by diapers until Luvs, Pampers, or Huggies officially and genuinely makes them in sizes that fit adults while still having packaging that says 'for babies / children' on it and 165+ lb. Until that happens we have to supplement with other items and baby/child paraphernalia to lend authenticity to the fantasy and next thing you know you've added a pacifier to your cart and your heart is racing again.
At the same time we realize the appeal of diapers was perhaps their babyishness, we also start to mourn the realization that we are old now and start to make the connection that we miss our childhoods too while all this is going on. That's the start of the AB side beginning to bloom.
Eventually the onsies and sleepers and pacis and stuffies become an addiction and need of their own to restore childhood along side diapers and you realize it just feels right and perfect. And sometimes you may even feel little and right just shuffling around in a sleeper with stuffie in tow all day every day loving the way it feels and sounds on the hard floor with or without the diapers and start to figure out a actual little age. Your littleness and realization of it starts to expand here and you might not even have to lean on diapers as much anymore to be here.
Then maybe you look back on your whole life to this point and realize you never actually grew up and the whole time you were essentially living the dream life of your little kid self at home having infinite money to buy toys and video games and stay up watching cartoons all night while maintaining the fake adult professional outer shell in public.
While you were distracted putting on a convincing act for the grown up world, it was actually your long forgotten and lonely little secretly in control of your life behind the mask the entire time. Every time you stayed up late. Every time you bought or played a new video game. Every time you passed out watching cartoons. Every time you cried at a Disney movie or anime. Every time you felt your heart melt seeing real kids wishing that was you and you could go join them and play. Every time you turned red waking by the diaper isle at the grocery store as if somehow everybody knew and the facade was up. That was little you the whole time. Adult you never actually existed in the first place. You made them up as a construct to exist in the adult world only by necessity.
And it finally all makes sense and it hits you like a firetruck that this was the real you all along and you begin to fully indulge and embrace your new sense of true little self both AB and DL fully integrated full circle.
And that's the end of the ride. Happy adventures from this point on.
My advice if you haven't got there yet: indulge in and sleep with stuffed animals sooner rather than later. It's a huge little power multiplier and a game changer I wish Id discovered much earlier.