I'm Done.

[PaddedArtist90]

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I just want to share with everyone that the time has come & that I am considering deleting my ABDL profiles but I'm not 100% sure yet as I also feel this is the end of my ABDL journey.

Everything comes to an end eventually & as I get older & other life events take shape I feel like this should be the time I say goodbye to this part of my life & move on to other projects & experiences.

The situation has been on my mind for a while & isn't something I would jump into because I am fully aware of the "Binge/Purge" & I have experienced that countless times as have we all BUT this time I feel like it's finally reaching the end of its life cycle.

I have been posting a fair bit recently mainly on Tumblr but this is down to myself trying to recapture that spark in the hope that it could remain a part of my life but alas, I feel this is no longer the case.

I've decided to post this is because in the last few months I've started doing quite well with my vanilla self on a certain Social Media Platform & feel it is best that I part ways with this fixation that my younger naive self created & embrace what's over the horizon.

I don't want to go into too much detail so I don't put it all in jeoprady by people in the community wishing to be spiteful & disrupt that but I need to focus on my future & while this may not be a "career" as some would not so kindly point out but for now it is what's working for me & rather well in fact.

I'd like to thank those who've ever been nice & positive to me inside this community, you made it worth it & helped me in more ways than you could have ever imagined throughout my years involved.

I am currently in the process of deleting all of my posts across everything.

As it currently stands the percentages are:

79.76% for deletion of everything.

10.24% to just make this account inactive so I can keep the username.

10% to keep using the account in hope it does work out.

As it stands though, my mind's majority is made up.

If you got this far then I appreciate you reading it. 🙃

Live long and prosper! 🖖

 

[BobbiSueEllen]

Well...it's not gonna be as fun here without you, but the fact is ya gotta be content in your own skin. That's important. You're making a big jump to be happy...I did that coming here; I left as founder/admin of a Facebook group to become an AB girl here. The group started in 2012 from nothing, grew to almost a thousand & very busy by October 2019 when I handed it all to three ladies who could be trusted. So it's understandable the leap you're making. Be happy.

And whether you choose to visit here or not, I wish you all the best on your leap forward...you're a good person and it's been enjoyable with you here. Thanks for being one of the good people...and best wishes to you! 🤗🥰😢

 

[RoseofThorns]

I wish you the best on life's endeavors. I will say, you don't have to delete everything for you to separate yourself from it. I'm not on often anymore but I'm glad to have it. Either way, I hope you choose the best for you and wish you luck in your new phase of life.

 

[PaddedArtist90]

This community's been a part of my life for 14+ years and that part of me was there for even longer so of course it's gonna be hard to let it go and it's definitely a huge leap, I'm just not so sure they can both co-exist at the same time ya know?

Heck, I know I'd love the idea of having this secret agent double life of vanilla content maker by day & super little at night but I guess somethings just aren't meant to be. Lol

I have been trying to do things to recapture what I loved most about this & just can't seem to grasp it. I bought paci's, snacks & wore an NRU STR8UP the other day and tried to watch cartoons & some old disney shows I had to get me back into that little space but the spark's just gone and it went in the trash after less than hour without being used.

The majority of this community is decent people apart from a few bad apples I've encountered & it doesn't help I have a real brother who's also part of this community and I'm 83% certain he doesn't know I do what I do both here and with my other opportunity.

 

[Anemone]

I'm a great believer in the idea that one should do what feels right.

If it feels right to leave then that is fine. I'm curious as to why you should go to the effort of removing your record, the fear being that you are trying to make it more difficult to return should that feel the right thing to do.

Do you need to close that door behind you?

 

[YakuiAndOzoi]

I'm pretty new around these parts so all my words can be rightfully taken with a grain of salt, but I'll weigh in with my perspective.

I really don't think it's super healthy to remain in one place your whole life or let a single interest or identity consume you, so, like others have said, I don't think there's anything wrong with leaving.

I would, also as others have, encourage you not to completely destroy any trace of your previous presence online, just because that has personally led to regret for me in past experiences! Why do you want to do that? Do you feel the need to compulsively return as long as they still exist? I think that's a valid reason to erase them, but I'd still encourage avoidance of such if possible. I suppose my thoughts are that if you're leaving from a lack of interest like you say, there's no real reason to delete everything when just not checking in again for a few weeks or months and seeing if the desire comes back naturally would suffice!

In any case, I understand the distress of losing interest in or just plain losing a hobby, even if it makes a positive change in your life. I wish you all the best!

 

[PaddedArtist90]

I can see where you're coming from & perhaps you may be right about just not checking in for a while, don't get me wrong there are still so many things I've not explored with this & would do if possible just to see if it'd help but I can't.

I wouldn't say it was also a compulsion to return as long as they exist because I could just end up making new profiles etc, I just feel like as long as everything does exist then it's always going to be in the back of my mind and I feel like it would & could be harder to let go & move on.

I know I've gotta do what's right by me & with this opportunity taking shape I also worry about the possibility of it all "outing" me and ruining it should I leave everything in its place, especially due to my IRL brother being involved with this as well & don't know how that would all come to pass but I guess that worry & concern could also be applied to any other aspect of life.

I've got some thinking to do regardless & for the most part I hope I make the right choices because I'm not exactly known for doing that IRL.

 

[Dinotopian2002]

Hey mate

I hear what you’re saying - the trick is to embrace this part of your life, but at the same time, not let it take control over you - it’s a balancing act. This lifestyle is not your whole life.

I’m reading between the lines here but it sounds like you’ve found out your IRL brother is into ABDL as well - and you’re worried that he may think the same.

By all means, step away from ADISC if you need to - I disappeared for a whole year due to health issues - but unless you’ve been doxxed, is deleting everything an overreaction? Would it be more sensible to lie low for a bit? What have you posted that you think would out you?

At the end of the day it’s your choice. I just hope what I’ve said helps you make it calmly.

Breathe Deep, Seek Peace
Dinotopian2002

 

[dogboy]

Interesting that both you and your brother are DL. Either you've made the same early connections to diapers or there is an inheritable element, meaning it's a hard wired function of the brain. Either way, the desire to wear my return in a big way. Just something to think about.

 

[Anemone]

I wouldn't say it was also a compulsion to return as long as they exist because I could just end up making new profiles etc, I just feel like as long as everything does exist then it's always going to be in the back of my mind and I feel like it would & could be harder to let go & move on.

If your interest has waned why are you worried about it lingering in the back of your mind?
It sounds like you're worried that the interest will come back and you want to make it harder to act upon i.e. easier to repress.

What is it that you need to let go of in order to move on?
If you need to let go before moving on why are you preparing to move on before letting go?

 

[PaddedArtist90]

If your interest has waned why are you worried about it lingering in the back of your mind?
It sounds like you're worried that the interest will come back and you want to make it harder to act upon i.e. easier to repress.

What is it that you need to let go of in order to move on?
If you need to let go before moving on why are you preparing to move on before letting go?

My interest has waned, I get literally nothing out of wearing now & I am fully aware that this "kink" isn't exactly something I can "get rid of" so yeah I guess you can say I'd be repressing it.

I just feel like in order to move on, I need to focus on what's financially the better move and not some fantasy that 12 year old me cooked up when he was being bullied.

I'm not trying to move on before letting go, unfortunately they've both occurred at the same time, if they hadn't it'd have been easier for me.

 

[PaddedArtist90]

Hey mate

I hear what you’re saying - the trick is to embrace this part of your life, but at the same time, not let it take control over you - it’s a balancing act. This lifestyle is not your whole life.

I’m reading between the lines here but it sounds like you’ve found out your IRL brother is into ABDL as well - and you’re worried that he may think the same.

By all means, step away from ADISC if you need to - I disappeared for a whole year due to health issues - but unless you’ve been doxxed, is deleting everything an overreaction? Would it be more sensible to lie low for a bit? What have you posted that you think would out you?

At the end of the day it’s your choice. I just hope what I’ve said helps you make it calmly.

Breathe Deep, Seek Peace
Dinotopian2002

You could call it an overreaction sure, I found out my brother was part of this community a long time ago but we don't really speak or get on too well.

There's a bit of animosity between us so there's that concern that he could use this against me because in the past he has tried to destroy parts of my life purely because he knew this would become an issue.

I have considered the possibility of going off grid ya know I'm just not sure if it would be better to just delete the lot and IF and I mean IF it ever manifested itself again then I'd just start again with new profiles etc.

I appreciate the advice, as I said there's a lot of nice & level headed people in this community so I appreciate the words of wisdom.

 

[Kittyinpink]

⚠️IMPORTANT⚠️

I just want to share with everyone that the time has come & that I am considering deleting my ABDL profiles but I'm not 100% sure yet as I also feel this is the end of my ABDL journey.

Everything comes to an end eventually & as I get older & other life events take shape I feel like this should be the time I say goodbye to this part of my life & move on to other projects & experiences.

The situation has been on my mind for a while & isn't something I would jump into because I am fully aware of the "Binge/Purge" & I have experienced that countless times as have we all BUT this time I feel like it's finally reaching the end of its life cycle.

I have been posting a fair bit recently mainly on Tumblr but this is down to myself trying to recapture that spark in the hope that it could remain a part of my life but alas, I feel this is no longer the case.

I've decided to post this is because in the last few months I've started doing quite well with my vanilla self on a certain Social Media Platform & feel it is best that I part ways with this fixation that my younger naive self created & embrace what's over the horizon.

I don't want to go into too much detail so I don't put it all in jeoprady by people in the community wishing to be spiteful & disrupt that but I need to focus on my future & while this may not be a "career" as some would not so kindly point out but for now it is what's working for me & rather well in fact.

I'd like to thank those who've ever been nice & positive to me inside this community, you made it worth it & helped me in more ways than you could have ever imagined throughout my years involved.

I am currently in the process of deleting all of my posts across everything.

As it currently stands the percentages are:

79.76% for deletion of everything.

10.24% to just make this account inactive so I can keep the username.

10% to keep using the account in hope it does work out.

As it stands though, my mind's majority is made up.

If you got this far then I appreciate you reading it. 🙃

Live long and prosper! 🖖

Well . Goodbye, and best wishes to you on your new journey!
I hope it works out well for you !😊😊😊
Thank you for all your posts and chats !
Again I wish you the best !

 

[PaddedArtist90]

Interesting that both you and your brother are DL. Either you've made the same early connections to diapers or there is an inheritable element, meaning it's a hard wired function of the brain. Either way, the desire to wear my return in a big way. Just something to think about.

It's not that interesting really, he essentially just copied me after finding profiles of me online (we used to share a family pc, so probably my fault) & he started going through my things & stealing items from my stashes & clothes in general he has just made my past rather difficult regarding it.

He's threatened & even tried to expose it to friendships and relationships that I have had purely because he could and knew all too well they would end because of it & sure enough some of those friendships did end because of the things he told them.

I only found out when I found a used one in the house and knew it wasn't mine because I wouldn't fit into them, so I knew it had to be someone else & he was the only logical choice & turns out I was right.

 

[MrE]

Sounds like you're going through some complex things. I've purged and vanished a few times in life when I had a go at doing the full vanilla life. It creeps back though eventually. Vanilla got dull real fast. Hope you are happy though regardless of the choices you make.

 

[PaddedArtist90]

Sounds like you're going through some complex things. I've purged and vanished a few times in life when I had a go at doing the full vanilla life. It creeps back though eventually. Vanilla got dull real fast. Hope you are happy though regardless of the choices you make.

I've been throught the whole binge/purge cycle too, many many times, I guess you could call it a case of emotional bluntness but I literally feel nothing towards this "kink" anymore, not a single thing, in fact I don't feel much of anything toward anything else for that matter. I just know that I have no interest.

 

[Kittyinpink]

I've been throught the whole binge/purge cycle too, many many times, I guess you could call it a case of emotional bluntness but I literally feel nothing towards this "kink" anymore, not a single thing, in fact I don't feel much of anything toward anything else for that matter. I just know that I have no interest.

Pretty much the same as myself.
I remember us chatting about this not do long ago.
I have no "buzz" anymore. But I still like being a part of the community. My pack of diapers just sit there untouched .. but I like knowing they are there .. my pacifier is in constant use , because, hey , I like it ! Not as a kink , just it feels nice ! 😌..
As I have aged my desired have gone numb , I never had much drive in the first place , now I have 97% zero anything..
I actually dislike the idea of a partner , or a long diaper session.. I would rather read a history book ...
But I don't want to leave , I have grown to love this little dysfunctional family of ours ! I don't feel like a fake , I am still a part of abdl .. just a very , very small part...

 

[diddles]

I’m not sure how I feel about being ‘comfortably numb’ Kitty.
It’s easier of course, but I miss the thrill of living life in the crazy lane 🙂

 

[diddles]

Jesus Kitty…don’t you ever sleep!?

 

[Kittyinpink]

I’m not sure how I feel about being ‘comfortably numb’ Kitty.
It’s easier of course, but I miss the thrill of living life in the crazy lane 🙂

I think sometimes , it's such a psychological thing , I remember watching a television programme about sex , and one person said "the only true sexual organ is my brain"
Remember when we were young (all those years ago..) and we would daydream / fantasise ourselves into a frenzy ! 🤣 (then sometimes , feel guilty afterwards 😬..)
I guess the fantasies get tired.. the acting out with diapers etc .. is the same as yesterday, as yesterday as ...
I guess we basically get bored , the brain starts thinking about other stuff and slowly ,as the years pass , we become less tied into our desires.. I think its just a normal process.. if we really want to , I'm sure we could wake up the beast!! 🤣😊..