- Adult Baby, Incontinent, , Private
Okay so this is something I was meaning to ask a bit before. I never really got the chance or wanted to really, but this is the best place I know of to ask this. So like basically I have been wearing 24/7 since most of the way through april. During the day and at work I've been holding it as long as I can before going, but going when I need to, which seems to be getting longer each time. But...if we start at the beginning this goes all the way back to that stupid night at that party that I freaked out about on here and did a lot of stupid things...Anyway, I realize now that it was because I couldn't feel that I had to go, that I just didn't, and that I didn't actually go afterward when I tried, which only built pressure more...The accident was caused by actually holding it too long...Well this is what I think so anyway now, because it obviously happened again...This time, no party, and no stupidity...Well, none except holding it too long...Well my pull-up at work, when I was wearng them, wasn't really reliable and I didn't have anymore with me and I was just trying to hold it until we could get out of class...I held it too long and the same thing that happened before happened (this time it took a lot less because I never fully recovered from the first one)...It was like I wet a little bit without being able to stop it, and it felt like I was still holding it... Anyway, the first time after a few days I was mostly up to par...But this time it was soo bad because I actually held back as much as I could, which made it worse...Because I was at work, and I had to make it home or to the washroom... (after wetting I immediately almost ran to the washroom as soon as the class was moving around).... But ya...I didn't quite realize even then....this happened again, shortly after...and I hadn't even recovered the second time...Well then I was done and pretty-much lost control for a couple of days...Moderately...Because I was still holding some...It was only small bits that would escape as soon as my bladder would start to fill at all...I didn't actually realize what had happened until it was as bad as it did get...But basically after it had held it too long, it really didn't want to hold it, so if it filled to a point, even though I was holding still, some would escape, even though it was very little, and overall it was still filling even with the small amounts escaping. Someone suggested maybe it was worn out from holding it too long...Well maybe...so what I kind of had to do from then on anyway was wear full-time "real" diapers for a couple of days....And actually by going when I needed to more often then not, it actually recovered better/faster...Well anyway, so it did significantly get better...But still it's like my first warning for having to go (and it's getting less and less) is a small bit escaping... Anyway I know I'm rambling because I'm really tired...But I had to write this out...I was seriously considering going to a doctor or something, but I don't know...What should I do? I mean I don't really know what happened...but I sort of do and it IS getting better...But at the same time, it's my fault and how would I explain why I was both holding it so long and the diapers I was wearing in the day prior? Like I was only holding it because I was trying to make it till I got home, but that's because I was wearing the diapers there in the first place because I couldn't make it from class to break without running to the washroom at least once. I don't know but I think the question here is more to say what I needed to, than for an answer, but either way...I'd really prefer not going to a doctor if I can help it...And besides that, what could this be? Anyone else have an idea? I don't know what's going on otherwise, but I know that, ironically enough, because I didn't get "real" diapers in the first place it actually ended up causing me to need them. Does anyone know about bladders actually giving up? So anyway, besides that, I dunno what I'm asking, but I will appreciate any help/ideas I can get....Even if just to figure out what happened... This is my theory of course remember. K, thanks if you actually read any of my rambling to get this far.