KittyninjaW said:
This has been kinda bugging me for a bit off and on, but I do think I want to transition. Honestly I am just tired of being a guy, and all of that. I do want to be a girl.
Then chances are,
you already ARE a girl. That was a pretty big epiphany for me; it didn't dawn on me until my mom was looking at me a month or so ago, and casually remarked, "You know...you've kind of ALWAYS been my
daughter." It totally made my heart swell up and she went into all of the different little signs. I was always more emotionally mature than my male peers, I was always a bit sensitive, I was always the one going shopping with mom and looking at clothes and the like. I was never really into typically male activities as a child; I preferred staying indoors and playing house (always electing to be the
baby of course; not the
husband like most boys would opt to be lol.)
My
internal GENDER has
always been female
, and yours probably is
as well. For the simple fact that you're even
considering transitioning to make your body more closely match who you really are on the inside. Put bluntly,
cisgender men just don't THINK like that LOL. Cisgender men don't
typically question their gender identity, and the few who may, don't tend to question it for as many
years as you have lol. It's a safe bet that you are almost
definitely transgender, meaning, you do not identify as the sex you were assigned at birth; it does
not necessarily mean that one wants to be the
opposite gender, (although in your case, that does seem to be the case), but
being transgender simply means that you don't identify with your assigned sex.
KittyninjaW said:
There are just several problems with this. The main one is that I may feel like it now but may not later.
Omg this was SUCH a major dilemma for me leading up to my decision to begin transitioning.
What if I change my mind later??? I was truly terrified of what I was considering lol.
For me personally, my age played a big factor in deciding to transition, because HRT is safer and more effective the younger you start it. I first started awakening to the reality that I was transgender when I was 24 years old, so I already felt like I may be running out of time to make a final decision. I started seeing a Gender Therapist months later when I was 25 to explore my thoughts and feelings further with someone with more expertise, and most important, the resources and connections to help point me in the right direction to get started on hormones, if that's what I ended up deciding to do, (and it was lol.) I started hormones after three months of therapy; less than a month after my 26th birthday lol. I wished I'd have found out and started transitioning sooner, but fortunately it seems my body is still young enough that it's taken to HRT very well; things have been going super smoothly since I first started 9 months ago; if I had decided to wait until later in life, I might not have been so lucky, although it's important to note that age should NOT be seen as an obstacle or prevention to transitioning, because the simple fact of the matter is,
you don't know how you're personal body will react to HRT. As the saying goes in the trans community "YMMV" (Your Mileage May Vary), and if you truly can't see yourself being happy as a man, I feel you
owe it to yourself to at least
try HRT for a while and see how you feel; (I've been doing fairly regular little "reality checks" in this regard to see if my position has changed at all, and so far I haven't even seriously
considered stopping HRT;
it still feels right.
Aside from the age factor, how else did I overcome the aforementioned obstacle of doubt regarding the possibility of changing my mind later in life?
I had done a TON of introspective research, and learned everything I could about transitioning, and DE-TRANSITIONING. De-Transition DOES happen; some individuals actually DO end up changing their minds later on,
and that's okay. It's not the end of the world! At the same time though,
de-transitioning is SUPER rare. What percentage of transgender individuals end up transitioning, and then
de-transition later on?
8% of transitioned individuals de-transition,
in total lol.
64% of THAT 8% reported de-transitioning because of pressure from family and friends, discrimination, and social stigmas; NOT because they
weren't trans.
Only
0.4 Percent, (ZERO POINT FOUR PERCENT lmao), of the 8% end up de-transitioning because they realized they aren't actually transgender.
...By contrast, the
regret rate for LASIK EYE SURGERY is a whopping 1.4% to 2.3% compared to the 0.4%
regret rate for
gender transition lmao.
...That means out of all the
thousands of trans individuals who
literally had their
entire anatomy
rearranged...only
zero point four percent of them ended up saying afterwards, "Meh, I wouldn't do it again!" LOL
De-transitioning isn't NEARLY as common as certain media outlets like to make it out to be lmao.
Fear not; if you end up deciding to go through with going on hormones, statistically speaking, you WON'T end up changing your mind later lol. The doubts and fears you're having are totally normal and healthy; this IS a huge decision, you SHOULD consider it very carefully lol. After all the research, consideration and self-discovery, you will almost
definitely be confident and sure of yourself when you go in for your first prescription of hormones.