ForeverYoung
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I've summarized my personal AB identity just about every time I post. I'll spare you all this time. The short version is, for me it's closer to Little or even "Adult Toddler" and all focused around the potty training stage.
After several life changes over the past few weeks, I've realized something about myself. I never felt like I missed out on my childhood, I had a relatively happy one with many friends and experiences. Of course it wasn't without pain, I saw both of my grandparents die back to back from cancer and heart disease early on, my little brother was diagnosed autistic when I was very young, and my dad was diagnosed with MS when I hit junior high. It was made clear very early on that I would have added responsibility in my life. There were moments where I really bucked that, but now I take a sense of pride in being able to have my own life and help my family.
So, ultimately, despite the numerous issues my family has had to deal with (many not listed above) I've been overall happy with my life, grateful for my opportunities, and I feel like I have a plan in action for success in meeting my goals.
So what the hell am I even bringing any of this up for.
I guess most people walk around feeling like they "missed out" on something, that's probably even more common in this community. For a long time I felt I missed out in a multitude of ways, but most of those situations turned out to be false.
I realize, though, the way my heart skips a beat when the Pull Ups theme comes on, or when I think of that early celebration of success, I feel like I skipped a step in life that I really wanted to experience. I feel like I missed out on that early pre school "big kid" feeling. My mom has said to me on numerous occasions how happy she is that she could always depend on me, and how mature I (mostly) was throughout all of that.
When I think back now, I guess it almost seems like I jumped from being a baby to being a school aged child. In the olden days, I guess that would seem pretty normal, even now it would seem normal. But I tell you, there is a part of me that longs for the "I'm a big kid now!" stage.
There's a new Pull Ups commercial that came out this year that celebrates multiple big kid moments, like moving from bottles to sippy cups, and learning to dress yourself. It's that sort of thing, that incredible celebration in those sorts of moments.
It's not all bad though, I have no doubt in my mind that I'll find a partner one day who can both understand and cater to this longing inside of me. I'm not as regretful now as I had once been.
Sorry if this post isn't going anywhere, but I think this is something that I've wanted to vocalize for a long time. It's one thing to say that in some ways, I feel like I grew up too fast, but it's another (perhaps a more millennial statement) to say that I missed out on being a big kid.
That's what I want to regress to. That's what I want to relive.
I'm looking forward to the day where I can share that role play with someone who truly understands and supports it.
After several life changes over the past few weeks, I've realized something about myself. I never felt like I missed out on my childhood, I had a relatively happy one with many friends and experiences. Of course it wasn't without pain, I saw both of my grandparents die back to back from cancer and heart disease early on, my little brother was diagnosed autistic when I was very young, and my dad was diagnosed with MS when I hit junior high. It was made clear very early on that I would have added responsibility in my life. There were moments where I really bucked that, but now I take a sense of pride in being able to have my own life and help my family.
So, ultimately, despite the numerous issues my family has had to deal with (many not listed above) I've been overall happy with my life, grateful for my opportunities, and I feel like I have a plan in action for success in meeting my goals.
So what the hell am I even bringing any of this up for.
I guess most people walk around feeling like they "missed out" on something, that's probably even more common in this community. For a long time I felt I missed out in a multitude of ways, but most of those situations turned out to be false.
I realize, though, the way my heart skips a beat when the Pull Ups theme comes on, or when I think of that early celebration of success, I feel like I skipped a step in life that I really wanted to experience. I feel like I missed out on that early pre school "big kid" feeling. My mom has said to me on numerous occasions how happy she is that she could always depend on me, and how mature I (mostly) was throughout all of that.
When I think back now, I guess it almost seems like I jumped from being a baby to being a school aged child. In the olden days, I guess that would seem pretty normal, even now it would seem normal. But I tell you, there is a part of me that longs for the "I'm a big kid now!" stage.
There's a new Pull Ups commercial that came out this year that celebrates multiple big kid moments, like moving from bottles to sippy cups, and learning to dress yourself. It's that sort of thing, that incredible celebration in those sorts of moments.
It's not all bad though, I have no doubt in my mind that I'll find a partner one day who can both understand and cater to this longing inside of me. I'm not as regretful now as I had once been.
Sorry if this post isn't going anywhere, but I think this is something that I've wanted to vocalize for a long time. It's one thing to say that in some ways, I feel like I grew up too fast, but it's another (perhaps a more millennial statement) to say that I missed out on being a big kid.
That's what I want to regress to. That's what I want to relive.
I'm looking forward to the day where I can share that role play with someone who truly understands and supports it.