MissLexi
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It's such a deeply personal and intimate thing to me. Discussing it with my family (especially parents) feels like an incest rape of my mentality. I'm 23 years old and was forced to bring them to a session with my gender therapist (i hate that man so much) because every word that comes out of my mouth is apparently equivalent to the word of a defendant in court with no attorney. It was humiliating. My mom did great at the session but her presence there should've never happened. My transition is MY thing, not theirs. It affects me, not them. I'm old enough to know what i'm getting myself into and think for myself.
I wanted support through my transition. Support of someone i trust on an intimate level (like a girlfriend or a close friend), not my family. They love me and i love them but they don't fucking get it! I forced myself to come out after realizing i'll never find a girlfriend to give me the support i needed to do so. The fact i was on the verge of suicide helped too..
Now i'm going through my transition with unwanted excessive support of my parents which makes me feel like i'm being mentally raped. I wanted to have support of a girlfriend or do this alone but they just refuse to accept this. Their acceptance of me coming out was all the support i needed/wanted from them but they went far over the line by meddling into my transition with their good intentions that are destructive to my mentality. Why can't they just deal with it and pretend like nothing changed?
I just had to get it out..
I wanted support through my transition. Support of someone i trust on an intimate level (like a girlfriend or a close friend), not my family. They love me and i love them but they don't fucking get it! I forced myself to come out after realizing i'll never find a girlfriend to give me the support i needed to do so. The fact i was on the verge of suicide helped too..
Now i'm going through my transition with unwanted excessive support of my parents which makes me feel like i'm being mentally raped. I wanted to have support of a girlfriend or do this alone but they just refuse to accept this. Their acceptance of me coming out was all the support i needed/wanted from them but they went far over the line by meddling into my transition with their good intentions that are destructive to my mentality. Why can't they just deal with it and pretend like nothing changed?
I just had to get it out..