Back when I discovered my ABDL side in 1999, I would buy a pack of Depends and related stuff. I’d wear one diaper til it was soaked, call a phone sex Mommy. I would get off; come down out of the clouds, then throw my diapers away! I felt so stupid and ashamed. Then later on that day or the next, I’d dig my diapers from the trash. I’ve thrown packs of diapers into dumpsters, and then re visited them late at night to retrieve what I’d purged. Every time I’ve binged, I have come roaring back; buying more Depends, baby powder, and A&D ointment than ever before. My purging stopped years ago. This whole ABDL thing became less about sex and more about real fulfillment, and my purging ended.