I remember to this day where my love for diapers started... I was 7 years old and I had a neighbor across the street he was 4 years old and was my friend...we hung out almost every day...then one day I went over his house it was kind of late for a 7 year old the sun just went down...we lived right by a set of train tracks and as a train approached we watched as it went by, through his bedroom window. I remember having to use the bathroom so I go and as I'm in the bathroom I don't know it but he's putting his pull-up on then I walk in just as he's pulling his pull ups up...then I have a surprised look on my face and he says that he's in potty training...so I ask him if he dares me to try a pull up on, he says yes so he looks for another pull up but can't find one... Then he looks under his bed and finds one...so I still have my pants on and I put it on over my pants and I can still feel the softness of the diaper on me...I then take it off and ask him if I should actually put it on for real this time... He says yes...I tell him to close his eyes and turn around and just as soon as I'm about to pull down my pants, my sister rings the doorbell for me to come home... I was sad because I didn't get the chance to actually put it on... So the next day I go back over and ask about the pull ups and he said he ran out and he's all potty trained so no more pull ups...I got sad and then a month later he moved away I never saw him again. When I was 15 I had a little bit of money so I went to the store to buy some pull ups I thought this was my chance to wear diapers I was wrong...8 years before then I was 7 and the pull ups fit perfectly . But then at 15 they're too small so I threw them out...when I got a job at 16 I was finally making money...when I turned 17 I saw that Goodnites might fit me... So I went to the store and bought some Goodnites and some baby wipes and 2 pacifiers from a different store.so when I went home I went into my rooms a put on a Goodnite for the first time...it fit perfectly and then I decide to wet so I do and I sleep in my wet Goodnite and change in the morning...the next day I decide to mess so I do and I already know I wouldn't like messing from when I went in my underwear I HATE cleaning up the messy diaper. So I just stick to wetting but ever since I moved out of state as mentioned in one of my other posts...I couldn't get my diapers