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Hi guys,

I'm a broadcast journalism student and have recently found out about the AB and DL fetishes (sorry not sure you'd even call it as that or rather an interest- I'm new!). I find it really interesting and would love to write an article for uni on it. I joined this forum to try and gain a better understanding and get people's views. I was wondering if anyone (over 18) wouldn't mind sharing their story on how you got into it, what kind of things you do as a AB/DL, how it affects your everyday life (like with work/partners/parents) and at what age you acquired an interest?

Just to reassure you, I would respect your anonymity. Any info would really be much appreciated.

Nice to meet you all :)
 
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Hey does it have to be over 18? Cuz Ive got a pretty interesting story :D
 
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Nice to see someone taking intreat and wanting to understand.
I am 21, and female. I have had AB desires for as long as I could remember, but didn't know they meant anything. I had a bit of a rough childhood, and had to grow up quickly; I think this contributed to me being an AB, sorta trying to give myself the childhood I didn't have. I wear diapers every couple of days, have a few footed sleepers, have a few pacifiers, and sometimes drink from a bottle. Being an AB does not really have an affect on my daily life. I am a college graduate just starting my career; I lead a functional adult life along with my little life.
 

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I wouldn't mind sharing my story (can't at the moment, kind of restricted). Also, its one thing to get our stories and thoughts third hand, but its a completely different emotional sensation to go and by them on your own. Would you consider buying a pack of diapers to get a better idea of us?
 

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As a transgendered girl I didn't get to have the childhood that I wanted, I missed out on a lot. Being able to dress, act and be treated as a young girl fills a big void in my life for me, it makes me feel amazing. I also had a rough childhood, most of my early memories that involve my parents are of them arguing, shouting or other things that at the time would have caused me distress. Through age regression I can feel like not only a young girl but a young girl that is cared for and protected. I feel safe, relaxed and stress-less when I'm diapered with my favourite cuddlies and my dummy. The world becomes a suddenly happy place to live in.
As for life outside of being an adult baby, I'm a well respected gamer in the tournament scene playing on a top sponsored team. Gaming aside I am unemployed and finding it hard to approach work due to severe confidence, depression and social anxiety issues.
 

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Not to be cynical or anything, but why this particular subject/fetish over any others? What is it about dl's/ab's that interest you in particular and how do you envision portraying them in your publication or media outlet? Having some experience in the PR/Communications field, it's important people that we consider these types of questions before volunteering to be interviewed or sharing your story. While there are many well-intentioned reporters out there, there are plenty of others looking to sensationalize something that shouldn't be.
 

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I'm a broadcast journalism student

I was wondering if anyone (over 18) wouldn't mind sharing their story on how you got into it




Well, I'm a 34 year old male from the southern US and wouldn't mind sharing my story, however it would be under a false premise.

You see much as we would like to, none of us really understand how we got here. There is a great deal of speculation on the issue and some have drawn conclusions from it. The fact remains that there is no hard evidence as to how we got started. I even hesitate apply the term fetish as many of us can remember compulsions to continue wearing diapers well before puberty. I, for instance, trace it back to roughly six years old. I suppose you will need to talk to many here and develop your own opinions. I just hope they are not derived from a typical sensationalist attitude from those of the media who latch onto anything out of the mainstream and seek to demonize it to sell mercenary fashion.
 

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I have to admit, I'm extremely uncomfortable with the fact that you're here to dig up a story... BUT, because I was once a journalism student, I am willing to grant you the benefit of assuming you have more ethics than some of the already-established pundits. After all, some real jerks--like Howard Stern, Rush Limbaugh and Glenn Beck--consider themselves broadcast "journalists" and I would be very cautious of giving them any information about my personal life.

Your first (and only thread so far) is asking the members of this community to respond to very personal questions. From what I have observed, the mods of this site typically like to see you write an introduction about yourself. Until we know a few particulars about the size and scope of your publication, your educational background and what other sources you have found for your research, it may be difficult for others to trust you. Over the past two years especially, we've seen some pretty hateful and slanted op-ed pieces appear in the media and our community will not tolerate efforts to make fools of us.

That being said, I have a few questions for you:

First, what type of media are you working with? Broadcast journalism can mean anything from a television documentary to a short radio segment... we should know how much air-time is being dedicated to this project, as you are delving into a rather complex topic.

What are your career goals with respect to your chosen medium? Are you--as I was--burning with a desire to make an impact on this crazy world? How do you plan on making that happen? Who is a journalist you admire and respect?

If this is for a school project, please explain how this assignment is helping you to advance your education. What is it about this subject matter that appeals to you?

What other sources of information have you found?

Once we know a bit more about you, there might be enough trust for people to really open up--myself included.

Looking forward to your answers,
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I have to admit, I'm extremely uncomfortable with the fact that you're here to dig up a story... BUT, because I was once a journalism student, I am willing to grant you the benefit of assuming you have more ethics than some of the already-established pundits. After all, some real jerks--like Howard Stern, Rush Limbaugh and Glenn Beck--consider themselves broadcast "journalists" and I would be very cautious of giving them any information about my personal life.

Your first (and only thread so far) is asking the members of this community to respond to very personal questions. From what I have observed, the mods of this site typically like to see you write an introduction about yourself. Until we know a few particulars about the size and scope of your publication, your educational background and what other sources you have found for your research, it may be difficult for others to trust you. Over the past two years especially, we've seen some pretty hateful and slanted op-ed pieces appear in the media and our community will not tolerate efforts to make fools of us.

That being said, I have a few questions for you:

First, what type of media are you working with? Broadcast journalism can mean anything from a television documentary to a short radio segment... we should know how much air-time is being dedicated to this project, as you are delving into a rather complex topic.

What are your career goals with respect to your chosen medium? Are you--as I was--burning with a desire to make an impact on this crazy world? How do you plan on making that happen? Who is a journalist you admire and respect?

If this is for a school project, please explain how this assignment is helping you to advance your education. What is it about this subject matter that appeals to you?

What other sources of information have you found?

Once we know a bit more about you, there might be enough trust for people to really open up--myself included.

Looking forward to your answers,
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Sorry, I didn't realise you'd need more of an introduction. If you'd like to know more, I'm a 21 year old Broadcast Journalism student in my third and final year of studies at the University of London. I'm doing this article as an assignment for my Lifestyle Journalism module. I'll be writing the story in the form of a feature article intended for a magazine, however only my lecturer is going to be reading it! I found out about the AB fetish from a friend who attended the Erotica convention in London, and thought it would be a really interesting subject to write about as it's quite unheard of over here. Some articles that I have read on the subject have demonized it, which is not what I intend to do at all. As I can see it is a very delicate subject, so I don't feel it would be fair/ethical of me to do so.

I found it quite hard to get any interviews in London, no one really wanted to talk to me, which is understandable. But that is why I went onto this forum hoping to find people that would be willing to share their stories. I wanted to be completely honest about myself on the forum, I'm sorry that it makes you feel uncomfortable that I'm looking for a story, but hopefully you can see that it's not with mal intent.

In terms of my career goals, I'm still deciding what I want to do! The reason I've chosen this as a subject is because there is a tendancy on my course for people to write about the obvious, such as pop culture and entertainment etc. and so my aim is to explore other "worlds" in order to go beyond what is expected of me.

Other sources: well it's been pretty hard really! As I said, not many people have been willing to talk to me. There's an adult baby club in London of which I've tried to contact the organisers, but gotten no reply. I have found quite a lot of news articles and medical research on infantilism online that I found quite helpful to give me a more general overview. However, I would like some direct sources in order to get a whole overview of the topic.

I really appreciate any info you would be willing to give me!

Hope that answers your questions, if you want to know more, let me know.

---------- Post added at 11:53 ---------- Previous post was at 11:50 ----------

Thanks to everyone for the comments and PMs! It's really kind of you to help me out, I appreciate it very much.

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Not to be cynical or anything, but why this particular subject/fetish over any others? What is it about dl's/ab's that interest you in particular and how do you envision portraying them in your publication or media outlet? Having some experience in the PR/Communications field, it's important people that we consider these types of questions before volunteering to be interviewed or sharing your story. While there are many well-intentioned reporters out there, there are plenty of others looking to sensationalize something that shouldn't be.

Hey, I hope my answer above also answers yours.
 

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If you are really committed to this project there are several things that you can do to help get a top grade on your paper.
You can search in medical library data bases around the world for a comphrensive review of the literature. Specific searches will show a few studies that you want to quote on this subject for credibility.
Then buy a package of adult diapers and wear them. You know where the London Club meets and join them for a evening. You may be suprised what real interviews can do for your primary research data base.
Sounds like you have a good start.
Code each interview so real names will not show in the study.
If you get a A grade share the paper with us
 

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Guys, it is lunacy to tell someone to buy and wear diapers as part of research. Without the compulsion to do so, putting on a diaper will mean nothing.

If he is to be taken seriously he'll need to approach this objectively and wearing a diaper would almost certainly discredit him.
 

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Guys, it is lunacy to tell someone to buy and wear diapers as part of research. Without the compulsion to do so, putting on a diaper will mean nothing.

Could not agree more. Some people are silly.

Although, I would like to echo the idea of posting the finished product here. It's always fascinating to hear what outsiders think of us at first glance...
 

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I really appreciate any info you would be willing to give me!

Well you sound like a guy i can trust. I'd have to agree though with an earlier statement that most of us don't know why we have these desires.
As for me, my reasons are kind of foggy. I did have the desires to wear diapers much before puberty. In fact, I think my story is a little bit different than others, because I know for a fact that I never experienced any abuse, and i consider my parents to be very responsible, and loving parents. I don't have any diagnosed disabilities, and that includes that i am not incontinent.
I remember when i was kindergarten age, and i was at a friends house, I saw a diaper that had been put on a toy, and i distinctly remember wanting to wear it. Thoughts of being regressed would often be in my mind when i was younger, and were also accompanied by furry fantasies. I actually think that a good portion of why I am an Ab/Dl is because I am also a furry, I believe that I first started off having a desire to live life as a little Lion cub, as i do remember having dreams at night about such things, and also having a deep love for the movie Lion King (which i have contemplated the possibility of what effects some of the subliminal messages that exist in that move might have had to influence my lifestyle.) After wanting to be a lion cub, it was easy to adopt the idea of wearing diapers, when having a 'little' mentality, i would contemplate what it might feel like to wear one again, and it became an obsessive thought.

My earliest memories of diapers, is very foggy, but I recall the emotions of it. My brother and sisters were playing a game (I am the youngest of 5), and i remember playing the role of the baby, and the subject of diapers had been brought up, however for some reason it never occurred to me that i really was a baby at the time.
Early, foggy, memories also intrigue me because, i remember a moment in time when i was put to bed in a crib, while everyone else went to watch TV, and I wanted so badly to join them, I cried to join them because I literally remember feeling like there was no difference between me and them, which made me feel like i was being treated wrongfully. This one, and also a memory of being told once that I would have to wear diapers if i didn't stop wetting the bed (which didn't persist to long into my life), make me wonder how i didn't end up not being an Ab/Dl. Although I think that having made them mysteries to my mind when i was a young kid, just made them all the more influential.

When I was in my youth, I was somewhat sensitive, I would bring two of my favorite plushies, a dog and a white tiger(the tiger i had until i was 21, and then i got rid of it during a purge), along with me to first grade. There was a girl that I had a lot of puppy love towards, and the two of us would play with my plushies while we were on the bus. When i moved away, it was a very sad moment, I still would like to see her again, but I also know that we would be entirely different. Once I moved, I started to experiment, doing things like padding whitey tighty underwear with toilet paper to try and get a similar effect, using it and flushing it down, then taking a shower. During those times it seemed so odd to me that I liked to do these kinds of things, but it was enjoyable, so i kept it secret. I also remember when i would play with my plushy tiger, named Spot, at night. I would make him a hammock, and dream stories about him or me. I think i was kind of an odd child, mostly because I became very quiet, i spent a lot of time in my fantasy, and my parents would ask me about what i was thinking, to which i would respond, "Nothing much." I wonder sometimes if part of my comfort zone of Ab/Dl'sm was developed also because I did have a moment in life when I would want to say so much, but I always felt like i was getting interrupted by my sister.

Once puberty hit, the desire went wild. I feel odd saying this, but i'm sure that others can relate, but my wet dreams included diapers. You can't control much about what comes into your dreams, so this indicates to me that diapers had just become a huge point in my life. The first diaper i actually got to wear was a small one that I took off of a Flower Sack kid, an assignment for a home-ech class where you have to carry a fake baby around for a week to get an idea what it is like.
I am very hesitant to say this next part, but i guess being truthful is part of acceptance. Since I was the youngest, there were no diapers around my house, I was left deprived and wanting, and being a young teen, I would find diapers that were relatively clean and use those. I am not aware if this has ever been done commonly in our community, as it is unsanitary, but if it is, i am sure it is a hush hush subject.
The entire time, i had thought that i was alone in the world, and that i was some kind of an odd-ball. That all changed when I found a website that had AB/DL stories on it, with a few mild diaper porn pictures. The stories were somewhat innocent, but still sexual, so much of my opinion of this lifestyle was that it was entirely sexual based. This got me started on about seven or eight years of Binge and purge cycles. The entire time, I felt so guilty, and so dirty. However the desires would never go away, no matter how much I pleaded with God, and no matter how much I tried to resist and ignore it. I got caught once and almost caught a few times, but my parents were still not aware of the entire matter. The question in my mind developed, of why couldn't I just keep my lifestyle, but try and work towards the original dream, the innocent aspect, the relaxing state of regression. I deeply wanted to keep this very symbolic part of myself, because I didn't want to lose the individuality I had developed. However the sexual desire that it had developed seemed to attack the innocence of it, by the means of diaper porn, adult women dressed only in diapers, etc. None of it ever did or ever will include child porn. Once I grew old enough to drive, I often took the opportunity to go buy adult diapers that were able to fit me, never though actually finishing a package, because i would then go through a Purge, acting on guilt.
Things became interesting when I came to a time in my life when I had a desire to serve religiously for my church, I felt like i was able to abolish the desire from my heart, but even short times before I left, I had to act on the desire. While gone from home in service of the Lord, it was much easier to keep from the practice, being surrounded constantly by other friends, personal time was at an all time minimum. However the desire still came occasionally, and twice I was given the opportunity to come across clean adult diapers that I wore in private. I spent much time worrying during those two years that when i would get home that I would go wild back into this desire, which worried me deeply.
Once i got home, It struck me hard, the freedom gave me the opportunity to buy diapers, and I did, still not accepting myself as a person, purging what i had bought, and gaining more and more guilt. Wondering why God would answer my other prayers, but this one in particular would not be answered.
Deep inside of me i saw that there was an innocent root to the whole situation, that I was just trying to keep an innocent part of my life alive, but also I saw that a filth was invading it. The last resort I could come up with was to get rid of my plushy, Spot was a very important part of me, and sleeping with him at night was a great comfort, although seeing him also made me think about wearing diapers, so I figured that maybe he was the key. I am a very symbolically based person, and plushy enthusiast will plea plush abuse when I say what came next. I knew if I donated Spot to a second hand store, i would come back looking for him, I also knew that if I threw him away, that I would go look for him before the garbage came, and also in my regressed mind, I couldn't imagine one of my good friends spoiling away in a field of garbage. The only way I could figure on getting rid of him while still in a Purge mood, was to burn Spot, catch him on fire, and grow up. That is still a deep dark part of my life, and even though it was only a object of material, it was a symbol of what i thought of myself. For a very long time I felt self destructive, and angry at myself. It also didn't help that I had an experience not too long ago, where I and a Missionary companion were trying to stop a person from killing himself, while he cut his arm and wrist four times in front of me, using various blades, one being serrated blade bread knife. Each cut he pushed deep hard against his arm. That moment was a permanent scar for me, and while I was 21, thoughts of those things were accompaniment of the discouragement I felt against myself. This is the first time I have ever been able to put these thoughts down on paper, let alone tell anyone about them. The more I reflect on this the more I realize why I have made my final retreat, my childhood was bright, but the discouragement I put against myself has been quite dark, I have always recognized that I have forever been my own worst enemy.
My final retreat was made when I decided again to go online. This time though, rather than finding a community of filth, I found Adisc, a place where people tried to make a lifestyle based on innocence, while accepting the truth that there is also a sexual drive that exists. When I went on to a thread, I read about somebody who was going through a Purge/Binge cycle, I had never heard of this before, but the ultimate suggestion was, to find a middle ground. It made so much sense to me, that I had made a conscious decision that I needed to accept who I was as a person, and make the most of it. Once I moved out of my home, and am now where I am at college, I have made sure that I have diapers with me, so that if i get the urge, or just feel like being in a comfortable mood, I can wear. I bought another Plushy Tiger, whom I have named Tadd, and I haven't slept a night without since i bought him. I bought some footed pajamas, and have never felt more comfortable at night. I do all of these things in private, and as i have kept from a guilty conscious and practiced freely, I have been able to pretty much eliminate the existence of diaper Porn from my life. I have seen the filth of it all progressively disappear. I have realized that accepting myself for who I am was the freedom that I needed, and it has released me from years of guilt and shame. It has sent me on an entirely different path, of rather than worrying what the rest of the world has to say what life is about, and what the economy says is a logical educational route, I am now working towards my dreams. I am in the process of exiting a Mechanical Engineering Degree which I had been doing quite well in at the time, and now am working towards the field of Art Therapy. I have always wanted to find a way that I could use ceramics, being that it is my other hobby of passion, and the revelation came to me that Expressive Art Therapy, a new and developing field, was the route I should go.
I don't think many people will understand the entire drive behind my major, but in reality i'm quite a simple person. If you know that I'm an Ab/Dl/BF, then you know half of me, if you know that I'm in love with ceramics and wheel throwing, then you know the other half of me.

Well I hope that story does something for you, it certainly did for me. Good luck, I hope you can get the right understanding of us, we are each quite different, but we all come together as a community for a specific reason, and that is because we are looking for support and self acceptance in a world that misconstrues and embeds filth, in something that is entirely innocent. For me, It has become something of a tool of relaxing, and forgetting about a world of filth and lies. As for why God never answered those specific prayers, I think that maybe he intended for me to be like this.
 
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Hey, thanks to everyone who has posted on my thread and for the PMs. I'm overwhelmed with all of your honesty and openness. I don't know why but I wasn't really expecting such a warm response, you've made me feel very welcome. I've learnt so much from your frank responses, it will definitely help me with my article.

I've taken up a few people's offer to help via personal messages, and value the information that has been posted on this thread.

I will be writing the article over the next couple of weeks, so I'd be happy to make it available when I'm done. Finally, just thanks again to everyone who replied!

By the way, just to clear things up, I am a girl :)
 

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Hey, thanks to everyone who has posted on my thread and for the PMs. I'm overwhelmed with all of your honesty and openness. I don't know why but I wasn't really expecting such a warm response, you've made me feel very welcome. I've learnt so much from your frank responses, it will definitely help me with my article.

I've taken up a few people's offer to help via personal messages, and value the information that has been posted on this thread.

I will be writing the article over the next couple of weeks, so I'd be happy to make it available when I'm done. Finally, just thanks again to everyone who replied!

By the way, just to clear things up, I am a girl :)

Lol, my bad :), well you sound like a girl i cant trust. Well i'm certainly interested to hear what your article has to say when you are done.
 

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By the way, just to clear things up, I am a girl :)

Oh dear, you've just chummed the waters in a shark tank. If you think you've had some great outpouring of PM's before, get ready of an avalanche.

A girl that seems understanding and curious about what many guys feel more vulnerable about than anything else in their lives.

:sadno: This could change the direction of your understanding, but I hope not.


I can say that I am a relatively confident person, but this part of my like has befuddled me as long as I have been able to self analyze. Some here are much more accepting of themselves than I, some fool themselves into believing they are accepting and torture themselves in the process, and others are open and honest enough to admit that they crave acceptance.

Then we have some like starved, crazed, wild dogs sniff the wind and charge toward and attack any opportunity, no matter how slim, that they will find someone to accept and nurture them.
 
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I would think that just by reading the various posts which pertain to TB/AB and diapers would gain you a lot of insight. We are an honest group, and a support group. We have members as young as 13, and older members such as myself. Most of us have bared our souls on a number of occasions and it's all here on this blog site.
 

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I agree with Dogboy. It's important to realize that we are normal people who happen to *B/DL's, not the other way around. There are some strange *B/DL's, but then again there are strange people in every aspect of life. Don't get too caught up in labeling your studies as simply 'Diaper Lovers' or the sort. Always remember this is just a strange part of our lives, which, to us, feels just as natural as falling in love.
 
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