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It’s taken me a long time to finally post something. So here goes. A little background about me. I am a 42 year old male who is happily married, father to a teenage daughter, and has a great career as a EMS provider. I wouldn’t classify myself not so much as a little but have truly become more of a diaper lover as I’ve been in and out of diapers since I was 14, either by choice or for medical reasons. When I was 14 I randomly started setting the bed and would take baby diapers and pull-ups from my younger siblings to prevent cleanup and hide if from my parents. That was until my siblings all grew out of diapers. I was classified as lazy and disgusting once I was caught wetting the bed. I was sent to numerous doctors who all said the same. Oh he will grow out of it. The only problem is, I didn’t. My previous wife (my daughter’s mother) had a bed wetting issue. So I introduced her to diapers for sanitary reasons. Initially it was great and we had a lot of fun with it but the glamour wore off and she refused to wear and chastised me for wanting to wear them. Again I was labeled gross and weird.

I never really had daytime issues and was mostly dry at night until about 4 years ago. I was working a 24 hour shift on an ambulance and while asleep I wet the bed. I was horrified. I now had to clean the bed that is shared with 2 other shifts and hide my wet clothes. (I always had a spare uniform with me on shift. You never know what kind of bodily fluids you can get on your clothes during a medical emergency.) My current wife was made aware of my issues early in our relationship and was accepting. We even had diapers at home in case I found the need to wear or have been drinking. After that incident it work the very next night I wet the bed at home. So I started wear diapers again at night. Mattresses aren’t very cheap. I made an appointment with my primary care and was referred to a urologist. The urologist did all these different tests and couldn’t find out why I was leaking. She ended up prescribing me with an OAB med to try and limit urine production at night. As for work I immediately put in for a position in the office setting and was awarded a 911 dispatch shift at nights.

So for the past year I’ve been diapered at night where ever I sleep. It wasn’t so bad until about 6 months ago when while doing CPR on a patient I completely wet myself in the ER. Everyone was so apologetic but meanwhile I was completely embarrassed. To make matters worse I was brought a pair of paper pants and a pull-up to wear by the ER staff, “Just in case.” When I got home from my shift I went to take my pull-up off and noticed it was quite wet and didn’t recall actually using it. I wrote it off as maybe I forgot and just peed it. So I changed out of my uniform and into regular clothes. While sitting on the couch watching tv my wife came in and told said, “Uh honey, You’re wet.” I reached down and sure enough I was soaked along with the couch. I went to the bathroom to change and was provided a diaper and sweatpants by my wife. I love this woman. She is so accepting of me and wouldn’t know what to do without her. Anyways.

I fought for months to keep from wearing during the day and would have frequent accidents. She wouldn’t say anything but I could tell she was getting frustrated. I didn’t want to wear a diaper all day at 42 years old. Then one night when working I completely wet myself while in dispatch. Being that our dispatch center is recorded I had to break down and tell my director about my accident. She was also very supportive and offered any help she could. Another referral to the urologist ended in a different test and different specialist. This time a urodynamic test was completed and during the test I started leaking at approx 68.2mls. This is way lower than the typical capacity of an adult of 2-400mls. As he couldn’t see any reason why I was still leaking. He thinks it was a birth defect and my bladder has atrophied so much that I’ve outgrown it. During an IV dye test and MRI he also noticed my sphincters don’t operate properly. I was given a diagnosis of Urinary Incontinence secondary to Bladder Atrophy and Intrinsic Sphincter Deficiency.

I am having a hard time accepting this especially with my career as I still work on ambulance from time to time and am a active volunteer firefighter for my community. Just know that each and everyone that I follow helps me accept this a little more. It makes me happy that at least there are people out there who enjoy diapers and help try to normalize something that is so taboo. Thank you each and everyone of you.
 
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Hello and welcome, plenty of supportive people and loads of advice here!
 
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Hi. Welcome!
Great intro.
 
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Hello and welcome! 😊
You will get loads of genuine support here !
It's great to understand you are not alone with the need/desire for diapers .
I am sure you will enjoy the site and find us helpful 😀..
It's also a place for fun ! Daft little threads and jokes in abundance, a nice little 'time out' with a colourful bunch of people, all with one thing in common.
Enjoy ADISC 😉
 
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Welcome to the forums

Although I haven't been through as many embarrassing situations as you have I can understand to some degree. For me I've worn to the point that my bladder has been questionable at times and if I wasn't wearing it would be bad and result in situations similar to yours. With CPR I can understand with how intense it can get at times why that could happen, I wear diapers about 90% of the time on duty/on calls so I haven't really paid attention to whether that happened specifically or not during CPR. However I have come off calls and while taking my turnouts off I'm soaking everywhere from sweat except an where my diaper is because it was all absorbed and is now much thicker. I've been lucky enough to be able to hide it from my department for the most part. The one time it was kind of noticed was when my chief saw how warm I was down there on the TIC when it was about 20 degrees outside and I apparently let my bladder slip a bit moments before. He just made a joke about me being on fire down there and everyone just shrugged it off.

Spare uniforms and plastic pants have been a savior on more than one occasion for me, something I definitely keep in my bag. I wear InControl premium night diapers in black under my uniform so even if something happens it's black and less noticeable as it is closer to the uniform and also a discreet color/design. They are thicker than many would choose but I usually hide it pretty well. I prefer them over other designs/brands as you never know how long you'll be out unable to change once you get out the door. If you ever need advice or have questions about anything as we both work in similar fields my messages are open.
 
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diaperedEMT said:
It’s taken me a long time to finally post something. So here goes. A little background about me. I am a 42 year old male who is happily married, father to a teenage daughter, and has a great career as a EMS provider. I wouldn’t classify myself not so much as a little but have truly become more of a diaper lover as I’ve been in and out of diapers since I was 14, either by choice or for medical reasons. When I was 14 I randomly started setting the bed and would take baby diapers and pull-ups from my younger siblings to prevent cleanup and hide if from my parents. That was until my siblings all grew out of diapers. I was classified as lazy and disgusting once I was caught wetting the bed. I was sent to numerous doctors who all said the same. Oh he will grow out of it. The only problem is, I didn’t. My previous wife (my daughter’s mother) had a bed wetting issue. So I introduced her to diapers for sanitary reasons. Initially it was great and we had a lot of fun with it but the glamour wore off and she refused to wear and chastised me for wanting to wear them. Again I was labeled gross and weird.

I never really had daytime issues and was mostly dry at night until about 4 years ago. I was working a 24 hour shift on an ambulance and while asleep I wet the bed. I was horrified. I now had to clean the bed that is shared with 2 other shifts and hide my wet clothes. (I always had a spare uniform with me on shift. You never know what kind of bodily fluids you can get on your clothes during a medical emergency.) My current wife was made aware of my issues early in our relationship and was accepting. We even had diapers at home in case I found the need to wear or have been drinking. After that incident it work the very next night I wet the bed at home. So I started wear diapers again at night. Mattresses aren’t very cheap. I made an appointment with my primary care and was referred to a urologist. The urologist did all these different tests and couldn’t find out why I was leaking. She ended up prescribing me with an OAB med to try and limit urine production at night. As for work I immediately put in for a position in the office setting and was awarded a 911 dispatch shift at nights.

So for the past year I’ve been diapered at night where ever I sleep. It wasn’t so bad until about 6 months ago when while doing CPR on a patient I completely wet myself in the ER. Everyone was so apologetic but meanwhile I was completely embarrassed. To make matters worse I was brought a pair of paper pants and a pull-up to wear by the ER staff, “Just in case.” When I got home from my shift I went to take my pull-up off and noticed it was quite wet and didn’t recall actually using it. I wrote it off as maybe I forgot and just peed it. So I changed out of my uniform and into regular clothes. While sitting on the couch watching tv my wife came in and told said, “Uh honey, You’re wet.” I reached down and sure enough I was soaked along with the couch. I went to the bathroom to change and was provided a diaper and sweatpants by my wife. I love this woman. She is so accepting of me and wouldn’t know what to do without her. Anyways.

I fought for months to keep from wearing during the day and would have frequent accidents. She wouldn’t say anything but I could tell she was getting frustrated. I didn’t want to wear a diaper all day at 42 years old. Then one night when working I completely wet myself while in dispatch. Being that our dispatch center is recorded I had to break down and tell my director about my accident. She was also very supportive and offered any help she could. Another referral to the urologist ended in a different test and different specialist. This time a urodynamic test was completed and during the test I started leaking at approx 68.2mls. This is way lower than the typical capacity of an adult of 2-400mls. As he couldn’t see any reason why I was still leaking. He thinks it was a birth defect and my bladder has atrophied so much that I’ve outgrown it. During an IV dye test and MRI he also noticed my sphincters don’t operate properly. I was given a diagnosis of Urinary Incontinence secondary to Bladder Atrophy and Intrinsic Sphincter Deficiency.

I am having a hard time accepting this especially with my career as I still work on ambulance from time to time and am an active volunteer firefighter for my community. Just know that each and everyone that I follow helps me accept this a little more. It makes me happy that at least there are people out there who enjoy diapers and help try to normalize something that is so taboo. Thank you each and everyone of you.
Hello and welcome here, sorry to read of your problems, it’s so good that people around you have seen supportive. As others have already said, you’ll get loads of support here too, hope you have some fun with us as well 😁👍🏻
 
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Secretlyme said:
Welcome to the forums

Although I haven't been through as many embarrassing situations as you have I can understand to some degree. For me I've worn to the point that my bladder has been questionable at times and if I wasn't wearing it would be bad and result in situations similar to yours. With CPR I can understand with how intense it can get at times why that could happen, I wear diapers about 90% of the time on duty/on calls so I haven't really paid attention to whether that happened specifically or not during CPR. However I have come off calls and while taking my turnouts off I'm soaking everywhere from sweat except an where my diaper is because it was all absorbed and is now much thicker. I've been lucky enough to be able to hide it from my department for the most part. The one time it was kind of noticed was when my chief saw how warm I was down there on the TIC when it was about 20 degrees outside and I apparently let my bladder slip a bit moments before. He just made a joke about me being on fire down there and everyone just shrugged it off.

Spare uniforms and plastic pants have been a savior on more than one occasion for me, something I definitely keep in my bag. I wear InControl premium night diapers in black under my uniform so even if something happens it's black and less noticeable as it is closer to the uniform and also a discreet color/design. They are thicker than many would choose but I usually hide it pretty well. I prefer them over other designs/brands as you never know how long you'll be out unable to change once you get out the door. If you ever need advice or have questions about anything as we both work in similar fields my messages are open.
I appreciate it. This has definitely effected my call volume on the fire side. Kinda scared to go into a structure fire wearing a diaper. I know you can’t see them especially when wearing my turnouts but I’m not sure how they will hold up in an actual burner. Running EMS isn’t that bad because I can wear a little bigger clothes. But when run volume is heavy getting somewhere to change privately can be cumbersome. I did buy a black onesie or shirt that snaps in the crotch. That thing has been a lifesaver especially when I’m out and about. I still tend to waddle when I’m wet and my wife definitely has picked up on it.
 
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welcome and thank you for sharing!! And thank you for helping save people's lives! I would never be able to do what you do, and so please know that you are very much appreciated!!
 
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diaperedEMT said:
I appreciate it. This has definitely effected my call volume on the fire side. Kinda scared to go into a structure fire wearing a diaper. I know you can’t see them especially when wearing my turnouts but I’m not sure how they will hold up in an actual burner. Running EMS isn’t that bad because I can wear a little bigger clothes. But when run volume is heavy getting somewhere to change privately can be cumbersome. I did buy a black onesie or shirt that snaps in the crotch. That thing has been a lifesaver especially when I’m out and about. I still tend to waddle when I’m wet and my wife definitely has picked up on it.
Never had an issue directly from it, obviously gets a little warmer and as I'm sure you know some brands of turnout gear like to wear out quickly/burn through at the crotch. The only thing I've had happen is coming out of a fire with it pretty thick from absorbing all my sweat and the times I wore plastic pants they were pretty much soaked inside for the same reason. Obviously you have to be mindful of any poly or synthetic in a fire but I've been without issues so far. My recommendation for if you are concerned, if you have a burn can or somewhere you train that's similar is to wear in there to test. I've never seen a working fire get as hot as in a burn can, and at least then you have a level of control if something doesn't feel right to back out and check or correct any issue. I was in a can so hot my mask went rainbow and started the process of breaking down and the guy in front of me got second degree burns on his knees, and i had some minor surfact burns on my hands through my gloves. Other than being pretty warm down there I had no issues. That being said if I let my butt touch the ground (it was metal) I could see where there may have been an issue, but if I go down I keep my butt on the back of my boot.

As I mentioned in my other post though you of all people know that your gear absorbs heat as well as traps it within. You sweat while wearing your gear, especially if your on a working fire. When im done with a call I keep my turnout pants on as long as possible to help the sweat dissipate a little bit but also give me a chance to take them off away from others. There will be an obvious line where your diaper is that's a lot drier than the rest of the pants so taking a little time to slowly cool as well as getting the time away from everyone else to get it off will help you hide it. Being that your in a volunteer department if you run calls POV it will probably be a little easier to manage. If you run calls on the apparatus then just wear your pants through all clean up and repacking. As far as anyone is concerned you are being extra safe and trying to keep all the (as my chief likes to say) methyl-ethyl-bad shit off of you. Unless you are in a clean cab department that is but since you're volunteer I'm guessing that's definitely not the case.
 
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Never had an issue directly from it, obviously gets a little warmer and as I'm sure you know some brands of turnout gear like to wear out quickly/burn through at the crotch. The only thing I've had happen is coming out of a fire with it pretty thick from absorbing all my sweat and the times I wore plastic pants they were pretty much soaked inside for the same reason. Obviously you have to be mindful of any poly or synthetic in a fire but I've been without issues so far. My recommendation for if you are concerned, if you have a burn can or somewhere you train that's similar is to wear in there to test. I've never seen a working fire get as hot as in a burn can, and at least then you have a level of control if something doesn't feel right to back out and check or correct any issue. I was in a can so hot my mask went rainbow and started the process of breaking down and the guy in front of me got second degree burns on his knees, and i had some minor surfact burns on my hands through my gloves. Other than being pretty warm down there I had no issues. That being said if I let my butt touch the ground (it was metal) I could see where there may have been an issue, but if I go down I keep my butt on the back of my boot.

As I mentioned in my other post though you of all people know that your gear absorbs heat as well as traps it within. You sweat while wearing your gear, especially if your on a working fire. When im done with a call I keep my turnout pants on as long as possible to help the sweat dissipate a little bit but also give me a chance to take them off away from others. There will be an obvious line where your diaper is that's a lot drier than the rest of the pants so taking a little time to slowly cool as well as getting the time away from everyone else to get it off will help you hide it. Being that your in a volunteer department if you run calls POV it will probably be a little easier to manage. If you run calls on the apparatus then just wear your pants through all clean up and repacking. As far as anyone is concerned you are being extra safe and trying to keep all the (as my chief likes to say) methyl-ethyl-bad shit off of you. Unless you are in a clean cab department that is but since you're volunteer I'm guessing that's definitely not the case.
Most time we respond to the station and grab an apparatus. We are allowed to have emergency lights in our POV as long as the vehicle is inspected and approved by the state. Obviously what equipment we take depends on what we are running on. Our first due is usually our Engine and then rescue for either structure fires or anything on the pike. Afterward we usually hose off before getting back on the truck. Keyword is usually. We are slowly implementing more decon in our routine as the younger generations start to take more officer positions. Now out at my part-time department we are not allowed to have any gear out of the bay. We can not access the gear room from the dayroom or any common areas.

At first if I had an accident it was far in between so I never wore anything. However as things got progressively worse one little accident every now and then turned into multiple accidents daily with little or no warning. Like I said in my intro I had wet the bed through my teenage years and on and off throughout my life as an adult but this was either due to alcohol consumption or exhaustion. It just was very sparse as an adult. Until about 3 maybe 4 years ago during medic school I wet the bed once and it never stopped. I wrote it off as stress due to medic school. You know how hectic those classes can be. Then the daytime issues began. I had control for a while but could notice my capacity was dwindling and I was getting horrific urges with little voiding. I caught COVID a year ago and I couldn't hold anything. So for 3 solid weeks I was 24/7 in a diaper. I just couldn't make it to the bathroom in time. After a couple pretty embarrassing accidents at work I had had enough.So during my yearly wellness exam I mentioned it to my NP and we both blamed the frequent hard coughing from the 'Rona. She then told me to protect myself and if it didn't stop when the coughing stopped to come back and get a referral. I had seen a urologist before and no testing was ever done. The docs always said it was either hormones or body was out growing my bladder and it would catch up eventually. Unfortunately for me it never did and my last visit to my new urologist confirmed that with actual tests. Being a medical professional I am very intrigued by the human body and think of it as a machine. Sometimes machine are broken and can be fixed. Other times they are just defective. I still plan to do yearly exams with my urologist along with my PCP as recommended but other than a long term indwelling catheter we couldn't find any fix, short term or long. I've tried many medications that worked at first but after a while it would stop and the bedwetting would come back. I've changed a lot of things about myself to see if it helps. I eat better, exercise more, and have lost quite a bit of excess weight. Honestly, I am the healthiest I have been in years. I just don't want to give up my career and mobility by using an indwelling cath. I like running calls on the box and putting the wet stuff on the red stuff. I just have to accept things, be strong, and evolve. My plastic underwear doesn't change who I am. Honestly the more I think about it, it has changed my view in many ways especially as a clinician. You never know how someone that suffers with these issues feel until you deal with it yourself.
 
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diaperedEMT said:
It’s taken me a long time to finally post something. So here goes. A little background about me. I am a 42 year old male who is happily married, father to a teenage daughter, and has a great career as a EMS provider. I wouldn’t classify myself not so much as a little but have truly become more of a diaper lover as I’ve been in and out of diapers since I was 14, either by choice or for medical reasons. When I was 14 I randomly started setting the bed and would take baby diapers and pull-ups from my younger siblings to prevent cleanup and hide if from my parents. That was until my siblings all grew out of diapers. I was classified as lazy and disgusting once I was caught wetting the bed. I was sent to numerous doctors who all said the same. Oh he will grow out of it. The only problem is, I didn’t. My previous wife (my daughter’s mother) had a bed wetting issue. So I introduced her to diapers for sanitary reasons. Initially it was great and we had a lot of fun with it but the glamour wore off and she refused to wear and chastised me for wanting to wear them. Again I was labeled gross and weird.

I never really had daytime issues and was mostly dry at night until about 4 years ago. I was working a 24 hour shift on an ambulance and while asleep I wet the bed. I was horrified. I now had to clean the bed that is shared with 2 other shifts and hide my wet clothes. (I always had a spare uniform with me on shift. You never know what kind of bodily fluids you can get on your clothes during a medical emergency.) My current wife was made aware of my issues early in our relationship and was accepting. We even had diapers at home in case I found the need to wear or have been drinking. After that incident it work the very next night I wet the bed at home. So I started wear diapers again at night. Mattresses aren’t very cheap. I made an appointment with my primary care and was referred to a urologist. The urologist did all these different tests and couldn’t find out why I was leaking. She ended up prescribing me with an OAB med to try and limit urine production at night. As for work I immediately put in for a position in the office setting and was awarded a 911 dispatch shift at nights.

So for the past year I’ve been diapered at night where ever I sleep. It wasn’t so bad until about 6 months ago when while doing CPR on a patient I completely wet myself in the ER. Everyone was so apologetic but meanwhile I was completely embarrassed. To make matters worse I was brought a pair of paper pants and a pull-up to wear by the ER staff, “Just in case.” When I got home from my shift I went to take my pull-up off and noticed it was quite wet and didn’t recall actually using it. I wrote it off as maybe I forgot and just peed it. So I changed out of my uniform and into regular clothes. While sitting on the couch watching tv my wife came in and told said, “Uh honey, You’re wet.” I reached down and sure enough I was soaked along with the couch. I went to the bathroom to change and was provided a diaper and sweatpants by my wife. I love this woman. She is so accepting of me and wouldn’t know what to do without her. Anyways.

I fought for months to keep from wearing during the day and would have frequent accidents. She wouldn’t say anything but I could tell she was getting frustrated. I didn’t want to wear a diaper all day at 42 years old. Then one night when working I completely wet myself while in dispatch. Being that our dispatch center is recorded I had to break down and tell my director about my accident. She was also very supportive and offered any help she could. Another referral to the urologist ended in a different test and different specialist. This time a urodynamic test was completed and during the test I started leaking at approx 68.2mls. This is way lower than the typical capacity of an adult of 2-400mls. As he couldn’t see any reason why I was still leaking. He thinks it was a birth defect and my bladder has atrophied so much that I’ve outgrown it. During an IV dye test and MRI he also noticed my sphincters don’t operate properly. I was given a diagnosis of Urinary Incontinence secondary to Bladder Atrophy and Intrinsic Sphincter Deficiency.

I am having a hard time accepting this especially with my career as I still work on ambulance from time to time and am a active volunteer firefighter for my community. Just know that each and every one that I follow helps me accept this a little more. It makes me happy that at least there are people out there who enjoy diapers and help try to normalize something that is so taboo. Thank you each and everyone of you.
Hello and welcome, yes we understand as we all have our stories. Mine started daily wearing 24/7 4 months ago now.. wife is becoming more and more accepting as I have become totally wearing protection about.
 
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