Ok, you're curious to know what us guilty ones are guilty about so I'll tell you what I'm guilty about (I can't speak for the others but it may be the same with them). Please everyone, I've said all this in the irc once and it started a big debate so if you find any of this offensive or if you think it's complete bullshit please don't jump on me because I can't help the way I feel. I feel deep down that being gay is wrong, even though I know it's not. I hate it and if I had any shoice I'd be straight. I don't like the idea of living my life as narure didn't intend (exit holes are meant to be exit holes only). I spen my whole teenage years (at least since I was 14) not happy about being gay, wanting to be normal and hav a girlfriend like everyone else was. I tried being straight but I couldn't. It screwed with my head really bad. I don't look forward to a life that is not tolerated buy most of society, like it or not it's not going to be accepted and tolerated by the whole worl, ever. I will never be able to have a Wife, get married (or at least have a normal wedding), I will never have kids. I miss out on all of that and I want it. Telling my parents was hard enough, I only did it recently, by accident when I was drunk and blurted it out. Both paren'ts were fairly accepting, but I still don't like it that they know now. They will never think of me the same again. My sister has known for alot longer than my parents, and she is very accepting of it, but she looks at me differently now too, I can see it. I'm not like them, I'm different, I'm not normal. And the gay sex thing, oh I don't think I should even start about that. I'll doo all these sick acts and tell myself it's ok, but it's NOT ok, it's not right. It makes me sick.
I won't go on any further, I said too much there already n I'm gonna get flamed for posting it