I mean i feel guilt because i feel weird after doing it. I judge people a lot (it’s a bad quality i have) and I feel like i’m hypocritical for wearing diapers and idk.Honestly, sounds like a fairly classic Binge/Purge cycle. There's nothing inherently wrong with that; like many, many things good and bad are going to be situational and relative. The questions you should be asking yourself are: is this negatively impacting my life? And why are you feeling guilt? It's not always easy to figure out the answers to those questions, but those answers should form the foundation of what you do next.
As a general rule, though, most people around here would argue that ABDL activities by and large aren't harmful and in many cases prove beneficial.
i like thatThis is perfectly normal, but you don't need to go through this kind of cycle. There's no reason to be ashamed of the kind of underwear you like to wear. It took me a long time to get off that rollercoaster too, but now I'm perfectly ok with the fact that sometimes I just want to wear a diaper and sometimes I don't. There's lots of other things that you like sometimes and not others and that's ok - being unnecessarily hard of yourself is what is actually bad. Look at yourself in the mirror and tell yourself out loud that you like diapers, and tell yourself that it is ok!
Thanks!!This is normal and something that most of us can relate to. whilst I've never thrown my nappies away i have dumped other stuff.
There are 2 factors at play here.
1, your NEED to be an ab and to have that security and possibly love if you have a supportive partner that you missed out on (that;s simplified there can be many reasons people become an ab).
2, Your conditioning as a child. "Big boys/girls use the toilet, only babies need nappies" - "James is 6 months younget than you and he's already in big boy pants" etc etc. So your adult subconscious is telling you all the same things and that wearing nappies is wrong and somehow sinful (in some cases). But whatever you do the need or urge to wear will get stronger until you go out and buy all the things you've thrown away. If you don't that baby inside you will start to cause problems that can impinge to a greater or lesser degree on your adult world.