gona be a loooooooong night

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Im deppressed....because of
  • random deppression
  • evidently i "irritated" my girlfriend and she wont call to say goodnight
  • I feel so fat and disgusting
  • I wasted $20 on an art project that turned out to be crap
  • My insomnia meds make me vomit so I'll be up intill 2 a.m

i know i know...life can be worse
but im just in such a shit mood tonight

i dont know weather to take my meds or not...i know ill be feeling sick in the morning if i take them but it might be good just to be nocked out. Part of me is angry that i need them. Angry that i need a crutch. I hate psych drugs. I never believed in them. Im starting to give in to my doctors but i must abstain again. They have been nocking me out to the point i cant wake w/o 10 hours of sleep...but if i dont take them im only able to get a few hours of sleep.... im not sure what to do
 

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Sounds like quite a dilemma. I don't really have advice, since I haven't really experienced those problems, but just keep a stiff upper lip. Just think positive, and try talking with someone. Talking can definitely help. Pojo is here :3
 
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Sounds like quite a dilemma. I don't really have advice, since I haven't really experienced those problems, but just keep a stiff upper lip. Just think positive, and try talking with someone. Talking can definitely help. Pojo is here :3

thank ya :]
 

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Im deppressed....because of
  • random deppression
  • evidently i "irritated" my girlfriend and she wont call to say goodnight
  • I feel so fat and disgusting
  • I wasted $20 on an art project that turned out to be crap
  • My insomnia meds make me vomit so I'll be up intill 2 a.m

i know i know...life can be worse
but im just in such a shit mood tonight

i dont know weather to take my meds or not...i know ill be feeling sick in the morning if i take them but it might be good just to be nocked out. Part of me is angry that i need them. Angry that i need a crutch. I hate psych drugs. I never believed in them. Im starting to give in to my doctors but i must abstain again. They have been nocking me out to the point i cant wake w/o 10 hours of sleep...but if i dont take them im only able to get a few hours of sleep.... im not sure what to do

I can identify, to an extent. In my case, I can sometimes choose between guaranteed knock-out sleep followed by feeling sick for a day or so, or probable sleepless night spent in general distress.

I too disagree with psychoactive meds (at least for my own context), but the sleep would be nice... Since the next morning's going to suck either way (sick or sleep deprived), in principal I opt for the sleep deprivation. There's the moral advantage, of course, plus the social advantage (ragged due to lack of sleep vs. drugs).

What I try to do these days is make the most of the time I have conscious. Granted, if I'm conscious late late at night, it's because I'm rather upset, and am hard set for promising alternative activities. Best thing for me has been funny movies or public television. ADISC would be another option.

Best of luck, CuriosityKitten. I hope you find sleep, or failing that, some good rest and a better tomorrow.
 

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I'm sorry to hear that, buddy :(
I can seriously relate; depression sucks! I'm sorry to hear about the art project, too. Can you tell me what it was? :)
 
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wana see a picture?
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I don't see how it's really messed up; I think it's pretty good. c:
What was it for, an anniversary? A wedding?
 
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and now my gf just hung up on me...fabulous!

i have a bit of an issue w/ throwing up my food
and all of this holiday leftovers didnt help so....ya shit happens
its not like i do it every day! just once a week

there was no blood this time :] im very thankfull
but now i got no voice D:
 
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