Recently my wife of 30+ years discovered some of my baby things. I have been increasing my baby behaviors in the last 2 years because I retired and my wife was still working. My wife is planning on retiring soon. I told her I would go to a counselor. I would like to keep the door open for me to continue my abdl habit, but do not know if that is realistic given that I have hidden this habit for all of our marriage. Until the last 2 years, my diaper fetish was merely a way to satisfy myself sexually when my wife did not want to have sex. After retirement, my diaper fetish has grown into a more time consuming and frequent habit which I have to admit is interfering with my sex life with my wife. So now I fell like perhaps I should give it up, but would like to consider the possibility of continuing my abdl habits with my wife's consent.