I don't mess my diaper very often, maybe once every two to three weeks but I do really enjoy it when I do. I always feel its about the naughtiest thing I do and feel somewhat ashamed or embarrassed when I ask my wife if its OK for me to go pooh-pooh in my diapers. I have a hard time looking at her when I get the urge to ask her permission and if she says yes, I get very quiet and go somewhere where I she can't see me making my mess. After I finish messing my diaper I like to stay in them for a few hours and enjoy the messy poop as it moves around my bottom and squishes when I sit or lean over. My wife will check on me now and then, and ask me if I've had enough and am ready to be changed.