Angelic
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Some days I can't function as an adult, on those days I end up not changing myself, not making sure I drink enough and I don't clean up.
I had a bad day today and the adult world suddenly felt too much for me, so I just played kiddie games on my iPad and didn't even relised I needed changing and only had 2 drinks today!
I ended up crying and hugging my pillow after I relised I wasn't looking after myself like I usually can! It's like I regressed deeply into young age because I was stressed. I badly want somebody to care for me but 70% of the time I can do it myself, also I find when I get like that, for example I want my paci, but instead of getting it sometimes my brain doesn't register so I end up sitting there waiting for it, like I was waiting for somebody to get me a drink even though I didn't say I wanted one. You know how mommies and daddies get you one when you are little.
Now I do not expect my dad or his girlfriend to change me, give me a sippie or paci or play with me nor do I want that, but if only I had a caregiver that could remind me to get a drink for when I am deeply in little space. Most of the time in little space i can just fill up my sippie, but I am not sure if I am fully little and i don,t expect myself to get one because I feel at that moment that i am truest a toddler. I would not normally want everybody doing everything for me as I would feel lazy and that I was a burden.
This is how it happened, I was chatting to my dad who made me lunch, we were talking about my mom who had died from pneumonia in hospital and how it was a year that she was admitted as she had died in July time. I said to my dad that I didn,t want to keep going over the past and I wanted badly to move on but I had my mind how she was my mother and I grew up with her and how I was in her womb for nine months so she would of been the first person I knew because she's was carrying me for nine months before anybody else got to carry me as a baby.
Anyway enough of that! Dad asked me to wash the pots and help him, fo rsome reason I really didn,t what to do but I did it anyway, I think I was stressed out from talking about mom as this was after lunch. So after we were done I retreated to my room and watched Simpsons an der rugrats and i got a call from my nana, so I talked about me volunteering at a charity shop and afterwards I just played games on my iPad, time passed and i needed a drink and a snack but I half expected somebody to get me one as i must of regressed to a big degree, after dad asked me to look after the dog so I did and wet my diaper only to find I leaked! I did NOT relise I needed changing at all so I started crying and changed and hugged my pillow and felt much better.
I had a few moments like that before and I am not sure what my triggers are but it's hard work and inconvient when you have I caregiver who understands, no I feel lazy!
Please don,t flame me for posting this or say it's BS because it's not! I wouldn't,t post anything that was BS! Anybody experience this or I am tapped out in the head?
I had a bad day today and the adult world suddenly felt too much for me, so I just played kiddie games on my iPad and didn't even relised I needed changing and only had 2 drinks today!
I ended up crying and hugging my pillow after I relised I wasn't looking after myself like I usually can! It's like I regressed deeply into young age because I was stressed. I badly want somebody to care for me but 70% of the time I can do it myself, also I find when I get like that, for example I want my paci, but instead of getting it sometimes my brain doesn't register so I end up sitting there waiting for it, like I was waiting for somebody to get me a drink even though I didn't say I wanted one. You know how mommies and daddies get you one when you are little.
Now I do not expect my dad or his girlfriend to change me, give me a sippie or paci or play with me nor do I want that, but if only I had a caregiver that could remind me to get a drink for when I am deeply in little space. Most of the time in little space i can just fill up my sippie, but I am not sure if I am fully little and i don,t expect myself to get one because I feel at that moment that i am truest a toddler. I would not normally want everybody doing everything for me as I would feel lazy and that I was a burden.
This is how it happened, I was chatting to my dad who made me lunch, we were talking about my mom who had died from pneumonia in hospital and how it was a year that she was admitted as she had died in July time. I said to my dad that I didn,t want to keep going over the past and I wanted badly to move on but I had my mind how she was my mother and I grew up with her and how I was in her womb for nine months so she would of been the first person I knew because she's was carrying me for nine months before anybody else got to carry me as a baby.
Anyway enough of that! Dad asked me to wash the pots and help him, fo rsome reason I really didn,t what to do but I did it anyway, I think I was stressed out from talking about mom as this was after lunch. So after we were done I retreated to my room and watched Simpsons an der rugrats and i got a call from my nana, so I talked about me volunteering at a charity shop and afterwards I just played games on my iPad, time passed and i needed a drink and a snack but I half expected somebody to get me one as i must of regressed to a big degree, after dad asked me to look after the dog so I did and wet my diaper only to find I leaked! I did NOT relise I needed changing at all so I started crying and changed and hugged my pillow and felt much better.
I had a few moments like that before and I am not sure what my triggers are but it's hard work and inconvient when you have I caregiver who understands, no I feel lazy!
Please don,t flame me for posting this or say it's BS because it's not! I wouldn't,t post anything that was BS! Anybody experience this or I am tapped out in the head?