Busted

[Alpha]

Alright you guys caught me, I've been a lurker for a little while..however I can explain.

I found this site a while back while searching for more DL usage comments/reviews. After some digging I did get what I wanted to know, however I started to read more and more on the forums (reason for that soon) until one night I fell asleep while reading and the next day awoke and attempted to log back on and found that I was branded as a lurker (i guess the logged in for X amount of hours straight did it). My greatest apologizes, however in hindsight it was deserved because i actually was lurking.

What made me read more and more into the forums was well honestly my girlfriend for almost a year (was one week away from it to be exact) broke up with me. When she brought it all down on me I was broken. There was a lot more drama into it, but basically she dropped the bomb, and told me she was meeting this co-worker that she thought was pretty cool/nice/(whatever else you want to call it) at the park. Of course I was shattered and she left me in the parking lot just standing there...and shortly after sitting. She knew everything about me, including my DL-ism so it hurt all the more.

I started coming on here more often and reading, it helped me cope by a good amount. She was the only person I ever talked to about it, and she understood it and heck she even became a part of it (as a partner par-taker). And finding a place of people that openly talked about it, and reading the conversations eased my mind. And of course made me over all feel more confident about the whole thing (I've been a DL for about 6 years now, but I've been keeping it totally to myself except for a very select group of people, and none online).

That's my present life, again my apologizes for lurking for so long. If nothing else, maybe some of you can sympathize...I really wasn't feeling the urge to reach out to anyone for quite a while (and quite frankly I am somewhat nervous to even do this :sweatdrop.

 

[clevermoose02]

Awwww im sorry for you :sad: I hope you feel better soon. Well, welcome to the community, and dont feel nervous, we share the same feelings as you. And I dont know what i would do if my boyfriend broke up with me, we have been going out for a year and he doesnt know about me being a DL, so it had to have been worse for you. Hope you feel alright :hug:

 

[Mitsukuni]

Oh, well, I, for one, am glad you posted
You should post more often, silly. It's nice to hear from other people, right? Well, others might like to hear from you, so...
I'm sorry if that didn't make sense. ^__^'
But anyways, Welcome to the Posting of ADISC, and I hope you move up from being a lurker
Oh, and I'm sorry to hear about the girlfriend thing, and I hope that gets better soon, as well n_n

 

[Alpha]

I couldn't stand not telling her...I was stupid and gave a little bit too much of myself into the relation and in the end she didn't respect all the things I did for her. And as I look back to it, a lot of the relationship had a double standard, but I learned a lot from it so if nothing else, that was something to get out of it.

Oh, well, I, for one, am glad you posted
You should post more often, silly. It's nice to hear from other people, right? Well, others might like to hear from you, so...
I'm sorry if that didn't make sense. ^__^'
But anyways, Welcome to the Posting of ADISC, and I hope you move up from being a lurker
Oh, and I'm sorry to hear about the girlfriend thing, and I hope that gets better soon, as well n_n

Sorry for the double post..i hit post then realized I wanted to change it. hit esc and now discovered that it posted the first one..and there isn't a delete post button .

It will be a long time before it does...I can barely stand to be in the same room as her...and we have one last course together before she graduates :wallbash:. I will never understand how she was never bothered by what she did...it never irked her and she has never shown remorse for her actions. Some people will just not make logical sense I guess. :dunno:

I have a feeling that by the time I can even look at her without anguish, it will be a point in time that we (hopefully) will never meet again.

And yes, I hope I get moved up also...I really would like to be able to read all of the board again, and this time to post as well.

 

[Pojo]

Sorry for the double post..i hit post then realized I wanted to change it. hit esc and now discovered that it posted the first one..and there isn't a delete post button .
And yes, I hope I get moved up also...I really would like to be able to read all of the board again, and this time to post as well.

You should be able to delete them through editing it (don't know if lurker can do it, but you might be able to change it when you move up to newbie)


You should be moved up within the hour, I believe

 

[Alpha]

yeah I'm not seeing even edit as an option :sad:. I have a feeling this may become the longest hour

 

[Pojo]

Well if you don't see one to the left of the Quote button, then you are going to have to wait...But if you can't edit them, then a mod will probably come around and merge them for you

 

[Alpha]

Yeah..just see quote and mutli-quote.

oh, I suppose I should mention a few other things about myself aside from this drama...

Interest : Technology (basically computers. I build em, upgrade em, and repair/troubleshoot them)

Favorite TV show to just chill to : Star Trek. I'll watch any of the episodes except some of DS9's (I felt it started coming into a lot of soap opera concepts in that season, with it being a stationary crew. Although some of the Dominion War episodes were pretty...explosive :smile:

Video Games : I'm a pretty big PC Gamer..no I haven't bought Crysis yet (been buying some other things ) I've been playing WoW for about 4 years now on and off but I've got a good number of characters. I'm egerly awaiting Star Trek Online :smile1:

alright, no longer a lurker. Thanks for whoever bumped by account up! :smile:

 

[chevre]

alright, no longer a lurker. Thanks for whoever bumped by account up! :smile:

That would be Moo's cron job Your status is changed automatically by the script. You were a lurker because you hadn't posted in a certain amount of time.

Anyway, welcome to the forum and I too am glad you decided to post.

 

[Alpha]

Cool, that is rather enlightening :educate:

fail to me..just realized i wrote "by" and not "my"..guess I got a little too giddy

 

[dprdinky]

My sympathy for you in what you are going through such a break up. I've wanted to have a mommy to confide in and be part of my life, but the relationship ended 4 months ago. Not because of the diapers, but because of other issues, some hers, some mine.

I feel relieved to be out of that relationship, but dearly miss the opportunity of having a mommy.

 

[bubble_gum]

That sucks man, i sort of know what its like. i had a girlfriend who knew but her family moved away. and dont worry, she probably does feel remorse, might just not be showing it. Most people feel guilty after a break up. so dont feel so bad, and i hope things get better.

 

[Eclipse]

I feel for you crimin, I had a gf that knew too. My highschool sweetheart, just like yours. She stepped on my heart and just up and left after 13 months, without ever calling me or seeing how I was doing. It showed me a different side of girls, that they truely are nothing but selfish and a lot more other dirty words I will not say on here. Do not get down about her though, because like 90% of girls are pretty much useless trash from what I have seen in real life.

Anyways welcome to our community! I hope you enjoy it here!

 

[Alpha]

I feel for you crimin, I had a gf that knew too. My highschool sweetheart, just like yours. She stepped on my heart and just up and left after 13 months, without ever calling me or seeing how I was doing. It showed me a different side of girls, that they truely are nothing but selfish and a lot more other dirty words I will not say on here. Do not get down about her though, because like 90% of girls are pretty much useless trash from what I have seen in real life.

Anyways welcome to our community! I hope you enjoy it here!

Out of curiosity, since her have you ever opened to that extent again? Did you tell her your DL-ism? and if so, any of the others after?

 

[FluffyFluffers]

I feel for you crimin, I had a gf that knew too. My highschool sweetheart, just like yours. She stepped on my heart and just up and left after 13 months, without ever calling me or seeing how I was doing. It showed me a different side of girls, that they truely are nothing but selfish and a lot more other dirty words I will not say on here. Do not get down about her though, because like 90% of girls are pretty much useless trash from what I have seen in real life.

Anyways welcome to our community! I hope you enjoy it here!

Time for you to play for teh penis.

 

[Eclipse]

Out of curiosity, since her have you ever opened to that extent again? Did you tell her your DL-ism? and if so, any of the others after?

I have only had one gf since that lasted less than 2 weeks, (she was pure waste of time), she knew. Also told a close friend that was a girl, but we drifted apart and don't talk anymore.

So yes I have told two girls since then, but I have never even gotten close to serious relationship since then (3 years ago).

Time for you to play for teh penis.

Haha, I wish I could, but I couldn't bring myself to do it, even though I wish I was gay/bi.