- Adult Baby, Diaper Lover, Little
I feel that my anxiety disorder effects enjoying public places with my wife. My wife likes to go out and hold hands, kiss in public, etc. However with my anxiety makes it really hard to show affection in public. She also wants to make me more babyish in public. But that's a huge no no for me. Especially with my anxiety, it would feel like a nightmare. I don't mind if she just wants me to wear a diaper under my clothing as long as I have a long shirt. All though that's also bit nerve racking. I just feel people are staring at me and my heart starts racing even, if their not. Or I worry their making fun of us. Part of me wants to let her do it and take all my worries away. But I quickly switch back my adult mind and I know that kind of life is not realistic. My wife is the opposite of me she's very loud and social. Lots times because of her aspergers she just can't stop talking and really annoys people. I even hear people make nasty comments behind her back. "That girl just wont shut the hell up", or "that girls really weird". I have to pull her away from conversations sometimes because I can tell the person is getting annoyed. I have better sense when people are getting tired or annoyed. So I try help her with this. I'm more antisocial and like to keep affection at home. I do like going hiking and going outside but only if there's not many people around. But if one my neighbors are outside I basically run back inside to avoid talking to them. But I feel like my disorder is hurting our relationship. And feel my wife does have right to want feel a bit loved in public. Sometimes she says she thinks I'm of ashamed her and don't love her. But it's NOT that at all. It's just my stupid anxiety making me like that. I just wish I could get rid that heart racing paralyzing stomach feeling, I get. So I could actually enjoy being with her public, not be such a scaredy cat. Anyone have similar situations? Or have similar feelings with SAD?