Wow, I came back to more wonderful posts, this is awesome! I am 26, an art teacher, and love every minute of it. I play sports, garden, am a housewife (at times), and stay very involved with my community.
As far as diapers go, I've had a fascination since a young age. I can remember taking the little cloth diapers off of my cabbage patch kids when i was little and getting caught with them on! Mom and dad didn't take any drastic measures, but I think deep down inside they were a little worried when they found me with my baby sister's NUk in my mouth. They threatened to take me to town with a Nuk in my mouth and make me keep it in, so I quickly abandoned that idea.
As I got older (prolly about 16) I started noticing when I went down the grocery aisle with the feminine projects that I couldn't help look at the adult diapers! I thought i was totally obvious and was caught right then. But no one else seemed to notice. When I moved away to college, my roommate was up her boyfriend's butt 24/7 so i had the room to myself. I can remember going to Walmart and buying my first diapers (Depends with tapes) and a big birthday bag and card. I told the clerk they were for a gag gift. I couldn't wait to get home and try them. The biggest challenge was throwing them away, so I always snagged extra grocery bags at the store for triple bagging etc. I used more frequently in the following years, and even wore them to my on campus job a coupla times! I still can't believe I did that one and didn't get caught- luckily it was wintertime, so bulky wasn't as noticeable.
After meeting my (now) hubby, I pushed all that to the back of my mind, was afraid he'd think i was a freak of nature. Turns out, he found my log in on another diapersite (saved in the damn history, lol) and my stent was up. He asked about it, I clammed up and it wasn't mentioned again until over a year later. Now he has said he's willing to try and understand, but GOD it's so hard to have that first uncomfortable conversation about this! I just don't know if i can do it. ***Deep breath, I know that was alot of info*** Hopefully I can get some good advice here about where to go from here. I've thought about a letter, but I think that leaves a lot of room for misinterpretation, but i just don't know if I can handle face2face.
, and good luck!
