egor
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It is hard to believe that it has been 10 years I discovered ADISC.
It seems like it was only a few months ago.
I heard about Adult Baby Syndrome and was doing a lot of googling on that subject when I had a chance. I then started looking at plastic pants.
I felt so ashamed and confused.
The thing that had brought it up was a UTI and spastic incontinence that I was going through. It also brought up memories of being Diaper Disciplined for having accidents when I was 4ish I think. I had also not had a binge cycle in over 8 years and EVERYTHING came back with a vengeance.
I was in depression and anxiety group at the time and seeing a good therapist.
I had ordered my first pair of plastic pants and they had arrived about three days earlier.
I was reading several of Bitter Gray Articles and answered the questioners. At the bottom of one article that I was reading the afternoon of 1-30-2013 was a reference to ADISC and I description of the community. I had seen some links to the site but they did not catch my full attention.
I googled the site and logged on. I was so scared, ashamed and full of self loathing and no understanding of parphilic infantilism.
I had an appointment with my therapist the next day and so much wanted to talk to her about it. I rambled on about the incontinence and my childhood and dreams about being in diapers. I finally said "Next time I would like to talk to you about Adult baby syndrome" and she replied "Now don't you feel better getting that off your chest"
After that I spent a lot of time on the site reading articles in the adult baby and diaper forums until I saw the repeat pattern of the questions and discussions (about 300 thread)
'Over time I came to have understanding and acceptance and things leveled off and became better. It was not much longer after I joined that something triggered a crying spell in front of my wife that I can out to her and we had an understanding and set boundaries and communicated about the feelings.
Things have come so far in 10 years. I have made friends, and I have seen people come and go, I have seen long times member leave, and I have seen the dynamics of the site change.
I have always had a major desire to be a moderator and applied several times. My biggest weakness has been my computer skills and with as fast as IT had changed it became obvious the last time there was an opening that I would not be an asset to the team.
The other thing is my kids are growing up and now that they are in high school I am so busy doing things for them at school that I do not take as much time as I use to to be on the site and post on introductions and respond to a lot of threads.
There has been two set backs that I felt "hurt" by and those changes cost around 1000 post each time. I know it is the cost of IT and "doing business" but I just have to get over it. It was nothing personal and I know Moo has only so much server space and things become dead space over time and had to be cleared.
Anyway. It has been a good site and helped me so much. Top contributor came and went, then was dropped all together. Other things have been said and done and I did not get a mention of any kind. I just had to remember "QTIP" and quite taking it personal.
The one thing I have and NO ONE can take it way from me is the MAIN PURPOSE of this site, and that is the 4 PM that I have from other members that simple say "Thank you for the advice and help you gave me. It got me through a very tough time and it is nice to know someone that understands and is will to tell me the truth."
Thank you Moo for ADISC and the people that helped me understand that its ok and I am not alone.
EGOR
It seems like it was only a few months ago.
I heard about Adult Baby Syndrome and was doing a lot of googling on that subject when I had a chance. I then started looking at plastic pants.
I felt so ashamed and confused.
The thing that had brought it up was a UTI and spastic incontinence that I was going through. It also brought up memories of being Diaper Disciplined for having accidents when I was 4ish I think. I had also not had a binge cycle in over 8 years and EVERYTHING came back with a vengeance.
I was in depression and anxiety group at the time and seeing a good therapist.
I had ordered my first pair of plastic pants and they had arrived about three days earlier.
I was reading several of Bitter Gray Articles and answered the questioners. At the bottom of one article that I was reading the afternoon of 1-30-2013 was a reference to ADISC and I description of the community. I had seen some links to the site but they did not catch my full attention.
I googled the site and logged on. I was so scared, ashamed and full of self loathing and no understanding of parphilic infantilism.
I had an appointment with my therapist the next day and so much wanted to talk to her about it. I rambled on about the incontinence and my childhood and dreams about being in diapers. I finally said "Next time I would like to talk to you about Adult baby syndrome" and she replied "Now don't you feel better getting that off your chest"
After that I spent a lot of time on the site reading articles in the adult baby and diaper forums until I saw the repeat pattern of the questions and discussions (about 300 thread)
'Over time I came to have understanding and acceptance and things leveled off and became better. It was not much longer after I joined that something triggered a crying spell in front of my wife that I can out to her and we had an understanding and set boundaries and communicated about the feelings.
Things have come so far in 10 years. I have made friends, and I have seen people come and go, I have seen long times member leave, and I have seen the dynamics of the site change.
I have always had a major desire to be a moderator and applied several times. My biggest weakness has been my computer skills and with as fast as IT had changed it became obvious the last time there was an opening that I would not be an asset to the team.
The other thing is my kids are growing up and now that they are in high school I am so busy doing things for them at school that I do not take as much time as I use to to be on the site and post on introductions and respond to a lot of threads.
There has been two set backs that I felt "hurt" by and those changes cost around 1000 post each time. I know it is the cost of IT and "doing business" but I just have to get over it. It was nothing personal and I know Moo has only so much server space and things become dead space over time and had to be cleared.
Anyway. It has been a good site and helped me so much. Top contributor came and went, then was dropped all together. Other things have been said and done and I did not get a mention of any kind. I just had to remember "QTIP" and quite taking it personal.
The one thing I have and NO ONE can take it way from me is the MAIN PURPOSE of this site, and that is the 4 PM that I have from other members that simple say "Thank you for the advice and help you gave me. It got me through a very tough time and it is nice to know someone that understands and is will to tell me the truth."
Thank you Moo for ADISC and the people that helped me understand that its ok and I am not alone.
EGOR
