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kik91

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So, my friend Brian came up with this interview, which seems really awesome. Are you one who wants to share and elaborate? These are the questions. I'm going to post my answers below. Hope you like the interview and answer the questions for you and us to share!



1. When did you discover that you liked being an ABDL?

2. For you what mean being an ABDL?

3. Any anecdote you want to share with us about this?

4. Do you think that what happens to you now is the result of a childhood trauma?

5. What do you think is the hardest thing to be an ABDL?

6 .What do you think of the treatment that media gives to the ABDLs image?

7. What advice would you give to someone starting out in the community?

8. Do you think that being ABDL helped you as a person?

9. If you're infantilist do you carry with you any ABDL item in your daily life?

10 Do you think that a certain maturity is required (although it sounds paradoxical) to take this lifestyle?

11 As farewell tell us what are your plans for the future within the ABDL community.




My Answers:



1. When did you discover that you liked being an ABDL?
When I was about 7 years old. I was playing baby in a game. My cousins would pretend I was their baby and change my diapers (of course, no diaper, I was wearing clothes, I would just lift my legs and such with pants on). I was so excited, not sexually, but excited. Then my attention got into being a baby. I was always a thumbsucker, so that didn't help matters. From then on, I was an infantilist.

2. For you what is the meaning of being an ABDL?

To be free and true to yourself. To be authentic. To be special and to be innocent.

3. Any anecdote you want to share with us about this?

When I was 15, my mom discovered my diapers. She thought it was a joke I was planning on someone, but I got sooo nervous that I spilled the story of me liking them. My mom was understanding and ever since, it's been all cool. I'm glad she found them.

4. Do you think that what happens to you now is the result of a childhood trauma?
I have moon disorders, so no trauma but I have a constant illness that make me want to regress and be a baby,

5. What do you think is the hardest thing to be an ABDL?
Acceptance, from yourself and others. And getting diapers when you were/are a teenager!

6 .What do you think of the treatment that media gives to the ABDLs image?
It's not so bad, but it could be better.

7. What advice would you give to someone starting out in the community?
Be cool, don't over do it. Don't become too sexually dependent. Try to blend it as part of your identity, but not sexual fetishism.

8. Do you think that being ABDL helped you as a person?
Yes, it helped me become a better and more open human being. I have the chance to be understanding about a lot of things.

9. If you're infantilist do you carry with you any ABDL item in your daily life?
My cushion, which is my version of a plushie.

10 Do you think that a certain maturity is required (although it sounds paradoxical) to take this lifestyle?

Yes, if you're immature you will either reject yourself or overdo it until it becomes sick. if you're mature, you can find balance.

11 As farewell tell us what are your plans for the future within the ABDL community.
I want to learn to accept myself totally and my need of diapers as an emotional comfort item. I want people to care for me as I truly am and I hope to engage in ABDL meetings when I get the chance.
 

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What's the purpose of this interview? And you said you're going to share it; who with and why?
 

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What's the purpose of this interview? And you said you're going to share it; who with and why?

There is no purpose, just... expressing ourselves. I wanted to share it with you. You know, so we can get to know each other better.
 

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Do you have a license and registration to post this kind of review sir?
 

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Sorry, it's asking personal information, and I'm more paranoid than usual as of late. My apologies. Please don't let me derail the point of this, which is overall a good one. And I'll start.

1. I'm still working on liking it, so that would be a "to be determined." When I first realized this was a thing would probably be when I was 14 or so when I discovered the internet. When I first felt my interest was when I was 5 or so and I kept finding myself interested in everything diaper-related. When I became aware was probably at 8 or so when my parents accused me of being too interested and told me it wasn't normal.

2. For me, it's one of the few parts of me I still have difficulty accepting, and that's what makes it significant. I went out and bought myself a collar with no difficulty, but I still can't bring myself to even order this sort of stuff online.

3. When I was 14 or 15, I lifted a pull-up from my next door neighbor, so I could finally try a diaper on. Now I recognize it as wrong, but at the time, I did not. Also, looking back, it was probably a good thing overall. It confirmed that this was indeed something I was into and that it wasn't going away. It wasn't the right way to do it, but it did help me move towards accepting this.

4. Mine is almost certainly from being abused when I was growing up. My parents weren't great at the whole parenting thing, and they had a tendency to use shame to keep me in line, which made me have virtually no self-confidence or self-esteem. Also, they were very focused on "maturity" from a young age, and punished basically any regression, especially if I had an accident. It wasn't ever physical, besides spanking, but emotional abuse is far worse in my opinion. Then, at 8, I got sexually abused at a friend's house. No one noticed, and when I tried to withdraw, my parents basically forced me to socialize. So that pretty much reinforced my attraction to diapers as a way out, though I couldn't act on it.

5. I'd have to agree with kik91, accepting yourself is really hard. Now, my biggest issue is working past all my issues to finally act on it. For some reason, I still can't bring myself to do it.

6. The media really doesn't touch on infantilism directly, at least not anything I see. The only stuff I've only ever heard about what the guy who pretended to be disabled in order to get women to baby him, and that doesn't count in my mind. He was vilified, but he deserved to be, and he is not typical of the AB/DL population. Besides, I don't really think we should be in the news; this is a private part of our lives and the only way it's going to get on the news is through negative actions of certain deranged individuals who will improperly represent us.

7. I'd say don't worry about it too much, as there are weirder things out there, but also be wary. I've met some pretty kinky and/or open-minded people who don't want to get remotely involved with AB/DL stuff. It weirded several of them out to the point where they never really wanted to talk about it again. It's rare that someone reacts very positively to it if they're not into it themselves, but a lot of people will react negatively to it for no good reason.

8. That's complicated. On one hand, it did help me understand the world better because it put me with a fringe interest that no one really understands unless they're into it too. On the other hand, I have more than enough nonsense on my plate right now. I'm gay and suffering from PTSD, and I think that's more than enough for me to understand the world. Being a DL makes me want to turn to that right now, but my PTSD makes me too paranoid to even begin to act on it. It's just another source of stress right now, and I'm already very close to my breaking point again.

9. I do not own any AB/DL items, let alone carry any of them.

10. I don't think so. Different maturity levels is going to mean different ways of acting on this, but I feel like someone who is immature is just going to make more mistakes than someone who is more mature. Also, the level of success would be entirely subjective, as most of us almost certainly have different ideas about what this lifestyle entails.

11. My plans are to continue to try to come to terms with this better and hopefully act on it more in the future. Right now though, that's a very long way off, as my PTSD therapy is doing some very bad things to me mentally.
 

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FYI: Previous attempts at "interviews" have not been well received I would guess because we all like our anonymity here.
 

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I agree with anonymity being of utmost importance, but I would think that as long as care is taken, these questions can be answered without any identifying or personal information. I think this kind of thing can be a good resource, especially for people who are new to ABDL. Yes, it will be re-hashing lots of things discussed in other threads, but that's not always a bad thing. I don't have time do the interview at the moment, but I'll take a crack at it when I have some more down time in the next few days.
 

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1. When did you discover that you liked being an ABDL?
I had thoughts of it since I was like 4. I used to dream or lay in bed and think about diapers and situations where I'd be put back in diapers, but that was probably because I had severe bedwetting issues

2. For you what mean being an ABDL?
To let who you are truly flourish in the company of good understanding friends.

3. Any anecdote you want to share with us about this?
I used to take my nephew's diapers when I was around 14 and wear them. They fit me because I was super slim at the time, and it was great. Nothing like wearing a baby diaper.

4. Do you think that what happens to you now is the result of a childhood trauma?

Nah, the ABDL thing is because I was a severe bedwetter up until I was around 16-17.

5. What do you think is the hardest thing to be an ABDL?
Having the hide the stuff when you're young, or dealing with parents/family who aren't all that accepting.

6 .What do you think of the treatment that media gives to the ABDLs image?

Personally, the longer ABDL's stay out of the spotlight, the better. We don't need to be portrayed in media. We are in shows like CSI, and that sucks because it's a really bad representation of us, but at the same time, a good representation is impossible to come by because every ABDL who has been on TV acts like a they're not all there and they are far too kinky to portray an ABDL in a good way. We need to be represented as normal every day people, not people who say "yeah I'm a normal person but I also make hardcore bondage diaper wetting videos for the internet ;)" and that's what we have right now, and I hate it.

7. What advice would you give to someone starting out in the community?
Pick the best hiding spot you can and be careful. xP Tready lightly, and don't give into the temptation to tell random people in your lives, because they don't need to know. You wouldn't want to hear of how they get off, so don't tell them how you get off.

8. Do you think that being ABDL helped you as a person?
I've met the best friends a person could ever ask for. They've saved my life, and they have always been there for me when I need them. I probably wouldn't be here right now if it was not for the people in my life I've met through being an ABDL. I've met the person I love through what sounds like impossible odds because of it, and I've met friends who I would give up every possession I own just to make them happy.

9. If you're infantilist do you carry with you any ABDL item in your daily life?

Absolutely not, I don't need to mix my everyday life with my ABDL life.

10 Do you think that a certain maturity is required (although it sounds paradoxical) to take this lifestyle?

Yeah. This community is full of disgusting immature asshats, and it's disgusting. At times I'm ashamed to be an ABDL because of it. People need to straighten their act up and behave like a decent average person in this community, except they never do. They get online, get on IRC and say stuff like "i'm looking for diaper playmates :) :)" because THAT isn't creepy at all or anything.

11 As farewell tell us what are your plans for the future within the ABDL community.
Get together with the person I love and be myself. I won't have to hide anything, and I'll be able to indulge (and be helped to indulge) as often as I want.
 

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I actually like the idea of this survey in particular because it's not very revealing. and it gives me an opportunity to feel special, which is always appealing to my narcissism :)


1. When did you discover that you liked being an ABDL?

That's a tough question because for the longest time I didn't know what being an ABDL meant. I noticed an attraction to diapers as far back as around 6 years old, but it didn't register to me as something sexual, or even something that was very odd. Granted I never made it a point to tell everyone about my interests in diapers, but that subconscious drive to wear them again caused me to dare a few friends to wear them. Those dares almost always produced terrible results. But I couldn't rid myself of this fascination.

So for most of my life I was purely DL until I discovered ADISC and learned what being an AB really meant. I had a basic idea that people liked to be treated like babies, but I never identified or agreed with those sorts of stories because they were usually over the top and I didn't like the idea of regressing to infancy. I prefer regression to childhood, and that just happens to involve diapers.

2. For you what is the meaning of being an ABDL?

Again, not an easy question. They both have their separate identities and meanings associated with them. But one thing I think they both have at the root of their purpose is relaxation, comfort and security. These all stem from the diapers mostly. If we're referring to solely myself, then what it means to be an ABDL is understanding our inner wants and desires and tapping into those things in an appropriate matter.

3. Any anecdote you want to share with us about this?

For me, understanding why I am an AB/DL is extremely important to fully unlocking my ability to regress and enjoy this part of me. I've spent most of my life shunning this part of me and loathing myself for being something I didn't want to be at first. So my trials and tribulations have been focused on releasing the anxiety and fear associated with this part of me so I can fully embrace who I am as a person and enjoy life being myself. ADISC helped with this immensely, and I found that where I once despised the thought of being taken care of as a child/infant, I now find the thought appealing because I understand what it is about this thing that I was so obstinately opposed to. A large majority of that opposition was due to my identity crisis as a young adult male in contemporary society. I couldn't accept my desires for diapers because they made me feel weak and inferior, which I equated to the people who would want to fully regress to babies and be taken care of. By accepting this part of myself, I soon accepted the more intimate and caring aspects of my AB/DLism. That has radically changed my life for the better.

4. Do you think that what happens to you now is the result of a childhood trauma?

I think childhood trauma may be a contributor, but I don't think it is the sole purpose for someone being an AB/DL. I think we all have a small little spark of AB within us to an extent. This doesn't necessarily relate to DLism because that's focused primarily on an object whereas the ABism is focused on inner feelings and desires. But you can ask anyone about their childhood and most people will fondly reminisce about their past. Generally, it's not just childhood that people are looking back to, but the associated feelings of innocence and carelessness. A perception of simplicity and ease. Regression is about returning to these ideals. And anyone who has dealt with childhood trauma wants to return to those memories before the trauma where things seemed innocent and carefree, so you can begin to see the intersection. The full on expression of regression is only geared towards certain people who have a special connection with this retreat into their mind.

5. What do you think is the hardest thing about being an ABDL?

I think it comes in stages. Initially the hardest thing for everyone is finding out what the heck is up with them, what the heck are they feeling and why do they feel that way. That confusion and isolation is always the hardest first step towards understanding AB/DLism. Then it becomes the constant paranoia after that. How do you get diapers, where do you get them, how do you get them without being noticed, where do you stash them, what do you say if you're found out, etc. After you fully accept yourself though and come to terms with all of these questions, I feel as though the number one hardest thing any AB/DL has to deal with in their life is how they are going to find a significant other that will either indulge with them in this fetish or help them explore the fetish on their own. I'm transitioning between the paranoia and significant other stages. It's quite difficult at times, but I'm still optimistic.

6 .What do you think of the treatment that media gives to the ABDLs image?

I don't think we're that well known in the media, which is a double edged sword. People will always make fun of things they don't understand. It's their attempts at making light of their ignorance so as to not feel lesser. That being said, the only way I would want our image in the media to be brought to light is if it was done so by a successful and mature adult baby who does not flip their entire lifestyle around specifically to be an adult baby. They should be an adult first and a baby second. But that's another paradox in its own right. The type of person I would want to represent our community would never do it because they wouldn't see the need in revealing themselves to other people just to be judged unnecessarily.

7. What advice would you give to someone starting out in the community?

Just start talking to people! It's always daunting at first to open up, but you will implode from an emotional overload if you don't get around to talking to people about what you're feeling. It doesn't have to be in person. In fact, I would highly recommend starting off talking to people on the internet and deciding whether it would be beneficial for you to tell people who you are near and dear to. But do yourself a favor and find a community to be a part of or just some sort of healthy outlet where you can truly be yourself and be happy. But don't feel alone and don't bottle up your emotions for fear of being judged. That will slowly kill you inside.

8. Do you think that being ABDL helped you as a person?

Absolutely. I am much better able to connect to children which means all the kids I know love running up to me to invite me into a game of tag or to tell me about some cool new game they got or a funny/cool movie they saw. This ability to feel comfortable talking to an adult makes them feel like they are actually a person and not just some parasite to be watched over all the time. That's a huge bonus to their confidence. I'm also MUCH more tolerant. Whenever I hear about someone doing something that is socially unacceptable, I immediately stop myself from judging and start off with relating it to myself. Would people react the same way if this involved me and my fetish? Would I feel undue pressure over something that really was only a big deal because of other ignorant people? In this way, by relating to someone who I would normally judge, I can be a much nicer person. Lastly, it has made me such a happier person. Dealing with this part of me has helped me also cope with my sexuality. These things in turn have helped me become better able to introspectively analyze myself and my life and make rational changes that benefit me and make me happy. Plus just having an outlet is so pivotal in enjoying life.

9. If you're infantilist do you carry with you any ABDL item in your daily life?

I'm much more of a Little Boy than an infantilist, so no I don't have any daily AB/DL items that I carry. Most AB items are a hassle for me because I'm worried about if someone will find them or something so they're kept away. I do sometimes wear printed briefs under my clothes though. It's gives me a funny feeling to know I'm indulging in my little side and no one has a clue.

10. Do you think that a certain maturity is required (although it sounds paradoxical) to take this lifestyle?

I believe so. Granted any immature fool can be an AB/DL and still survive, so saying that a certain sense of maturity is REQUIRED is a bit misleading. However, to function normally and properly in today's society and still be an AB/DL, then yes that would require maturity. But the same could be said for any lifestyle. Moderation is key. With this thing in particular though, the maturity mostly comes in balancing daily life with adult responsibilities and personal fun. So long as all your responsibilities are handled appropriately and you aren't negatively affecting anyone else, then you can be as immature and ridiculous as you want (in the privacy of your own home). But be sure that this doesn't consume your life.

11. As farewell tell us what are your plans for the future within the ABDL community.

Even though I've been around ADISC since I was about 17, I haven't really been involved in the ABDL community so to speak. So my plans for the future include actually participating in relatively local ABDL scenes. I want to go to a few munches and maybe conventions to meet like-minded people, and ideally find a significant other (or at least a few people who's company I can enjoy.) Really I just want to meet other people who are close to my age who don't regress only to relax in an infantile state, but regress to find a sense of child-like innocence, imagination and, most importantly, adventure. I would pick someone who was vanilla but still had a wild imagination and sense of adventure over an AB who just wanted to lay in bed all day and do nothing any time. Doesn't mean I don't want to end an adventurous day snuggling up and giggling to each other under the covers, but my life is all about exploring and having fun. And exploring new ways to have fun!
 

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Thanks to everybody who has taken part of it. As I said, this is just to we can understand each other better. I love many answers I heard, because it made me feel connected to you guys. I think this survey/interview is a really good exercise just to let it go and explore within ourselves. Thanks everybody, keep the great answers flowing!
 

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1. When did you discover that you liked being an ABDL?
I can't say that I actually like being an ABDL but my attraction to diapers are part of my earliest memories from about 4 years old.
2. For you what mean being an ABDL?
I have unusual desires that are difficult to share with anyone outside of the ABDL community.
4. Do you think that what happens to you now is the result of a childhood trauma?
No. Imprinting theories sound the most believable to me regarding the causes of these desires. Childhood experiences, good, bad, or ordinary, need not be traumatic for imprinting to take place. Traumatic experiences, on the other hand, can lead to learning psychological coping mechanisms, but this kind of learning is different from imprinting.
5. What do you think is the hardest thing to be an ABDL?
Self acceptance.
6 .What do you think of the treatment that media gives to the ABDLs image?
The media generally can't handle complex issues without completely distorting the facts. With ABDL issues the media is primarily concerned with exploiting them for their freak show, i.e. commercial, value.
7. What advice would you give to someone starting out in the community?
Don't hold back. Speak your mind.
8. Do you think that being ABDL helped you as a person?
I believe I'm more open minded than I would be if I didn't have these desires.
9. If you're infantilist do you carry with you any ABDL item in your daily life?
I wear diapers much of the time.
10 Do you think that a certain maturity is required (although it sounds paradoxical) to take this lifestyle?
Of course. Being successful as an independent adult requires a level of maturity no matter what lifestyle is chosen. Even those who wish to be as completely dependent as a baby would need to be able to think like an adult in order to have any chance of receiving the kind of treatment they desire.
11 As farewell tell us what are your plans for the future within the ABDL community.
To keep reading and expressing opinions, and keep evolving.
 

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1. When did you discover that you liked being an ABDL?
I kinda had little tendancies all my life but it was not till my early 20's that I knew what it was and started looking into it.

2. For you what mean being an ABDL?
For being an ABDL means that I get to let out a side of me I had to hide and ignore for so many years. For me it is my get away from stress and a way to relax and calm down.

3. Any anecdote you want to share with us about this?
One time not long after I had started accepting my little side. I was in the hospital. I was in the ICU and had my first PTSD episode. My mom and several nurses were in the room. I woke up from the most life like nightmare I have ever had (still have it) and was screaming and crying. I had my pacifier packed in my back pack. I knew it was the only thing that could calm me. But I said nothing. The nurses tried and tried for 15 minutes to calm me down. Finally as if in defeat. I turned to my mom and some how communicated with her that my pacifier was in my back pack. I knew she did not agree with my use of it but at the moment I cared more about getting my mind under control than what she thought. She pulled it out and said she did not agree with me using it but she gave it to me any way. I put it in my mouth and about 5 minutes later I was totally calm. I looked over and saw tears in my mother's eyes. I fell asleep before I could ask her why the tears. But a few days later she talked to me and told me why. She said that in that moment when she gave the pacifier to me and it totally calmed me down she felt bad for all the years she had tried to get me to stop sucking my thumb and pacifier. She said that in that moment she saw the baby that I was. She said She say only her little girl that needed comforting. You may wonder why I tell this story but it is one that stands out to me as a huge turning point in my life and my little life. It was the moment that my mom began down the road of accepting my ABDL side. And it was a moment that helped me to truly accept me for who I am.

4. Do you think that what happens to you now is the result of a childhood trauma?
I would say yes and no. I was a middle child and often neglected. so yes I regress back to the age when I was the baby of the family and taken care of. But also it is from an adulthood trauma involving some severe medical issues. it is my way to go to a safe place.

5. What do you think is the hardest thing to be an ABDL?
It is hard having to hide it from the outside world. Not being socially accepted. The fact that yyou have to be an adult all the time out in public.

6 .What do you think of the treatment that media gives to the ABDLs image?
It drives me nuts that they always portray the extreme side of it. They never show the people that live normal lives and do this on the side. They only show the ones who want to expose that side when ever they get a chance. Those are the ones that give ABDL's a bad name. They never show the struggles that we all go through.

7. What advice would you give to someone starting out in the community?
Take it slow. Don't feel like you are a disgusting person for having these desires. You are who you are and do not be ashamed of that.

8. Do you think that being ABDL helped you as a person?
It has helped me to see the softer side of people. And it has helped me to be more gentle toward people.

9. If you're infantilist do you carry with you any ABDL item in your daily life?
If it was more socially acceptable yes. Sometimes I have a binky in my pocket or back pack. When ever I go out we have a diaper bag packed.

10 Do you think that a certain maturity is required (although it sounds paradoxical) to take this lifestyle?
Yes I do. You have to know what is enough. You have to know when it is appropriate to wear, say, and do certain things. I feel that the people who flaunt it are not being mature about it. There is always a time and place for it. You need to be mature enough to know what is right for any given time or place.

11 As farewell tell us what are your plans for the future within the ABDL community.
For my future in the ABDL community. I want to meet people who are ABDL. I want to use my little side to help me through the rough patch I am having. Use it to learn to calm and quiet my troubled mind and body. For me my little side is one way to really truly calm down after I have a seizure. I often fight it and I am trying to work on letting Daddy know when it is best to help me regress and to not question him or fight it when he does. I want daddy and I to get to a place where we are happy with my little side 100%. I do want to have the things that help me feel little and keep me safe. Such as a nursery, which in my case will be a safe place for more than one reason(crib keeps me safe during seizures). I also want to get to the point where I can happily switch to the mommy role when needed. That is my biggest struggle right now. I also want to be a help in bridging the gap and battle between the ABDL and incontinent community. We can live in the same world and not have to hate on each other. I have a special situation as I am both. I know I can help others learn to be ok with both.
 

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1. When did you discover that you like being an ABDL?
I was 36 years old. I never even knew what a ABDL was until just last year actually. That being said I knew I liked diapers when I was 6 years old but I never really got around to enjoying them much until I was 13 because of the torment that I was going through.

2.for you what is the meaning of being ABDL?
I see it as a formal challenge to be myself from society in general quite simply. I just happen to have enough audacity to formerly challenge the social stigma (I.E society in general) that comes with wearing diapers from what is a obviously selfish,self-centered, egotistical, backwards minded societal concept.

3.Any Anecdote you want to share with us about this?
I was chronically homeless and could not find a place to wear diapers (remember it never even occurred to me to even regress until last year so all I did was wear diapers just to help me relax when I could) as I was either trying to hide from people trying to mug me or was in a room filled with dozens of people who would try to kill me in my sleep when I was not outside if they knew I was into this.

4. Do you think that what happens to you now is the result of childhood trauma?
Yes. I was emotionally and mentally abused by my own family, school(including teachers), and almost everyone else around me because at that time know one knew what Asperger's was. I can clearly remember my personality disorders being molded into what they are today when that abuse began. The abuse never got started until I was 13 though and it was rather mild actually at least in comparison to most stories actually.

5. What do you think is the hardest thing to be an ABDL?
The hardest thing for me was doing what I could to not hate myself. I never did quite have that victims mentality but I came as close to it as one could get without that being the case.

6. What do you think of the treatment that media gives to ABDLs image?
I think the media needs to put up some actual correlative data about ABDLs instead of acting like their disingenuous statements are actually helping. I do not buy into their act. Their lack of being candid, all in the name of getting their ratings up is rather disgusting usually. Of course I also see the problem that ABDL's themselves think it's impossible to get good, decent, honest media coverage is impossible. In reality it's just merely difficult not impossible. Of course I would recommend that if one where to come out they should think very carefully and not recklessly about what they are doing but good things can be done which is why I do not actively discourage doing that either.

7. What advice would you give to someone starting out in the community?
Always ask yourself the question "Does doing this hurt anyone else in any way shape or form?" But also do not over think these things either.

8. Do you think that being ABDL helped you as a person?
Absolutely. I would have gone mad by now and been dead if I did not do this to simply relax and calm myself.

9. If your infantilist do you carry with you any ABDL item in your daily life?
Well technically my diapers but that is due to medical necessity only. Otherwise I would not carry any of that around with me for no other reason then it's more weight I would prefer to not carry with me when I walk miles on end every day. (I do not have a car or driver's license and have to use the bus or my legs and sometimes my legs can be faster then the bus depending on circumstances. I.E I walk 10 miles a day on average usually and weight is a serious consideration when you think about it.)

10. Do you think that a certain maturity is required (although is sounds paradoxical) to take this lifestyle?
No. The reason why is because I see dozens of hypocrites on both sides of debates on this site. It's obvious that there's quite a few people into this that suffer from the delusion that they are mature and pretend to know what they are talking about.I see people that are obviously immature enough to seriously think that their being hurt by someone who does not know better is justification to take their hurt out on everyone else on this site. For lack of better words I see immaturity on both sides of a debate almost all the time here and so being mature is most decidedly not a requirement to being a ABDL. That being said maturity or lack thereof does not make someone immature either if they happen to be ABDL though.

11. As farewell tell us what are your plans for the future within the ABDL community.
I want to find a caretaker who will not judge me and even allow me to take care of him/her sometimes as well. ( I actually would like to be someone's caretaker as much as get taken of care by them as well some nights.)
 
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kitterdafoxy

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1. When did you discover that you liked being an ABDL?
I know that most people won't believe me, but i have had babyfur feelings since i was around 2, yes 2. i still remember the moment that i realized it, it was a chilly fall night, i was laying in my crib and i just had an "urge" to act like a fox. i was perplexed at first as to how i would do this, i had never seen a fox in person, so i just sat there for a few minutes thinking about it. out of nowhere, as if by instinct, i let out the longest, most beautiful howl ever, i just looked up and opened my mouth and out came a long howl that sounded just like a fox's howl. i just sat there for a moment, stunned at what just happened, then, another odd thing happened. i opened my mouth, stuck out my tough and yawned, then i curled up like a fox and fell asleep, weirdest.thing.ever! as for the "sissy" part, i just always felt drawn to frills and dresses and wanted to be a girl (I'm COMPLETELY ASEXUAL fyi). througout my youth, i acted like a fox sometimes, laying under a blanket for a "den", eating food like a fox, walking on all fours, etc. my mom just thought i was being a kid and brushed it off, boy was she wrong, i never stopped acting like a fox sometimes after the fall day in 1994. on an interesting side note, when i got my perminint teeth, they grew to be quite sharp like a foxes, very interesting?

2. For you what mean being an ABDL?
for me, being a babyfur means three things, caring, playing, and relaxing. first off, caring means that i like to be gental and nurturing, something i never was able to do as a child, because i tried to act manly around everybody. i was very embarrassed when i acted childlike around my moms boyfriend, so i tried to grow up way to early. by growing up, i mean i started wearing leather jackets, fishing, and trying to be an outdoors men. i also wore plaid flannel shirts and split wood out back (midwest, lots of wood). when my mom broke up with her boyfriend in 1998, i was finally able to act childlike and carefree, but i had to do it in private because i was embarrassed to do it in front of people. playing means that i am finally able to be a childlike sissy fox after 20 years of waiting, finally. finally, relaxing, relaxing means that i can finally be relaxed after my life of hiding my true side away for two decades.

3. Any anecdote you want to share with us about this?
i already said alot of things about my life, but i guess there is room for a few more memories :). one of my most vivid memories happened in third grade when our school got new IMAC's (the egg shaped ones with the colored backs). this was in the year 2000 when you had to wait forever to get on netscape navigator, so we only got to use the internet on our lunch break. so this one time, i wanted to use netscape to do some research for a school project (on edison of all people:)) and i asked the teacher to use the beast of a machine during lunch, she said ok. so i came in during recess and started up the huge snow colored imac (fun fact, i have the same computer, i got it from a school auction some years later:)) and hoped on netscape. after several minutes of dial up sounds, i was on Google to research edison, but since i was alone and i was curious, i started to look up "acting like a fox" and found bittergrey's webpage. i was in shock, that was what i wanted to do, be a sissyfur fox, i was not alone! i browsed the site during recess and logged off when everybody came in. one thing, i forgot to clear history and was found out when some kids tried to look up "Boobs.com" (kids, gotta love em). good part was they got in trouble for looking at boobs and i got off the hook, good times :):).

Do you think that what happens to you now is the result of a childhood trauma?
no, not one bit. i had a loving mom and grandparents and was never spanked a day in my life, they just gentalt corrected me and moved on. i have had these thoughts since i was very young, even before i even knew what it was called, it's part of me, moving on.

What do you think is the hardest thing to be an ABDL
the time i bought my first pacifier back in a blizzard in 2002. this story is kind of long, but bear with me, it quite funny and has a good ending. so back in 2002 i started planning how to get a pacifier, like a heist in gta 5, i picked a date, clothing, times, etc, and started creating a whole set up. i was gonna go to the pharmacy, go in, buy the pacifier and leave simple right? at the time yes, on the day of the plan, not so much. i got up at the crack of dawn and put on my winter clothes and ushanka and head to the cvs. i went in and headed to the baby aisle, i was shaking and sweating bullets, but i made it to the aisle and picked out a pacifier. i started slowly walking towards the checkout lanes and got in line, by now i'm freaking out BIG TIME, like a panic attack. when its finally my turn to pay, I'm sweating TONS of sweat, the clerk notices this and asks me what the problem is, i say i'm just really,really hot and take off my ushanka, bad idea, a pool of sweat comes out all over my head. he just looks at me and i say "just ring me up QUICK!", which he does and gives me my recipet. i say "THANKS!" and run outside with my pcifier in one hand and my ushanka in the other, when i get outside i am almost knocked off my feet by a huge gust of wind. i put my ushanka with the pacifier under it and start going against the wind back home, completely abandoning my bike at the cvs. it's still dark, it's snowing, and i am out in this mess trying to get home. when i finally get home, i'm COVERED in SNOW and colapse in the lobby of my house. i wake up that night in a pool of melted snow in my soaked winter clothing, with my grandma making dinner and my mom sleeping. i get up and take off my hat and hide my pacifier in my pocket and take off my coat, weirdest.day.ever >_<.

What do you think of the treatment that media gives to ABDLs image?
it really goes both ways for me, good or bad, never both. i just brush it off and go on with my life, it's not like i can help it.

What advice would you give to someone starting out in the community?
always.be.yourself, plain and simple, don't let anything try and change your mind, it won't work.

Do you think that being ABDL helped you as a person?
yes, i would have died long ago if i didn't have this outlet, best decision i ever made *fox muzzle nuzzles*.

If your infantilist do you carry with you any ABDL item in your daily life?
yes, my strawberry pink transparent pacifier, or as i call it, the "IPACIFIER G3", i doubt anyone will get the joke, its really out there :). sometimes i step away from the scene for a bit and go to private place, a bathroom perhaps, and pull out my pacifier and just start nursing :paci: .

Do you think that a certain maturity is required (although is sounds paradoxical) to take this lifestyle?
no, i was born this way and will never change :).

As farewell tell us what are your plans for the future within the ABDL community.
i'm at peace with myself, no need to change. Muzzle Nuzzles from Indiana :).

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CrazySmoker

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My 0,02€...

1. When... ? Always I had some kind of "wishes," especialy for pacis.

2. Way of relax, escape, somthing like that...

3. I was discovered by cops, when diapered and my suitcase with rest of the toys open. So fun... Female cop hmmmmm... Hope I find her somewhere out of service. Let's try some fun, no ?

4. Not sure, but may there's something related.

5. Privacy and (as for me) isn't easy to find some kind of GF. That doesn't mean I haven't sometimes some relations, of course I've, but is of these "short time" relations.

6 . Media... A few stinky word. Mostly shows extrems, just "it'd be interesting." It'd help to someone to show "you're not alone," that's OK, but show some kind of people in media is better not to do. Can do very bad work.

7. Adisc isn't site for search GF.

8. Not sure. But when I can't relax as I want so long time (and not for purge, someties it comes,) I see myself a few more agresive...

9. Sometimes I've paci somwhere in my pockets/car, but not always

10. Denitively yes.

11. There's no any plan. Enjoy and share experience. May I'd tell I've some real friends and sometimes we do "some kind of diaper madness togther."
 
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1. When did you discover that you liked being an ABDL?

Somewhere between the ages of 4 and 6.

2. For you what does being an ABDL mean?

I would guess it means that I am able to express myself in a way that I cannot do so publicly.

3. Any anecdote you want to share with us about this?

I got found out once, that wasn't fun.

4. Do you think that what happens to you now is the result of a childhood trauma?

Probably not. But no doubt instances throughout my life have helped strengthen it.

5. What do you think is the hardest thing to be an ABDL?

Normally I'd say acceptance, but since I have already crossed that bridge I'd have to say living it out.

6 .What do you think of the treatment that media gives to the ABDLs image?

They have their opinions, just as we have ours. But ignorant people demonizing what they don't understand have no place in having an opinion in the first place.

7. What advice would you give to someone starting out in the community?

Don't. Yes, I really mean that. If you're the type that wants to take a part in this community purely for the sake of interest, then do yourself a favor and save yourself the stress, this is not an easy thing for most to deal with let alone live out, there are more socially acceptable kinks in the community than Infantilism.

But if you're the type that has been dealing with infantilism for the most part of your life, as opposed to wanting to take part in it just for the sake of interest, then you are not alone, welcome.

8. Do you think that being ABDL helped you as a person?

Not really, I fail to see how what most consider a sexual kink would help anyone to be honest.

9. If you're infantilist do you carry with you any ABDL item in your daily life?


Nope.

10 Do you think that a certain maturity is required (although it sounds paradoxical) to take this lifestyle?

Oh hell yes, but it's severely lacking in the community (might have made a pun there, lol.)

11 As farewell tell us what are your plans for the future within the ABDL community.

Well, I wouldn't mind attending a meet at some point.
 
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Sanch

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  2. Little
1. When did you discover that you liked being an ABDL?

I think this side of me has always been there. I used to use a paci in secret until I was about 7, I always liked quite babyish things, and had that love of praise and being reassured when my friends were beginning their rebellious phases. I gradually got more into being an AB (the diapers are a small part of it for me) as time has gone on, and as I've come to accept this side of me. Being an AB is only something I've 'practiced' regularly since my late teens, but I've always been aware that this side of me existed.

2. For you what is the meaning of being an ABDL?

It's about comfort and relaxation. It's about relieving myself from the stresses of being an adult, and going back to a simpler and more comforting time. I also love the doting which comes with being an AB/Little.

3. Any anecdote you want to share with us about this?

I remember wearing my first onesie since childhood, snuggled up under the covers of my bed whilst watching cartoons, and just thinking 'I couldn't imagine anything I'd rather be doing in the world'.

4. Do you think that what happens to you now is the result of a childhood trauma?

Not trauma as such. I had a good family life growing up. I think my disability, which causes me to struggle when doing certain things for myself definitely contributes to it, as does the stress of having quite severe OCD.

5. What do you think is the hardest thing to be an ABDL?

The fact we enjoy a lifestyle which doesn't harm anyone else, yet is taboo to discuss. I also find it tough talking to my friends, and thinking 'If they knew about my ABDL side, they might hate me'. That's all hypothetical thinking, but still, I find it difficult to cope with the fact that people I love do, or might well, have a very negative perception of ABDL.

6 .What do you think of the treatment that media gives to the ABDLs image?

Generally it's very negative. The media love a shock-story, so it's beneficial to them to present some creepy, obnoxious moron like Stanley Thompson who seems to refute the notion he is technically an adult, instead of the average ABDL, who tends to be a normal, hardworking individual who just happens to like babyish activities and/or diapers. Some TV shows like CSI have done more sympathetic portrayals of ABDLs, but they're also harmful in the sense that they've suggested that ABDL is a kind of mental illness which results only from traumatic childhoods, a conclusion which suggests there's something wrong with us when we practice AB/Little/DL behaviours.

7. What advice would you give to someone starting out in the community?

Be careful who you tell about your ABDL interests. Whilst this site and several others are sympathetic to our interests, society as a whole is definitely not so keen on our lifestyle. If you feel it's absolutely beneficial to tell someone, fine, but think carefully before you inform your Mom/Dad/Girlfriend/Guy named Tony who you once met in Burger King that you like peeing in a large diaper or enjoy wearing a paci. They might not be quite as accepting about this as people who also enjoy, or at least can relate to ABDL behaviours.

8. Do you think that being ABDL helped you as a person?

Eventually. For a while I saw it as a real annoyance, and it did cause me to become moody and withdrawn for a time. Nowadays, I feel it's made me a more accepting, open and understanding person. I just wish I could've jumped ahead to that step initially!

9. If you're infantilist do you carry with you any ABDL item in your daily life?

Sometimes take a plushie into work, and if I'm having a tough day, I'll find a quiet spot and take them out of my satchel for a cuddle. Besides that, no.

10 Do you think that a certain maturity is required (although it sounds paradoxical) to take this lifestyle?

Yeah. I think you need maturity to accept that this is part of who you are, but also to realise that it can't be your whole life, and (outside of a few extreme examples) you can't give up all your adult responsibilities to sit in a high chair and be spoon fed 24/7.

11 As farewell tell us what are your plans for the future within the ABDL community.

Make some friends, share my experiences and hopefully hear about some new baby toys I can add to my collection! :)
 
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