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I am literally confused so I may need some mind help o.o

(i've been padless for awhile because of an incident so feel free to follow up right here: http://www.adisc.org/forum/entry.php/9963-Game-over-caught

and the earlier response to that ordeal: http://www.adisc.org/forum/entry.php/10001-Snapped-Nerves)

I had to stop for awhile and i'm finished with the bellissimo's but for some strange reason I have been getting some signs and I don't know whether they are strange coincidences or what not.

Here's the few that have happened last week and the week before. (These are true honestly)

1. I went to walmart to grab some stuff for dinner and strangely enough where the little pizza sauces were, right behind the cans were a pack of pacifiers (I can't remember size but it was baby sized definitely) ...I stared for a few seconds but proceeded to my mary way to the check out.

2. 3 days ago after that, I left college that day to head to target to pick up my mom's meds and when I left target, there was a baby diaper right near passenger side of my car (somehow, I missed it when I was pulling in o_O looked un-used anyway)

3. Wednesday, this I will still not believe even if I go back again and picture it. I went to go get gas for my car but unfortunately I couldn't pay with the card because card readers on the gas pumps don't work at this gas station so I had to go inside to pay with cash and I was behind this mother who had her little girl and this little girl stared at me (I don't know how long because I was looking at the gift cards thinking whether or not I should buy a google play for gems on clash of clans X3) and she took her pacifier out and reached her arm towards me saying "wan e (I guess "want it")" (WHAT THE FUCK! is what I said in my head)

4. Friday, (a day before I get to see Furious 7 which is an awesome movie! >=D) I had to pick up my friend Dmitri so we could hang out for the day...late at night, I ran him home and my mom calls me to go to walmart and pick up cheese nips for my niece (who is 17 months) which sadly enough I did because my niece loves snacks. I ran into walmart and nothing babyish happened! ...yet. I picked up the cheese nips (of course near the baby isle) and went to the check out. When I went to the self checkout (because I refuse to wait in long lines for 1 isle) there was literally a size 3 pack of pampers diapers sitting near the walmart bags and the cashier ladies said the self checkout I was at was not being used, her mother left it for some unknown reason.

>.< I have never seen signs this bad and I think I am losing my mind or something... is it a strange coincidence or is the baby god calling me to go back to my baby side again?
 
When you're on a diet you see cakes, cookies and ice cream everywhere.
 
I'd go with it.. Haha. So needing the diapers on this one.
 
zipperless said:
When you're on a diet you see cakes, cookies and ice cream everywhere.
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I never thought of that lol. SO are you comparing delicious cakes to delicious padding or something? o.o
 
Snivy said:
I am literally confused so I may need some mind help o.o

(i've been padless for awhile because of an incident so feel free to follow up right here: http://www.adisc.org/forum/entry.php/9963-Game-over-caught

and the earlier response to that ordeal: http://www.adisc.org/forum/entry.php/10001-Snapped-Nerves)

I had to stop for awhile and i'm finished with the bellissimo's but for some strange reason I have been getting some signs and I don't know whether they are strange coincidences or what not.

Here's the few that have happened last week and the week before. (These are true honestly)

1. I went to walmart to grab some stuff for dinner and strangely enough where the little pizza sauces were, right behind the cans were a pack of pacifiers (I can't remember size but it was baby sized definitely) ...I stared for a few seconds but proceeded to my mary way to the check out.

2. 3 days ago after that, I left college that day to head to target to pick up my mom's meds and when I left target, there was a baby diaper right near passenger side of my car (somehow, I missed it when I was pulling in o_O looked un-used anyway)

3. Wednesday, this I will still not believe even if I go back again and picture it. I went to go get gas for my car but unfortunately I couldn't pay with the card because card readers on the gas pumps don't work at this gas station so I had to go inside to pay with cash and I was behind this mother who had her little girl and this little girl stared at me (I don't know how long because I was looking at the gift cards thinking whether or not I should buy a google play for gems on clash of clans X3) and she took her pacifier out and reached her arm towards me saying "wan e (I guess "want it")" (WHAT THE FUCK! is what I said in my head)

4. Friday, (a day before I get to see Furious 7 which is an awesome movie! >=D) I had to pick up my friend Dmitri so we could hang out for the day...late at night, I ran him home and my mom calls me to go to walmart and pick up cheese nips for my niece (who is 17 months) which sadly enough I did because my niece loves snacks. I ran into walmart and nothing babyish happened! ...yet. I picked up the cheese nips (of course near the baby isle) and went to the check out. When I went to the self checkout (because I refuse to wait in long lines for 1 isle) there was literally a size 3 pack of pampers diapers sitting near the walmart bags and the cashier ladies said the self checkout I was at was not being used, her mother left it for some unknown reason.

>.< I have never seen signs this bad and I think I am losing my mind or something... is it a strange coincidence or is the baby god calling me to go back to my baby side again?
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I'm sorry things have gotten so crappy. I think when diapers and baby stuff are on the mind, we see them everywhere. For what it's worth, I went through this too, from about the age of 13 all through college until I was out on my own. The pull can be terrible, especially when it's coupled with teenage sexual angst.

I'm sorry you got caught. The same thing happened to me when I was in college, but I couldn't talk my mom out of seeing the shrink. She also found gay porn so it was this horrible double whammy. I had to tell this strange man that I liked wearing and wetting diapers and I liked other boys. Wow, what a fun day that was! Eventually I talked my mom out of going because I knew my parents didn't have the money for the sessions, and I felt guilty being the cause of the expense. Sometimes life just sucks.

What I had to do, was just keep everything on the down low until I moved out on my own. I did wear diapers, etc., but I was very careful. My bedroom was in the attic, so that made it a little easier, but my mom was a room searcher so I had to be creative. As for friends, relationships often are in flux. Just remember that your home problems are not their problems, and in fact, they don't even know about them. Try and keep both worlds separate. Anyway, I wish you the best.
 
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I never thought of that lol. SO are you comparing delicious cakes to delicious padding or something? o.o
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I rather like that comparison. You're being forced to go without right now since you got caught, so now it's on your mind all the time and you're on the lookout for it everywhere. Add on a couple random coincidences and here you are.

Is other stuff going okay though? Make sure you're still getting your schoolwork done even if you're a little distracted. And I haven't followed if you've ended up seeing a psychiatrist/psychologist yet, but feel free to come here and talk about it or PM me when you do if you just want to chat about it.
 
ArchieRoni said:
I rather like that comparison. You're being forced to go without right now since you got caught, so now it's on your mind all the time and you're on the lookout for it everywhere. Add on a couple random coincidences and here you are.

Is other stuff going okay though? Make sure you're still getting your schoolwork done even if you're a little distracted. And I haven't followed if you've ended up seeing a psychiatrist/psychologist yet, but feel free to come here and talk about it or PM me when you do if you just want to chat about it.
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No psychiatrist or any additional help or anything. All A's and B's on my grades for College. Have not gone down to a single D at all whatsoever X3 and Public Speaking I figured I would be a D or an F but I'm borderline of B and C actually.

Thanks btw Archie.
 
Go with it, you really gonna let some woman with a fancy piece of paper rule YOUR life? NO! Your better than that, don't submit to someone who isn't doing you any good!
 
kitterdafoxy said:
Go with it, you really gonna let some woman with a fancy piece of paper rule YOUR life? NO! Your better than that, don't submit to someone who isn't doing you any good!
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Kitter...it's just not that easy dude :/
 
Snivy said:
No psychiatrist or any additional help or anything. All A's and B's on my grades for College. Have not gone down to a single D at all whatsoever X3 and Public Speaking I figured I would be a D or an F but I'm borderline of B and C actually.

Thanks btw Archie.
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No psychiatrist ever, you've all agreed, or just not yet? If it's a sore issue, I actually would suggest you consider going. There's a chance, especially if you present yourself in a calm and competent manner, that the psych turns around and tells your mom that you're perfectly fine and what you're doing is a healthy mechanism to handle stress.

kitterdafoxy said:
Go with it, you really gonna let some woman with a fancy piece of paper rule YOUR life? NO! Your better than that, don't submit to someone who isn't doing you any good!
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That would be good advice if he weren't in college with no other place to live than his family. In another few years, this is the right way to go, but as long as you're living at home, Snivy, I think you do have to make compromises. Just do your best and don't be afraid to rant on ADISC about every diaper you see that's driving you crazy if that helps. =P
 
Snivy said:
Kitter...it's just not that easy dude :/
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Listen, if you need a way to feel babyish, get yourself some things and hide them somewhere, I was a home remodeler (one of my many odd jobs) and I could probably find a discrete way to hide some stuff without a trace, shoot me a pm.
 
ArchieRoni said:
No psychiatrist ever, you've all agreed, or just not yet? If it's a sore issue, I actually would suggest you consider going. There's a chance, especially if you present yourself in a calm and competent manner, that the psych turns around and tells your mom that you're perfectly fine and what you're doing is a healthy mechanism to handle stress.
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I don't think ever now because she has yet to bring it up now but if she sees them again, it's a definite yes about going.

And as to Kitter...College with no where else to go. I would consider the idea if I get a job and move to a dorm by myself.

kitterdafoxy said:
Listen, if you need a way to feel babyish, get yourself some things and hide them somewhere, I was a home remodeler (one of my many odd jobs) and I could probably find a discrete way to hide some stuff without a trace, shoot me a pm.
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I did actually...they were found when my mom went searching for my room after she caught me. (douche move btw, confronted her about it...did not work out the way I anticipated it would) . MY last set of diapers were in a discreet location that nobody would even suspect to look but I'm taking a safety pre-caution and just waiting it out.
 
Snivy said:
I don't think ever now because she has yet to bring it up now but if she sees them again, it's a definite yes about going.

And as to Kitter...College with no where else to go. I would consider the idea if I get a job and move to a dorm by myself.



I did actually...they were found when my mom went searching for my room after she caught me. (douche move btw, confronted her about it...did not work out the way I anticipated it would) . MY last set of diapers were in a discreet location that nobody would even suspect to look but I'm taking a safety pre-caution and just waiting it out.
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Damn, your good! Just keeping checking on them to make sure their still there and wait it out (or just find some discreet location to be babyish in (middle of the woods was always a favorite sport of mine as a teen).
 
kitterdafoxy said:
Damn, your good! Just keeping checking on them to make sure their still there and wait it out (or just find some discreet location to be babyish in (middle of the woods was always a favorite sport of mine as a teen).
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lol, if only it was that easy. I just ripped the bottom cover of my boxspring and stashed them there. They are all gone now. I don't plan on getting anymore till moving out time.
 
Snivy said:
lol, if only it was that easy. I just ripped the bottom cover of my boxspring and stashed them there. They are all gone now. I don't plan on getting anymore till moving out time.
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Okay, well then focus on getting your ass out of there more than anything, you don't have to pay out the ass for a good apartment and their not as bad as people say (never had a meth lab next door, and I only heard one couple getting it on).
 
sign, mm I though I was the only one getting that, it to weird.

well that type of stuff happens to me a lot to me it seem like it happened every time I stop thinking about AB, are wearing diapers. one time when I was younger I was out getting some stuff in the super market to get something and there was totter vinyl pants on top of what I was going to grab. it like baby stuff always showed up in the weirdest places every time I stopped with my AB side.

I don't know why it happens, I think it probably just coincidence that it happens. are my mind just pic up on it. I think it becaus desire my AB side to much. but it just weird when it happens.
 
That's really strange if I had no diapers left and all that started happening I'd buy more knowing it's all a sign, as for the girl offering the pacifier say 'hell yeah I'll try it!'
 
Note said:
I found that out when I was doing the gym thing. I also realized just how crappy fast food tasted after being on a strict diet for a while.
Whatever your reasons for taking part in AB/DL are, its a very powerful drive; especially if it has been a life long obsession. >_<

Its just your mind playing tricks on you dude...
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That's what I keep believe, it's strange o.o

Is it ironic how I was given $25 worth of Amazon money? That's M4's right there DX
 
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