In this lifestyle, a lonely Mommy can be just as bad as a lonely baby. However, I have a very happy relationship. I myself am an AB, but I have a daddy of my own (lives a couple of hours away from me) and even though we never see one another, we have a really close relationship, and he takes good care of me. He's very handsome and very excellent at indulging my babyish needs.
I wouldn't want to pin that responsibility on my boyfriend, who is three years younger than me (16). After having a lot of boyfriends, all of them older, I found one I really like. He lets me take care of him. He's the only boyfriend I've sung slow songs to. He's the only boyfriend who has let me cradle him in my lap and stroke his head. He's the only boyfriend I've had who sleeps with a stuffed animal. He's the only one who has cried, and I've always been there to comfort him when he's upset.
He finds little baby games to play along the way. One time, when we went out to eat, he made our waitress a "money hut" (she was very delighted by it). He also names random objects. He named his stuffed armadillo, "Lesley" and "everytime I see a snail", it gets a name because they look like "such happy little creatures". He names other things as well, some of them inappropriate. Hahaha, yeah, he's such a character)
Once, when cuddling, I showed him my boobs and he, very innocently, found great pleasure in breastfeeding from me. I cooed to him softly, "good boy". He showed an interest in the act itself, not just for the perversion of it or the sexual undertones. That sounds a little too graphic, but y'all are cool, I know you wouldn't mind
It breaks my heart that other girls his age have rejected him and dismissed him as weird or strange for his childlike attitude. But he doesn't take it personal, and he didn't change for them. He's a strong boy
I've told him about my AB side, and I've told him about my daddy Bradford. He didn't have much of a bad reaction, but I asked him if he'd like to play sometime and he said "you can keep that with Bradford". I told him that "I have another secret" and this one pertains to making him my baby. I told him I'd tell him in a couple of months, perhaps even years, and whenever I hint at babying him, he exclaims "No dresses or diapers. I mean it. No diapers". I can't even pinch his face without him saying "I'm not wearing any diapers before the night's over" And whenever I call him 'baby', in a more than affectionate way, the "NO DIAPERS" rule always comes out of his mouth. The eerie part is, I haven't even told him anything about diapers. I've told him I like to ageplay with my Daddy, Brad, but its creepy. I feel he can read right through me.
I wish he was more open to the diaper idea, and I wish he was more receptive about being a baby. For Christmas, I'm going to spend the night over his house. Any suggestions?
Thank you for your time. And thanks for hearing me out. I know its a strange story, hahah.
I hate being a lonely Mommy