Hello all,
About 10 months ago my wife started using diapers for discipline. That quickly escalated to 24/7 use, which happened off and on for, but became permanent a few months ago. Recently, my wife escalated me again to a changing schedule to ensure that I spend a lot of time messy.
During this new state for me, I'm finding that I feel extremely humiliated and degraded. I feel incredibly vulnerable. I'm often seeking out my wife for hugs and cuddles during this time, and I've found that the dynamic of being reassured and loved while in such a degraded state is absolutely intoxicating. I revere my wife like a god during this time, and I want nothing more than to earn her approval. Despite disliking diapers, I could never bring myself to walk away from this kind of intimacy, vulnerability, and acceptance.
After these experiences, the idea of having a Mommy Domme makes complete and total sense to me. I don't really want to call my wife "Mommy", but I think I'm starting to understand the appeal of that dynamic. It seems like age play (which my wife enforces from time to time) reinforces my mental state and serves as a continual reminder and metaphor of our roles. I truly feel, in many ways, like a child aspiring to court my adult wife who is way out of my league. It's extremely humbling when she loves me back during this state and that feeling is utterly magical.
So my question is this: am I feeling little space? Is this feeling of intense vulnerability -- the feeling of safely shedding my adult identity in a way that feels natural -- what people are talking about when they refer to little space?
Thanks!
julio.
About 10 months ago my wife started using diapers for discipline. That quickly escalated to 24/7 use, which happened off and on for, but became permanent a few months ago. Recently, my wife escalated me again to a changing schedule to ensure that I spend a lot of time messy.
During this new state for me, I'm finding that I feel extremely humiliated and degraded. I feel incredibly vulnerable. I'm often seeking out my wife for hugs and cuddles during this time, and I've found that the dynamic of being reassured and loved while in such a degraded state is absolutely intoxicating. I revere my wife like a god during this time, and I want nothing more than to earn her approval. Despite disliking diapers, I could never bring myself to walk away from this kind of intimacy, vulnerability, and acceptance.
After these experiences, the idea of having a Mommy Domme makes complete and total sense to me. I don't really want to call my wife "Mommy", but I think I'm starting to understand the appeal of that dynamic. It seems like age play (which my wife enforces from time to time) reinforces my mental state and serves as a continual reminder and metaphor of our roles. I truly feel, in many ways, like a child aspiring to court my adult wife who is way out of my league. It's extremely humbling when she loves me back during this state and that feeling is utterly magical.
So my question is this: am I feeling little space? Is this feeling of intense vulnerability -- the feeling of safely shedding my adult identity in a way that feels natural -- what people are talking about when they refer to little space?
Thanks!
julio.
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