Poofybutt
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Hey Everyone,
So, as you may have noticed, I haven’t posted much over the last few days. In addition to it being Canada Day long weekend, I was lucky enough to have a baby weekend with my Mommy friend. We’ve had plenty of fun with our Mommy and Baby friendship, this weekend was the first time we had gotten together in about 4 weeks. Leading up to this, I had sent Mommy a few e-mails that went unanswered and then I had a week and a half vacation across the Country. When I returned from that vacation a few days before the long weekend, I was pleasantly surprised to see an e-mail from Mommy, letting me know that she had this weekend free for a Baby/Mommy get together. I was excited and eager.
My weekend was a dream; lots of cuddles, diaper changes, feeding times, play times, bath times and nap times. I got to be Mommy’s baby in the late evening Saturday, All day Sunday and practically all day today, I got home at my place at about a quarter after 6pm. As great a weekend as I had, I didn't expect it to be our last.
I was curious as to why Mommy, hadn’t returned my e-mails from those 4 weeks ago. I asked her why she didn’t reply to my e-mails while we were driving up to her place and she told me it was work related. I understood that completely, I had been busy finishing up University and I had some freelance jobs myself as the summer started. Turns out it wasn’t just work.
On the way back to my place following our lovely weekend, my Mommy friend decided to level with me. She told me that around the time of my last e-mail, those 4 weeks ago, that an ex of hers came back into her life. This is someone she had quite the history with and she still had romantic feelings for him, so she felt it was necessary to unplug from me in an effort to rekindle this relationship. She told me that she intends to continue going steady with her former ex now that he has come back into her life and that she can’t be e-mailing me as often or moonlighting as my Mommy anymore. She said she would have told me this via e-mail, but she likes me too much as a friend and as a baby to do that, so she thought that having a final baby weekend together, when she had the time alone, would take the sting out. In summation, I am back to being a solo Baby Boy again.
First off, while I'm experiencing a mix of emotions, I’m not mad or bitter at all, I had mentally prepared for this happening. When me and my Mommy friend entered into this, it was a friendship with a Baby and Mommy dimension to it, nothing more. Mommy was very clear she was never going to date me because of the age difference and we both allowed one another to see other people and to do other things, only getting together when it worked for the both of us. So, this hasn’t been as devastating as say, a breakup, but it is a little sad that someone who I shared this side of myself with for nearly 6 months, someone who cared for me like no other, isn't going to be there for me anymore... or at least, not in the same capacity.
So, Mommy is up a boyfriend, I’m down a Mommy, but up a friend. My Mommy friend said she wouldn’t mind me e-mailing her from time to time, we can still be friends, but of course, the baby elements need to be downplayed as she is trying to distance herself from her maternal side to focus on her current, romantic relationship. Something else that perked me up a bit, was when Mommy said that if her relationship with her ex doesn’t pan out, she would be quick to start babying me again. Looking back on that last part though, I'm not sure how I feel about that, I don’t know if I would be happy knowing that I'm being babied on the rebound
Still, we are remaining friends and that’s a fair compromise. I liked her for much more than just her stellar Adult Baby care and Mommy skills, we had a lot in common and we had plenty of fun dinner and movie dates outside of the Baby and Mommy dynamic.
I guess, I’m feeling melancholic more than anything. I almost wish she had broken this information to me via an e-mail instead of having a final Baby/Mommy weekend. This past weekend, while amazing, will now stand as a reminder of what I can not have anytime soon.
When she drove me back to my place, we gave each other one last goodbye. We hugged it out for what seemed like forever. It was quite clear to me, that she was upset at this development too. I know my Mommy friend will have a bit of a hard time adjusting to this as well. Her final parting words to me, were to "perk up", that I’m such a kind, caring, loving, intelligent and attractive person, she has no doubt I will find someone to be a Girlfriend and a Mommy again. Forever the optimist, I am inclined to agree, I know, I just know that I will find that special someone, but how long will it take?
As Tom Petty once sang, “Waiting is the hardest part”. This prospective waiting and searching, the uncertainty they bring, it's not very pleasant and I think that's getting to me as well. My last year of University crippled my dating game, so many assignments, term papers and projects, I’m rusty as heck. The only dates I’ve been on since the summer started, have been pleasant distractions, ultimately nothing to write home about, all organized by well-meaning friends, but as I am sure some of you know, friends aren’t always the best match-makers, even though they mean well. Having a Masters Program coming up, I’m sure school will continue to cut into my dating and personal life. This makes me a little fearful as well, fearful that I may wind up searching a lifetime, dating countless others and I may still never be able to find somebody like my Mommy friend again; a pure, loving, caring and beautiful soul who mothered me out of sincere interest and complete altruism.
I’m sad, but I'm sure I’ll get over it. There are a couple of things that are keeping me from feeling completely devastated; my past track record with regards to accepting partners, the fact that she and I will still remain friends and that old saying, “Tis better to have loved and lost, than never to have loved at all”, or, I guess in my case it would be, “Tis better to have had a Mommy and lost, than never to have had a Mommy at all”. I know that there are other AB’s on this very site who have yet to experience what I have, many AB’s who are still searching for their GF/Mommy or BF/Daddy and now I’m back in that club.
I think I’m gonna try to diaper up and regress a little later, take my mind off things. I’m still processing this turn of events. Just thought I would share this with my padded pals here at ADISC. I’m looking for support and positivity right now, I could sure use some
Hugs,
Poofybutt
So, as you may have noticed, I haven’t posted much over the last few days. In addition to it being Canada Day long weekend, I was lucky enough to have a baby weekend with my Mommy friend. We’ve had plenty of fun with our Mommy and Baby friendship, this weekend was the first time we had gotten together in about 4 weeks. Leading up to this, I had sent Mommy a few e-mails that went unanswered and then I had a week and a half vacation across the Country. When I returned from that vacation a few days before the long weekend, I was pleasantly surprised to see an e-mail from Mommy, letting me know that she had this weekend free for a Baby/Mommy get together. I was excited and eager.
My weekend was a dream; lots of cuddles, diaper changes, feeding times, play times, bath times and nap times. I got to be Mommy’s baby in the late evening Saturday, All day Sunday and practically all day today, I got home at my place at about a quarter after 6pm. As great a weekend as I had, I didn't expect it to be our last.
I was curious as to why Mommy, hadn’t returned my e-mails from those 4 weeks ago. I asked her why she didn’t reply to my e-mails while we were driving up to her place and she told me it was work related. I understood that completely, I had been busy finishing up University and I had some freelance jobs myself as the summer started. Turns out it wasn’t just work.
On the way back to my place following our lovely weekend, my Mommy friend decided to level with me. She told me that around the time of my last e-mail, those 4 weeks ago, that an ex of hers came back into her life. This is someone she had quite the history with and she still had romantic feelings for him, so she felt it was necessary to unplug from me in an effort to rekindle this relationship. She told me that she intends to continue going steady with her former ex now that he has come back into her life and that she can’t be e-mailing me as often or moonlighting as my Mommy anymore. She said she would have told me this via e-mail, but she likes me too much as a friend and as a baby to do that, so she thought that having a final baby weekend together, when she had the time alone, would take the sting out. In summation, I am back to being a solo Baby Boy again.
First off, while I'm experiencing a mix of emotions, I’m not mad or bitter at all, I had mentally prepared for this happening. When me and my Mommy friend entered into this, it was a friendship with a Baby and Mommy dimension to it, nothing more. Mommy was very clear she was never going to date me because of the age difference and we both allowed one another to see other people and to do other things, only getting together when it worked for the both of us. So, this hasn’t been as devastating as say, a breakup, but it is a little sad that someone who I shared this side of myself with for nearly 6 months, someone who cared for me like no other, isn't going to be there for me anymore... or at least, not in the same capacity.
So, Mommy is up a boyfriend, I’m down a Mommy, but up a friend. My Mommy friend said she wouldn’t mind me e-mailing her from time to time, we can still be friends, but of course, the baby elements need to be downplayed as she is trying to distance herself from her maternal side to focus on her current, romantic relationship. Something else that perked me up a bit, was when Mommy said that if her relationship with her ex doesn’t pan out, she would be quick to start babying me again. Looking back on that last part though, I'm not sure how I feel about that, I don’t know if I would be happy knowing that I'm being babied on the rebound
Still, we are remaining friends and that’s a fair compromise. I liked her for much more than just her stellar Adult Baby care and Mommy skills, we had a lot in common and we had plenty of fun dinner and movie dates outside of the Baby and Mommy dynamic.I guess, I’m feeling melancholic more than anything. I almost wish she had broken this information to me via an e-mail instead of having a final Baby/Mommy weekend. This past weekend, while amazing, will now stand as a reminder of what I can not have anytime soon.
When she drove me back to my place, we gave each other one last goodbye. We hugged it out for what seemed like forever. It was quite clear to me, that she was upset at this development too. I know my Mommy friend will have a bit of a hard time adjusting to this as well. Her final parting words to me, were to "perk up", that I’m such a kind, caring, loving, intelligent and attractive person, she has no doubt I will find someone to be a Girlfriend and a Mommy again. Forever the optimist, I am inclined to agree, I know, I just know that I will find that special someone, but how long will it take?
As Tom Petty once sang, “Waiting is the hardest part”. This prospective waiting and searching, the uncertainty they bring, it's not very pleasant and I think that's getting to me as well. My last year of University crippled my dating game, so many assignments, term papers and projects, I’m rusty as heck. The only dates I’ve been on since the summer started, have been pleasant distractions, ultimately nothing to write home about, all organized by well-meaning friends, but as I am sure some of you know, friends aren’t always the best match-makers, even though they mean well. Having a Masters Program coming up, I’m sure school will continue to cut into my dating and personal life. This makes me a little fearful as well, fearful that I may wind up searching a lifetime, dating countless others and I may still never be able to find somebody like my Mommy friend again; a pure, loving, caring and beautiful soul who mothered me out of sincere interest and complete altruism.
I’m sad, but I'm sure I’ll get over it. There are a couple of things that are keeping me from feeling completely devastated; my past track record with regards to accepting partners, the fact that she and I will still remain friends and that old saying, “Tis better to have loved and lost, than never to have loved at all”, or, I guess in my case it would be, “Tis better to have had a Mommy and lost, than never to have had a Mommy at all”. I know that there are other AB’s on this very site who have yet to experience what I have, many AB’s who are still searching for their GF/Mommy or BF/Daddy and now I’m back in that club.
I think I’m gonna try to diaper up and regress a little later, take my mind off things. I’m still processing this turn of events. Just thought I would share this with my padded pals here at ADISC. I’m looking for support and positivity right now, I could sure use some
Hugs,
Poofybutt
