mayhem
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This may sound like bullshit but I just had an awkward experience. I’ve had my catheter out for a little while now. I thought I was having one of my good days and I hadn’t wet myself yet. Not having he feeling of a full bladder I walked to the (very quiet) break room and nuked some green tea. As I was fixing it up a coworker comes in and we’re chatting away when she says “what’s that sound” and lowers her head at the sink that I was standing right next to. I asked what sound because I didn’t know yet and she said “like water going down the drain I the sink” then I heard and realized that it was me.
She leaned closer and before I could move she said “oh my god, it’s you. You're...” and stood up. She looked at me and said “what happened?”. I thought I could play it off cool and I said “I don’t know, the sink is probably gettin clogged or something” and she said “I’m not going to tell anyone. I know what happened. I’ve heard it before with my mom before she passed. I meant what happened to you that your wearing diapers?” Holy... freaking... god... rather than bullshit I told her that I have a haywire nerve somewhere and it causes problems. My hands were again so damn much I spilled tea in myself and burnt my fingers (they are still shaking). She told me again not to worry and but I don’t know if I believe/trust her or not.
I want to crawl under a damn rock right now and not coming until I know she has forgotten about it. I needed to get this off my damn chest. This day sucks. I think I'm going to catheterize again. Iforgot how loud the hissing sound can be at times. Why does this crap have to happen to me?!
She leaned closer and before I could move she said “oh my god, it’s you. You're...” and stood up. She looked at me and said “what happened?”. I thought I could play it off cool and I said “I don’t know, the sink is probably gettin clogged or something” and she said “I’m not going to tell anyone. I know what happened. I’ve heard it before with my mom before she passed. I meant what happened to you that your wearing diapers?” Holy... freaking... god... rather than bullshit I told her that I have a haywire nerve somewhere and it causes problems. My hands were again so damn much I spilled tea in myself and burnt my fingers (they are still shaking). She told me again not to worry and but I don’t know if I believe/trust her or not.
I want to crawl under a damn rock right now and not coming until I know she has forgotten about it. I needed to get this off my damn chest. This day sucks. I think I'm going to catheterize again. Iforgot how loud the hissing sound can be at times. Why does this crap have to happen to me?!